第8章

类别:其他 作者:Robert Louis Stevenson字数:20839更新时间:18/12/21 13:17:54
Paulwasrawandirritable。Healsoweariedhismotherveryoften。 Shesawthesunshinegoingoutofhim,andsheresentedit。 Astheywerefinishingbreakfastcamethepostmanwithaletter,fromDerby。Mrs。Morelscreweduphereyestolookattheaddress。 “Giveithere,blindeye!”exclaimedherson,snatchingit,awayfromher。 Shestarted,andalmostboxedhisears。 “It’sfromyourson,Arthur,“hesaid。 “Whatnow——!”criedMrs。Morel。 “’MydearestMother,’“Paulread,“’Idon’tknowwhatmade,mesuchafool。Iwantyoutocomeandfetchmebackfromhere。 IcamewithJackBredonyesterday,insteadofgoingtowork,andenlisted。Hesaidhewassickofwearingtheseatofastoolout,and,liketheidiotyouknowIam,Icameawaywithhim。 “’IhavetakentheKing’sshilling,butperhapsifyou,cameformetheywouldletmegobackwithyou。Iwasafool,whenIdidit。Idon’twanttobeinthearmy。Mydearmother,Iamnothingbutatroubletoyou。Butifyougetmeoutofthis,IpromiseIwillhavemoresenseandconsideration……’“ Mrs。Morelsatdowninherrocking-chair。 “Well,NOW,“shecried,“lethimstop!” “Yes,“saidPaul,“lethimstop。” Therewassilence。Themothersatwithherhandsfolded,inherapron,herfaceset,thinking。 “IfI’mnotSICK!”shecriedsuddenly。”Sick!” “Now,“saidPaul,beginningtofrown,“you’renotgoing,toworryyoursouloutaboutthis,doyouhear。” “IsupposeI’mtotakeitasablessing,“sheflashed,turningonherson。 “You’renotgoingtomountituptoatragedy,sothere,“ heretorted。 “TheFOOL!——theyoungfool!”shecried。 “He’lllookwellinuniform,“saidPaulirritatingly。 Hismotherturnedonhimlikeafury。 “Oh,willhe!”shecried。”Notinmyeyes!” “Heshouldgetinacavalryregiment;he’llhavethetime,ofhislife,andwilllookanawfulswell。” “Swell!——SWELL!——amightyswellideaindeed!——acommonsoldier!” “Well,“saidPaul,“whatamIbutacommonclerk?” “Agooddeal,myboy!”criedhismother,stung。 “What?” “Atanyrate,aMAN,andnotathinginaredcoat。” “Ishouldn’tmindbeinginaredcoat——ordarkblue,thatwould,suitmebetter——iftheydidn’tbossmeabouttoomuch。” Buthismotherhadceasedtolisten。 “Justashewasgettingon,ormighthavebeengettingon,athisjob——ayoungnuisance——herehegoesandruinshimselfforlife。 Whatgoodwillhebe,doyouthink,afterTHIS?” “Itmaylickhimintoshapebeautifully,“saidPaul。 “Lickhimintoshape!——lickwhatmarrowthereWASoutofhisbones。 ASOLDIER!——acommonSOLDIER!——nothingbutabodythatmakesmovements,whenithearsashout!,It’safinething!” “Ican’tunderstandwhyitupsetsyou,“saidPaul。 “No,perhapsyoucan’t。ButIunderstand“;andshesatback,inherchair,herchininonehand,holdingherelbowwiththeother,brimmedupwithwrathandchagrin。 “AndshallyougotoDerby?”askedPaul。 “Yes。” “It’snogood。” “I’llseeformyself。” “Andwhyonearthdon’tyoulethimstop。It’sjustwhat,hewants。” “Ofcourse,“criedthemother,“YOUknowwhathewants!” ShegotreadyandwentbythefirsttraintoDerby,whereshe,sawhersonandthesergeant。Itwas,however,nogood。 WhenMorelwashavinghisdinnerintheevening,shesaidsuddenly: “I’vehadtogotoDerbyto-day。” Theminerturneduphiseyes,showingthewhitesinhisblackface。 “Haster,lass。Whattooktheethere?” “ThatArthur!” “Oh——an’what’sagatenow?” “He’sonlyenlisted。” Morelputdownhisknifeandleanedbackinhischair。 “Nay,“hesaid,“thatheniver’as!” “AndisgoingdowntoAldershottomorrow。” “Well!”exclaimedtheminer。”That’sawinder。”,Heconsidered,itamoment,said“H’m!”andproceededwithhisdinner。Suddenlyhis,facecontractedwithwrath。”Ihopehemayneversetfooti’ myhouseagain,“hesaid。 “Theidea!”criedMrs。Morel。”Sayingsuchathing!” “Ido,“repeatedMorel。”Afoolasrunsawayforasoldier,let’imlookafter’issen;Is’lldonomorefor’im。” “Afatsightyouhavedoneasitis,“shesaid。 AndMorelwasalmostashamedtogotohispublic-house,thatevening。 “Well,didyougo?”saidPaultohismotherwhenhecamehome。 “Idid。” “Andcouldyouseehim?” “Yes。” “Andwhatdidhesay?” “HeblubberedwhenIcameaway。” “H’m!” “AndsodidI,soyouneedn’t’h’m’!” Mrs。Morelfrettedafterherson。Sheknewhewouldnot,likethearmy。Hedidnot。Thedisciplinewasintolerabletohim。 “Butthedoctor,“shesaidwithsomepridetoPaul,“saidhe,wasperfectlyproportioned——almostexactly;allhismeasurements,werecorrect。HeISgood-looking,youknow。” “He’sawfullynice-looking。Buthedoesn’tfetchthegirls,likeWilliam,doeshe?” “No;it’sadifferentcharacter。He’sagooddeallike,hisfather,irresponsible。” Toconsolehismother,PauldidnotgomuchtoWilley,Farmatthistime。Andintheautumnexhibitionofstudents’ workintheCastlehehadtwostudies,alandscapeinwater-colour,andastilllifeinoil,bothofwhichhadfirst-prizeawards。 Hewashighlyexcited。 “WhatdoyouthinkI’vegotformypictures,mother?”heasked,cominghomeoneevening。Shesawbyhiseyeshewasglad。 Herfaceflushed。 “Now,howshouldIknow,myboy!” “Afirstprizeforthoseglassjars——“ “H’m!” “AndafirstprizeforthatsketchupatWilleyFarm。” “Bothfirst?” “Yes。” “H’m!” Therewasarosy,brightlookabouther,thoughshesaidnothing。 “It’snice,“hesaid,“isn’tit?” “Itis。” “Whydon’tyoupraisemeuptotheskies?” Shelaughed。 “Ishouldhavethetroubleofdraggingyoudownagain,“ shesaid。 Butshewasfullofjoy,nevertheless。Williamhadbrought,herhissportingtrophies。Shekeptthemstill,andshedidnot,forgivehisdeath。Arthurwashandsome——atleast,agoodspecimen——andwarm,andgenerous,andprobablywoulddowellintheend。ButPaul,wasgoingtodistinguishhimself。Shehadagreatbeliefinhim,themorebecausehewasunawareofhisownpowers。Therewas,somuchtocomeoutofhim。Lifeforherwasrichwithpromise。 Shewastoseeherselffulfilled。Notfornothinghadbeen,herstruggle。 SeveraltimesduringtheexhibitionMrs。Morelwenttothe,CastleunknowntoPaul。Shewandereddownthelongroomlooking,attheotherexhibits。Yes,theyweregood。Buttheyhadnotin,themacertainsomethingwhichshedemandedforhersatisfaction。 Somemadeherjealous,theyweresogood。Shelookedatthem,alongtimetryingtofindfaultwiththem。Thensuddenlyshe,hadashockthatmadeherheartbeat。TherehungPaul’spicture! Sheknewitasifitwereprintedonherheart。 “Name——PaulMorel——FirstPrize。” Itlookedsostrange,thereinpublic,onthewallsofthe,Castlegallery,whereinherlifetimeshehadseensomanypictures。 Andsheglancedroundtoseeifanyonehadnoticedheragaininfront,ofthesamesketch。 Butshefeltaproudwoman。Whenshemetwell-dressedladies,goinghometothePark,shethoughttoherself: “Yes,youlookverywell——butIwonderifYOURsonhastwo,firstprizesintheCastle。” Andshewalkedon,asproudalittlewomanasanyinNottingham。 AndPaulfelthehaddonesomethingforher,ifonlyatrifle。 Allhisworkwashers。 Oneday,ashewasgoingupCastleGate,hemetMiriam。Hehad,seenherontheSunday,andhadnotexpectedtomeetherintown。 Shewaswalkingwitharatherstrikingwoman,blonde,withasullen,expression,andadefiantcarriage。ItwasstrangehowMiriam,inherbowed,meditativebearing,lookeddwarfedbesidethiswoman,withthehandsomeshoulders。MiriamwatchedPaulsearchingly。 Hisgazewasonthestranger,whoignoredhim。Thegirlsawhis,masculinespiritrearitshead。 “Hello!”hesaid,“youdidn’ttellmeyouwerecomingtotown。” “No,“repliedMiriam,halfapologetically。”Idrove,intoCattleMarketwithfather。” Helookedathercompanion。 “I’vetoldyouaboutMrs。Dawes,“saidMiriamhuskily; shewasnervous。”Clara,doyouknowPaul?” “IthinkI’veseenhimbefore,“repliedMrs。Dawesindifferently,assheshookhandswithhim。Shehadscornfulgreyeyes,askin,likewhitehoney,andafullmouth,withaslightlyliftedupper,lipthatdidnotknowwhetheritwasraisedinscornofallmen,oroutofeagernesstobekissed,butwhichbelievedtheformer。 Shecarriedherheadback,asifshehaddrawnawayincontempt,perhapsfrommenalso。Sheworealarge,dowdyhatofblackbeaver,andasortofslightlyaffectedsimpledressthatmadeherlook,rathersack-like。Shewasevidentlypoor,andhadnotmuchtaste。 Miriamusuallylookednice。 “Wherehaveyouseenme?”Paulaskedofthewoman。 Shelookedathimasifshewouldnottroubletoanswer。Then: “WalkingwithLouieTravers,“shesaid。 Louiewasoneofthe“Spiral“girls。 “Why,doyouknowher?”heasked。 Shedidnotanswer。HeturnedtoMiriam。 “Whereareyougoing?”heasked。 “TotheCastle。” “Whattrainareyougoinghomeby?” “Iamdrivingwithfather。Iwishyoucouldcometoo。 Whattimeareyoufree?” “Youknownottilleightto-night,damnit!” Anddirectlythetwowomenmovedon。 PaulrememberedthatClaraDaweswasthedaughterofanold,friendofMrs。Leivers。Miriamhadsoughtheroutbecauseshe,hadoncebeenSpiraloverseeratJordan’s,andbecauseherhusband,BaxterDawes,wassmithforthefactory,makingtheironsfor,crippleinstruments,andsoon。ThroughherMiriamfeltshegot,intodirectcontactwithJordan’s,andcouldestimatebetter,Paul’sposition。ButMrs。Daweswasseparatedfromherhusband,andhadtakenupWomen’sRights。Shewassupposedtobeclever。 ItinterestedPaul。 BaxterDawesheknewanddisliked。Thesmithwasaman,ofthirty-oneorthirty-two。HecameoccasionallythroughPaul’s,corner——abig,well-setman,alsostrikingtolookat,andhandsome。 Therewasapeculiarsimilaritybetweenhimselfandhiswife。 Hehadthesamewhiteskin,withaclear,goldentinge。Hishair,wasofsoftbrown,hismoustachewasgolden。Andhehadasimilar,defianceinhisbearingandmanner。Butthencamethedifference。 Hiseyes,darkbrownandquick-shifting,weredissolute。 Theyprotrudedveryslightly,andhiseyelidshungoverthemina,waythatwashalfhate。Hismouth,too,wassensual。Hiswhole,mannerwasofcoweddefiance,asifhewerereadytoknockanybody,downwhodisapprovedofhim——perhapsbecausehereallydisapproved,ofhimself。 FromthefirstdayhehadhatedPaul。Findingthelad’simpersonal,deliberategazeofanartistonhisface,hegotintoafury。 “Whatareyerlookin’at?”hesneered,bullying。 Theboyglancedaway。Butthesmithusedtostandbehind,thecounterandtalktoMr。Pappleworth。Hisspeechwasdirty,withakindofrottenness。Againhefoundtheyouthwithhiscool,criticalgazefixedonhisface。Thesmithstartedroundasifhe,hadbeenstung。 “What’ryerlookin’at,threehap’ortho’pap?”hesnarled。 Theboyshruggedhisshouldersslightly。 “Whyyer——!”shoutedDawes。 “Leavehimalone,“saidMr。Pappleworth,inthatinsinuating,voicewhichmeans,“He’sonlyoneofyourgoodlittlesopswhocan’t,helpit。” Sincethattimetheboyusedtolookatthemaneverytime,hecamethroughwiththesamecuriouscriticism,glancingaway,beforehemetthesmith’seye。ItmadeDawesfurious。Theyhated,eachotherinsilence。 ClaraDaweshadnochildren。Whenshehadleftherhusbandthe,homehadbeenbrokenup,andshehadgonetolivewithhermother。 Daweslodgedwithhissister。Inthesamehousewasasister-in-law,and,somehowPaulknewthatthisgirl,LouieTravers,wasnowDawes’swoman。 Shewasahandsome,insolenthussy,whomockedattheyouth,andyet,flushedifhewalkedalongtothestationwithherasshewenthome。 ThenexttimehewenttoseeMiriamitwasSaturdayevening。 Shehadafireintheparlour,andwaswaitingforhim。Theothers,exceptherfatherandmotherandtheyoungchildren,hadgoneout,sothetwohadtheparlourtogether。Itwasalong,low,warmroom。 TherewerethreeofPaul’ssmallsketchesonthewall,andhisphotowas,onthemantelpiece。Onthetableandonthehighold,rosewoodpianowerebowlsofcolouredleaves。Hesatinthearmchair,shecrouchedonthehearthrugnearhisfeet。Theglowwaswarm,onherhandsome,pensivefaceasshekneeledtherelikeadevotee。 “WhatdidyouthinkofMrs。Dawes?”sheaskedquietly。 “Shedoesn’tlookveryamiable,“hereplied。 “No,butdon’tyouthinkshe’safinewoman?”shesaid,inadeeptone,“Yes——instature。Butwithoutagrainoftaste。Ilikeher,forsomethings。ISshedisagreeable?” “Idon’tthinkso。Ithinkshe’sdissatisfied。” “Whatwith?” “Well——howwouldyouliketobetiedforlifetoamanlikethat?” “Whydidshemarryhim,then,ifshewastohaverevulsions,sosoon?” “Ay,whydidshe!”repeatedMiriambitterly。 “AndIshouldhavethoughtshehadenoughfightinher,tomatchhim,“hesaid。 Miriambowedherhead。 “Ay?”shequeriedsatirically。”Whatmakesyouthinkso?” “Lookathermouth——madeforpassion——andtheverysetback,ofherthroat——“HethrewhisheadbackinClara’sdefiantmanner。 Miriambowedalittlelower。 “Yes,“shesaid。 Therewasasilenceforsomemoments,whilehethoughtofClara。 “Andwhatwerethethingsyoulikedabouther?”sheasked。 “Idon’tknow——herskinandthetextureofher——andher——Idon’t,know——there’sasortoffiercenesssomewhereinher。Iappreciate,herasanartist,that’sall。” “Yes。” HewonderedwhyMiriamcrouchedtherebroodinginthatstrangeway。 Itirritatedhim。 “Youdon’treallylikeher,doyou?”heaskedthegirl。 Shelookedathimwithhergreat,dazzleddarkeyes。 “Ido,“shesaid。 “Youdon’t——youcan’t——notreally。” “Thenwhat?”sheaskedslowly。 “Eh,Idon’tknow——perhapsyoulikeherbecauseshe’sgotagrudge,againstmen。” Thatwasmoreprobablyoneofhisownreasonsforliking,Mrs。Dawes,butthisdidnotoccurtohim。Theyweresilent。 Therehadcomeintohisforeheadaknittingofthebrowswhichwas,becominghabitualwithhim,particularlywhenhewaswithMiriam。 Shelongedtosmoothitaway,andshewasafraidofit。Itseemed,thestampofamanwhowasnothermaninPaulMorel。 Thereweresomecrimsonberriesamongtheleavesinthebowl。 Hereachedoverandpulledoutabunch。 “Ifyouputredberriesinyourhair,“hesaid,“whywould,youlooklikesomewitchorpriestess,andneverlikeareveller?” Shelaughedwithanaked,painfulsound。 “Idon’tknow,“shesaid。 Hisvigorouswarmhandswereplayingexcitedlywiththeberries。 “Whycan’tyoulaugh?”hesaid。”Youneverlaughlaughter。 Youonlylaughwhensomethingisoddorincongruous,andthenit,almostseemstohurtyou。” Shebowedherheadasifhewerescoldingher。 “Iwishyoucouldlaughatmejustforoneminute——just,foroneminute。Ifeelasifitwouldsetsomethingfree。” “But“——andshelookedupathimwitheyesfrightened,andstruggling——“Idolaughatyou——IDO。” “Never!,There’salwaysakindofintensity。Whenyoulaugh,Icouldalwayscry;itseemsasifitshowsupyoursuffering。 Oh,youmakemeknitthebrowsofmyverysoulandcogitate。” Slowlysheshookherheaddespairingly。 “I’msureIdon’twantto,“shesaid。 “I’msodamnedspiritualwithYOUalways!”hecried。 Sheremainedsilent,thinking,“Thenwhydon’tyoubeotherwise。” Buthesawhercrouching,broodingfigure,anditseemedtotear,himintwo。 “But,there,it’sautumn,“hesaid,“andeverybodyfeels,likeadisembodiedspiritthen。” Therewasstillanothersilence。Thispeculiarsadness,betweenthemthrilledhersoul。Heseemedsobeautifulwithhis,eyesgonedark,andlookingasiftheyweredeepasthedeepestwell。 “Youmakemesospiritual!”helamented。”AndIdon’twant,tobespiritual。” Shetookherfingerfromhermouthwithalittlepop,andlooked,upathimalmostchallenging。Butstillhersoulwasnakedinher,greatdarkeyes,andtherewasthesameyearningappealuponher。 Ifhecouldhavekissedherinabstractpurityhewouldhavedoneso。 Buthecouldnotkissherthus——andsheseemedtoleavenootherway。 Andsheyearnedtohim。 Hegaveabrieflaugh。 “Well,“hesaid,“getthatFrenchandwe’lldosome——someVerlaine。” “Yes,“shesaidinadeeptone,almostofresignation。 Andsheroseandgotthebooks。Andherratherred,nervoushands,lookedsopitiful,hewasmadtocomfortherandkissher。Butthen,bedarednot——orcouldnot。Therewassomethingpreventedhim。 Hiskisseswerewrongforher。Theycontinuedthereadingtillten,o’clock,whentheywentintothekitchen,andPaulwasnaturalandjolly,againwiththefatherandmother。Hiseyesweredarkandshining; therewasakindoffascinationabouthim。 Whenhewentintothebarnforhisbicyclehefoundthefront,wheelpunctured。 “Fetchmeadropofwaterinabowl,“hesaidtoher。 “Ishallbelate,andthenIs’llcatchit。” Helightedthehurricanelamp,tookoffhiscoat,turnedup,thebicycle,andsetspeedilytowork。Miriamcamewiththebowl,ofwaterandstoodclosetohim,watching。Shelovedtosee,hishandsdoingthings。Hewasslimandvigorous,withakind,ofeasinesseveninhismosthastymovements。Andbusyathiswork,heseemedtoforgether。Shelovedhimabsorbedly。Shewanted,torunherhandsdownhissides。Shealwayswantedtoembracehim,solongashedidnotwanther。 “There!”hesaid,risingsuddenly。”Now,couldyouhavedone,itquicker?” “No!”shelaughed。 Hestraightenedhimself。Hisbackwastowardsher。Sheput,hertwohandsonhissides,andranthemquicklydown。 “YouaresoFINE!”shesaid。 Helaughed,hatinghervoice,buthisbloodrousedtoawave,offlamebyherhands。ShedidnotseemtorealiseHIMinallthis。 Hemighthavebeenanobject。Sheneverrealisedthemalehewas。 Helightedhisbicycle-lamp,bouncedthemachineonthebarn,floortoseethatthetyresweresound,andbuttonedhiscoat。 “That’sallright!”hesaid。 Shewastryingthebrakes,thatsheknewwerebroken。 “Didyouhavethemmended?”sheasked。 “No!” “Butwhydidn’tyou?” “Thebackonegoesonabit。” “Butit’snotsafe。” “Icanusemytoe。” “Iwishyou’dhadthemmended,“shemurmured。 “Don’tworry——cometoteatomorrow,withEdgar。” “Shallwe?” “Do——aboutfour。I’llcometomeetyou。” “Verywell。” Shewaspleased。Theywentacrossthedarkyardtothegate。 Lookingacross,hesawthroughtheuncurtainedwindowofthe,kitchentheheadsofMr。andMrs。Leiversinthewarmglow。 Itlookedverycosy。Theroad,withpinetrees,wasquiteblack,infront。 “Tilltomorrow,“hesaid,jumpingonhisbicycle。 “You’lltakecare,won’tyou?”shepleaded。 “Yes。” Hisvoicealreadycameoutofthedarkness。Shestoodamoment,watchingthelightfromhislampraceintoobscurityalongtheground。 Sheturnedveryslowlyindoors。Orionwaswheelingupoverthewood,hisdogtwinklingafterhim,halfsmothered。Fortheresttheworld,wasfullofdarkness,andsilent,saveforthebreathingofcattle,intheirstalls。Sheprayedearnestlyforhissafetythatnight。 Whenhelefther,sheoftenlayinanxiety,wonderingifhehadgot,homesafely。 Hedroppeddownthehillsonhisbicycle。Theroadsweregreasy,sohehadtoletitgo。Hefeltapleasureasthemachineplunged,overthesecond,steeperdropinthehill。”Heregoes!”hesaid。 Itwasrisky,becauseofthecurveinthedarknessatthebottom,andbecauseofthebrewers’waggonswithdrunkenwaggonersasleep。 Hisbicycleseemedtofallbeneathhim,andhelovedit。 Recklessnessisalmostaman’srevengeonhiswoman。 Hefeelsheisnotvalued,sohewillriskdestroyinghimselfto,depriveheraltogether。 Thestarsonthelakeseemedtoleaplikegrasshoppers,silverupontheblackness,ashespunpast。Thentherewasthelong,climbhome。 “See,mother!”hesaid,ashethrewhertheberriesandleaves,ontothetable。 “H’m!”shesaid,glancingatthem,thenawayagain。 Shesatreading,alone,asshealwaysdid。 “Aren’ttheypretty?” “Yes。” Heknewshewascrosswithhim。Afterafewminuteshesaid: “EdgarandMiriamarecomingtoteatomorrow。” Shedidnotanswer。 “Youdon’tmind?” Stillshedidnotanswer。 “Doyou?”heasked。 “YouknowwhetherImindornot。” “Idon’tseewhyyoushould。Ihaveplentyofmealsthere。” “Youdo。” “Thenwhydoyoubegrudgethemtea?” “Ibegrudgewhomtea?” “Whatareyousohorridfor?” “Oh,saynomore!,You’veaskedhertotea,it’squitesufficient。 She’llcome。” Hewasveryangrywithhismother。Heknewitwasmerely,Miriamsheobjectedto。Heflungoffhisbootsandwenttobed。 Paulwenttomeethisfriendsthenextafternoon。Hewasglad,toseethemcoming。Theyarrivedhomeataboutfouro’clock。 EverywherewascleanandstillforSundayafternoon。Mrs。Morelsat,inherblackdressandblackapron。Sherosetomeetthevisitors。 WithEdgarshewascordial,butwithMiriamcoldandrathergrudging。 YetPaulthoughtthegirllookedsoniceinherbrowncashmerefrock。 Hehelpedhismothertogettheteaready。Miriamwouldhave,gladlyproffered,butwasafraid。Hewasratherproudofhishome。 Therewasaboutitnow,hethought,acertaindistinction。 Thechairswereonlywooden,andthesofawasold。Butthehearthrug,andcushionswerecosy;thepictureswereprintsingoodtaste; therewasasimplicityineverything,andplentyofbooks。 Hewasneverashamedintheleastofhishome,norwasMiriam,ofhers,becausebothwerewhattheyshouldbe,andwarm。 Andthenhewasproudofthetable;thechinawaspretty,theclothwasfine。Itdidnotmatterthatthespoonswerenot,silvernortheknivesivory-handled;everythinglookednice。 Mrs。Morelhadmanagedwonderfullywhileherchildrenweregrowingup,sothatnothingwasoutofplace。 Miriamtalkedbooksalittle。Thatwasherunfailingtopic。 ButMrs。Morelwasnotcordial,andturnedsoontoEdgar。 AtfirstEdgarandMiriamusedtogointoMrs。Morel’spew。 Morelneverwenttochapel,preferringthepublic-house。Mrs。Morel,likealittlechampion,satattheheadofherpew,Paulattheotherend; andatfirstMiriamsatnexttohim。Thenthechapelwaslikehome。 Itwasaprettyplace,withdarkpewsandslim,elegantpillars,andflowers。Andthesamepeoplehadsatinthesameplacesever,sincehewasaboy。Itwaswonderfullysweetandsoothingtosit,thereforanhourandahalf,nexttoMiriam,andneartohismother,unitinghistwolovesunderthespelloftheplaceofworship。 Thenhefeltwarmandhappyandreligiousatonce。Andafter,chapelhewalkedhomewithMiriam,whilstMrs。Morelspenttherest,oftheeveningwithheroldfriend,Mrs。Burns。Hewaskeenly,aliveonhiswalksonSundaynightswithEdgarandMiriam。 Heneverwentpastthepitsatnight,bythelightedlamp-house,thetallblackheadstocksandlinesoftrucks,pastthefansspinning,slowlylikeshadows,withoutthefeelingofMiriamreturningtohim,keenandalmostunbearable。 ShedidnotverylongoccupytheMorels’pew。Herfathertook,oneforthemselvesoncemore。Itwasunderthelittlegallery,oppositetheMorels’。WhenPaulandhismothercameinthechapel,theLeivers’spewwasalwaysempty。Hewasanxiousforfearshewould,notcome:,itwassofar,andthereweresomanyrainySundays。 Then,oftenverylateindeed,shecamein,withherlongstride,herheadbowed,herfacehiddenunderherbatofdarkgreenvelvet。 Herface,asshesatopposite,wasalwaysinshadow。Butitgave,himaverykeenfeeling,asifallhissoulstirredwithinhim,toseeherthere。Itwasnotthesameglow,happiness,andpride,thathefeltinhavinghismotherincharge:,somethingmore,wonderful,lesshuman,andtingedtointensitybyapain,asifthereweresomethinghecouldnotgetto。 Atthistimehewasbeginningtoquestiontheorthodoxcreed。 Hewastwenty-one,andshewastwenty。Shewasbeginning,todreadthespring:,hebecamesowild,andhurthersomuch。 Allthewayhewentcruellysmashingherbeliefs。Edgarenjoyedit。 Hewasbynaturecriticalandratherdispassionate。ButMiriam,sufferedexquisitepain,as,withanintellectlikeaknife,theman,shelovedexaminedherreligioninwhichshelivedandmovedandhad,herbeing。Buthedidnotspareher。Hewascruel。Andwhenthey,wentalonehewasevenmorefierce,asifhewouldkillhersoul。 Hebledherbeliefstillshealmostlostconsciousness。 “Sheexults——sheexultsasshecarrieshimofffromme,“ Mrs。MorelcriedinherheartwhenPaulhadgone。”She’snot,likeanordinarywoman,whocanleavememyshareinhim。 Shewantstoabsorbhim。Shewantstodrawhimoutandabsorb,himtillthereisnothingleftofhim,evenforhimself。 Hewillneverbeamanonhisownfeet——shewillsuckhimup。” Sothemothersat,andbattledandbroodedbitterly。 Andhe,cominghomefromhiswalkswithMiriam,waswild,withtorture。Hewalkedbitinghislipsandwithclenchedfists,goingatagreatrate。Then,broughtupagainstastile,hestoodfor,someminutes,anddidnotmove。Therewasagreathollowofdarkness,frontinghim,andontheblackupslopespatchesoftinylights,andinthelowesttroughofthenight,aflareofthepit。 Itwasallweirdanddreadful。Whywashetornso,almostbewildered,andunabletomove?,Whydidhismothersitathomeandsuffer? Heknewshesufferedbadly。Butwhyshouldshe?,Andwhydid,hehateMiriam,andfeelsocrueltowardsher,atthethought,ofhismother。IfMiriamcausedhismothersuffering,thenhe,hatedher——andheeasilyhatedher。Whydidshemakehimfeel,asifhewereuncertainofhimself,insecure,anindefinitething,asifhehadnotsufficientsheathingtopreventthenightandthe,spacebreakingintohim?,Howhehatedher!,Andthen,whatarush,oftendernessandhumility! Suddenlyheplungedonagain,runninghome。Hismother,sawonhimthemarksofsomeagony,andshesaidnothing。 Buthehadtomakehertalktohim。Thenshewasangrywithhim,forgoingsofarwithMiriam。 “Whydon’tyoulikeher,mother?”hecriedindespair。 “Idon’tknow,myboy,“sherepliedpiteously。”I’msureI’ve,triedtolikeher。I’vetriedandtried,butIcan’t——Ican’t!” Andhefeltdrearyandhopelessbetweenthetwo。 Springwastheworsttime。Hewaschangeable,andintense,andcruel。Sohedecidedtostayawayfromher。Thencamethe,hourswhenheknewMiriamwasexpectinghim。Hismotherwatched,himgrowingrestless。Hecouldnotgoonwithhiswork。Hecould,donothing。Itwasasifsomethingweredrawinghissoulouttowards,WilleyFarm。Thenheputonhishatandwent,sayingnothing。 Andhismotherknewhewasgone。Andassoonashewasontheway,hesighedwithrelief。Andwhenhewaswithherhewascruelagain。 OnedayinMarchhelayonthebankofNethermere,withMiriam,sittingbesidehim。Itwasaglistening,white-and-blueday。 Bigclouds,sobrilliant,wentbyoverhead,whileshadowsstole,alongonthewater。Theclearspacesintheskywereofclean,coldblue。Paullayonhisbackintheoldgrass,lookingup。 HecouldnotbeartolookatMiriam。Sheseemedtowanthim,andheresisted。Heresistedallthetime。Hewantednowtogive,herpassionandtenderness,andhecouldnot。Hefeltthatshewanted,thesouloutofhisbody,andnothim。Allhisstrengthandenergy,shedrewintoherselfthroughsomechannelwhichunitedthem。 Shedidnotwanttomeethim,sothatthereweretwoofthem,manandwomantogether。Shewantedtodrawallofhimintoher。 Iturgedhimtoanintensitylikemadness,whichfascinatedhim,asdrug-takingmight。 HewasdiscussingMichaelAngelo。Itfelttoherasifshewere,fingeringtheveryquiveringtissue,theveryprotoplasmoflife,assheheardhim。Itgaveherdeepestsatisfaction。Andintheend,itfrightenedher。Therehelayinthewhiteintensityofhissearch,andhisvoicegraduallyfilledherwithfear,solevelitwas,almostinhuman,asifinatrance。 “Don’ttalkanymore,“shepleadedsoftly,layingherhand,onhisforehead。 Helayquitestill,almostunabletomove。Hisbodywas,somewherediscarded。 “Whynot?,Areyoutired?” “Yes,anditwearsyouout。” Helaughedshortly,realising。 “Yetyoualwaysmakemelikeit,“hesaid。 “Idon’twishto,“shesaid,verylow。 “Notwhenyou’vegonetoofar,andyoufeelyoucan’tbearit。 Butyourunconsciousselfalwaysasksitofme。AndIsupposeI wantit。” Hewenton,inhisdeadfashion: “IfonlyyoucouldwantME,andnotwantwhatIcanreeloff,foryou!“ “I!”shecriedbitterly——“I!,Why,whenwouldyouletmetakeyou?” “Thenit’smyfault,“hesaid,and,gatheringhimselftogether,hegotupandbegantotalktrivialities。Hefeltinsubstantial。 Inavaguewayhehatedherforit。Andheknewhewasasmuchto,blamehimself。This,however,didnotpreventhishatingher。 Oneeveningaboutthistimehehadwalkedalongthehomeroad,withher。Theystoodbythepastureleadingdowntothewood,unabletopart。Asthestarscameoutthecloudsclosed。Theyhad,glimpsesoftheirownconstellation,Orion,towardsthewest。 Hisjewelsglimmeredforamoment,hisdogranlow,strugglingwith,difficultythroughthespumeofcloud。 Orionwasforthemchiefinsignificanceamongtheconstellations。 Theyhadgazedathimintheirstrange,surchargedhoursoffeeling,untiltheyseemedthemselvestoliveineveryoneofhisstars。 ThiseveningPaulhadbeenmoodyandperverse。Orionhadseemedjust,anordinaryconstellationtohim。Hehadfoughtagainsthisglamour,andfascination。Miriamwaswatchingherlover’smoodcarefully。 Buthesaidnothingthatgavehimaway,tillthemomentcametopart,whenhestoodfrowninggloomilyatthegatheredclouds,behindwhich,thegreatconstellationmustbestridingstill。 Therewastobealittlepartyathishousethenextday,atwhichshewastoattend。 “Ishan’tcomeandmeetyou,“hesaid。 “Oh,verywell;it’snotveryniceout,“sherepliedslowly。 “It’snotthat——onlytheydon’tlikemeto。TheysayIcare,moreforyouthanforthem。Andyouunderstand,don’tyou? Youknowit’sonlyfriendship。” Miriamwasastonishedandhurtforhim。Ithadcosthiman,effort。Shelefthim,wantingtosparehimanyfurtherhumiliation。 Afinerainblewinherfaceasshewalkedalongtheroad。 Shewashurtdeepdown;andshedespisedhimforbeingblown,aboutbyanywindofauthority。Andinherheartofhearts,unconsciously,shefeltthathewastryingtogetawayfromher。 Thisshewouldneverhaveacknowledged。Shepitiedhim。 AtthistimePaulbecameanimportantfactorinJordan’swarehouse。 Mr。Pappleworthlefttosetupabusinessofhisown,andPaul,remainedwithMr。JordanasSpiraloverseer。Hiswageswere,toberaisedtothirtyshillingsattheyear-end,ifthingswentwell。 StillonFridaynightMiriamoftencamedownforherFrenchlesson。 PauldidnotgosofrequentlytoWilleyFarm,andshegrievedat,thethoughtofhereducation’scomingtoend;moreover,theyboth,lovedtobetogether,inspiteofdiscords。SotheyreadBalzac,anddidcompositions,andfelthighlycultured。 Fridaynightwasreckoningnightfortheminers。 Morel“reckoned“——sharedupthemoneyofthestall——eitherintheNewInn,atBrettyorinhisownhouse,accordingashisfellow-buttieswished。 Barkerhadturnedanon-drinker,sonowthemenreckonedatMorel’shouse。 Annie,whohadbeenteachingaway,wasathomeagain。 Shewasstillatomboy;andshewasengagedtobemarried。 Paulwasstudyingdesign。 MorelwasalwaysingoodspiritsonFridayevening,unlessthe,week’searningsweresmall。Hebustledimmediatelyafterhisdinner,preparedtogetwashed。Itwasdecorumforthewomentoabsent,themselveswhilethemenreckoned。Womenwerenotsupposedtospy,intosuchamasculineprivacyasthebutties’reckoning,norwerethey,toknowtheexactamountoftheweek’searnings。So,whilsther,fatherwassplutteringinthescullery,Anniewentouttospend,anhourwithaneighbour。Mrs。Morelattendedtoherbaking。 “Shutthatdoo-er!”bawledMorelfuriously。 Anniebangeditbehindher,andwasgone。 “IfthaoppensitagainwhileI’mweshin’me,I’llma’ethy,jawrattle,“hethreatenedfromthemidstofhissoap-suds。Paul,andthemotherfrownedtohearhim。 Presentlyhecamerunningoutofthescullery,withthesoapy,waterdrippingfromhim,ditheringwithcold。 “Oh,mysirs!”hesaid。”Wheer’smytowel?” Itwashungonachairtowarmbeforethefire,otherwisehe,wouldhavebulliedandblustered。Hesquattedonhisheelsbefore,thehotbaking-firetodryhimself。 “F-ff-f!”hewent,pretendingtoshudderwithcold。 “Goodness,man,don’tbesuchakid!”saidMrs。Morel。 “It’sNOTcold。” “Theestripthysenstarknak’dtoweshthyfleshi’thatscullery,“ saidtheminer,asherubbedhishair;“nowtb’raice-’ouse!” “AndIshouldn’tmakethatfuss,“repliedhiswife。 “No,tha’ddropdownstiff,asdeadasadoor-knob,wi’ thyneshsides。” “Whyisadoor-knobdeaderthananythingelse?”askedPaul,curious。 “Eh,Idunno;that’swhattheysay,“repliedhisfather。 “Butthere’sthatmuchdraughti’yonscullery,asitblowsthrough,yourribslikethroughafive-barredgate。” “Itwouldhavesomedifficultyinblowingthroughyours,“ saidMrs。Morel。 Morellookeddownruefullyathissides。 “Me!”heexclaimed。”I’mnowtb’raskinnedrabbit。 Mybonesfairjutsoutonme。” “Ishouldliketoknowwhere,“retortedhiswife。 “Iv’ry-wheer!,I’mnobbutasacko’faggots。” Mrs。Morellaughed。Hehadstillawonderfullyyoungbody,muscular,withoutanyfat。Hisskinwassmoothandclear。 Itmighthavebeenthebodyofamanoftwenty-eight,exceptthat,therewere,perhaps,toomanybluescars,liketattoo-marks,wherethe,coal-dustremainedundertheskin,andthathischestwastoohairy。 Butheputhishandonhissideruefully。Itwashisfixedbeliefthat,becausebedidnotgetfat,hewasasthinasastarvedrat。 Paullookedathisfather’sthick,brownishhandsallscarred,withbrokennails,rubbingthefinesmoothnessofhissides,andthe,incongruitystruckhim。Itseemedstrangetheywerethesameflesh。 “Isuppose,“hesaidtohisfather,“youhadagoodfigureonce。” “Eh!”exclaimedtheminer,glancinground,startledandtimid,likeachild。 “Hehad,“exclaimedMrs。Morel,“ifhedidn’thurtlehimself,upasifhewastryingtogetinthesmallestspacehecould。” “Me!”exclaimedMorel——“meagoodfigure!,Iwornivermuch,moren’raskeleton。” “Man!”criedhiswife,“don’tbesuchapulamiter!” “’Strewth!”hesaid。”Tha’sniverknowedmebutwhatIlooked,asifIworgoin’offinarapiddecline。” Shesatandlaughed。 “You’vehadaconstitutionlikeiron,“shesaid;“andnever,amanhadabetterstart,ifitwasbodythatcounted。Youshould,haveseenhimasayoungman,“shecriedsuddenlytoPaul,drawingherselfuptoimitateherhusband’soncehandsomebearing。 Morelwatchedhershyly。Hesawagainthepassionshe,hadhadforhim。Itblazeduponherforamoment。Hewasshy,ratherscared,andhumble。Yetagainhefelthisoldglow。 Andthenimmediatelyhefelttheruinhehadmadeduringtheseyears。 Hewantedtobustleabout,torunawayfromit。 “Gi’emybackabitofawesh,“heaskedher。 Hiswifebroughtawell-soapedflannelandclappedit,onhisshoulders。Hegaveajump。 “Eh,thamuckylittle’ussy!”hecried。”Cowdasdeath!” “Yououghttohavebeenasalamander,“shelaughed,washinghisback。Itwasveryrarelyshewoulddoanything,sopersonalforhim。Thechildrendidthosethings。 “Thenextworldwon’tbehalfhotenoughforyou,“sheadded。 “No,“hesaid;“tha’ltseeasit’sdraughtyforme。” Butshehadfinished。Shewipedhiminadesultoryfashion,andwentupstairs,returningimmediatelywithhisshifting-trousers。 Whenhewasdriedhestruggledintohisshirt。Then,ruddyandshiny,withhaironend,andhisflanneletteshirthangingoverhis,pit-trousers,hestoodwarmingthegarmentshewasgoingtoputon。 Heturnedthem,hepulledtheminsideout,hescorchedthem。 “Goodness,man!”criedMrs。Morel,“getdressed!” “Shouldtheeliketoclapthysenintobritchesascowd,asatubo’water?”hesaid。 Atlasthetookoffhispit-trousersanddonneddecentblack。 Hedidallthisonthehearthrug,ashewouldhavedoneifAnnie,andherfamiliarfriendshadbeenpresent。 Mrs。Morelturnedthebreadintheoven。Thenfromthered,earthenwarepanchionofdoughthatstoodinacornershetook,anotherhandfulofpaste,workedittothepropershape,anddropped,itintoatin。AsshewasdoingsoBarkerknockedandentered。 Hewasaquiet,compactlittleman,wholookedasifhewouldgo,throughastonewall。Hisblackhairwascroppedshort,hishead,wasbony。Likemostminers,hewaspale,buthealthyandtaut。 “Evenin’,missis,“henoddedtoMrs。Morel,andheseated,himselfwithasigh。 “Good-evening,“sherepliedcordially。 “Tha’smadethyheelscrack,“saidMorel。 “IdunnoasIhave,“saidBarker。 Hesat,asthemenalwaysdidinMorel’skitchen,effacinghimselfrather。 “How’smissis?”sheaskedofhim。 Hehadtoldhersometimeback: “We’reexpectin’usthirdjustnow,yousee。” “Well,“heanswered,rubbinghishead,“shekeepspretty,middlin’,Ithink。” “Let’ssee——when?”askedMrs。Morel。 “Well,Ishouldn’tbesurprisedanytimenow。” “Ah!Andshe’skeptfairly?” “Yes,tidy。” “That’sablessing,forshe’snonetoostrong。” “No。An’I’vedoneanothersillytrick。” “What’sthat?” Mrs。MorelknewBarkerwouldn’tdoanythingverysilly。 “I’mcomebe-outth’market-bag。” “Youcanhavemine。” “Nay,you’llbewantin’thatyourself。” “Ishan’t。Itakeastringbagalways。” Shesawthedeterminedlittlecollierbuyingintheweek’s,groceriesandmeatontheFridaynights,andsheadmiredhim。 “Barker’slittle,buthe’stentimesthemanyouare,“shesaid,toherhusband。 JustthenWessonentered。Hewasthin,ratherfrail-looking,withaboyishingenuousnessandaslightlyfoolishsmile,despitehissevenchildren。Buthiswifewasapassionatewoman。 “Iseeyou’vekestedme,“hesaid,smilingrathervapidly。 “Yes,“repliedBarker。 Thenewcomertookoffhiscapandhisbigwoollenmuffler。 Hisnosewaspointedandred。 “I’mafraidyou’recold,Mr。Wesson,“saidMrs。Morel。 “It’sabitnippy,“hereplied。 “Thencometothefire。” “Nay,Is’lldowhereIam。” Bothcollierssatawayback。Theycouldnotbeinducedtocome,ontothehearth。Thehearthissacredtothefamily。 “Gothywaysi’th’armchair,“criedMorelcheerily。 “Nay,thankyer;I’mverynicelyhere。” “Yes,come,ofcourse,“insistedMrs。Morel。 Heroseandwentawkwardly。HesatinMorel’sarmchairawkwardly。 Itwastoogreatafamiliarity。Butthefiremadehimblissfullyhappy。 “Andhow’sthatchestofyours?”demandedMrs。Morel。 Hesmiledagain,withhisblueeyesrathersunny。 “Oh,it’sverymiddlin’,“hesaid。 “Wi’arattleinitlikeakettle-drum,“saidBarkershortly。 “T-t-t-t!”wentMrs。Morelrapidlywithhertongue。”Didyou,havethatflannelsingletmade?” “Notyet,“hesmiled。 “Then,whydidn’tyou?”shecried。 “It’llcome,“hesmiled。 “Ah,an’Doomsday!”exclaimedBarker。 BarkerandMorelwerebothimpatientofWesson。But,then,theywerebothashardasnails,physically。 WhenMorelwasnearlyreadyhepushedthebagofmoneytoPaul。 “Countit,boy,“heaskedhumbly。 Paulimpatientlyturnedfromhisbooksandpencil,tippedthebag,upsidedownonthetable。Therewasafive-poundbagofsilver,sovereignsandloosemoney。Hecountedquickly,referredtothe,checks——thewrittenpapersgivingamountofcoal——putthemoneyinorder。 ThenBarkerglancedatthechecks。 Mrs。Morelwentupstairs,andthethreemencametotable。 Morel,asmasterofthehouse,satinhisarmchair,withhisback,tothehotfire。Thetwobuttieshadcoolerseats。Noneofthem,countedthemoney。 “WhatdidwesaySimpson’swas?”askedMorel;andthebutties,cavilledforaminuteoverthedayman’searnings。Thentheamount,wasputaside。 “An’BillNaylor’s?” Thismoneyalsowastakenfromthepack。 Then,becauseWessonlivedinoneofthecompany’shouses,andhisrenthadbeendeducted,MorelandBarkertookfour-and-sixeach。 AndbecauseMorel’scoalshadcome,andtheleadingwasstopped,BarkerandWessontookfourshillingseach。Thenitwasplainsailing。 Morelgaveeachofthemasovereigntilltherewerenomoresovereigns; eachhalfacrowntilltherewerenomorehalf-crowns;eachashilling,tilltherewerenomoreshillings。Iftherewasanythingattheend,thatwouldn’tsplit,Moreltookitandstooddrinks。 Thenthethreemenroseandwent。Morelscuttledoutofthehouse,beforehiswifecamedown。Sheheardthedoorclose,anddescended。 Shelookedhastilyatthebreadintheoven。Then,glancingon,thetable,shesawhermoneylying。Paulhadbeenworkingall,thetime。Butnowhefelthismothercountingtheweek’smoney,andherwrathrising,“T-t-t-t-t!”wenthertongue。 Hefrowned。Hecouldnotworkwhenshewascross。 Shecountedagain。 “Ameaslytwenty-fiveshillings!”sheexclaimed。”Howmuch,wasthecheque?” “Tenpoundseleven,“saidPaulirritably。Hedreadedwhat,wascoming。 “Andhegivesmeascrattlin’twenty-five,an’ hisclubthisweek!,ButIknowhim。Hethinksbecause,YOU’REearningheneedn’tkeepthehouseanylonger。 No,allhehastodowithhismoneyistoguttleit。ButI’llshowhim!” “Oh,mother,don’t!”criedPaul。 “Don’twhat,Ishouldliketoknow?”sheexclaimed。 “Don’tcarryonagain。Ican’twork。” Shewentveryquiet。 “Yes,it’sallverywell,“shesaid;“buthowdoyouthink,I’mgoingtomanage?” “Well,itwon’tmakeitanybettertowhittleaboutit。” “Ishouldliketoknowwhatyou’ddoifyouhadittoput,upwith。” “Itwon’tbelong。Youcanhavemymoney。Lethimgotohell。” Hewentbacktohiswork,andshetiedherbonnet-stringsgrimly。 Whenshewasfrettedhecouldnotbearit。Butnowhebegan,toinsistonherrecognizinghim。 “Thetwoloavesatthetop,“shesaid,“willbedone,intwentyminutes。Don’tforgetthem。” “Allright,“heanswered;andshewenttomarket。 Heremainedaloneworking。Buthisusualintenseconcentration,becameunsettled。Helistenedfortheyard-gate。Ataquarter-past,sevencamealowknock,andMiriamentered。 “Allalone?”shesaid。 “Yes。” Asifathome,shetookoffhertam-o’-shanterandherlongcoat,hangingthemup。Itgavehimathrill。Thismightbetheirownhouse,hisandhers。Thenshecamebackandpeeredoverhiswork。 “Whatisit?”sheasked。 “Stilldesign,fordecoratingstuffs,andforembroidery。” Shebentshort-sightedlyoverthedrawings。 Itirritatedhimthatshepeeredsointoeverythingthat,washis,searchinghimout。Hewentintotheparlourandreturned,withabundleofbrownishlinen。Carefullyunfoldingit,hespreaditonthefloor。Itprovedtobeacurtainorportiere,beautifullystencilledwithadesignonroses。 “Ah,howbeautiful!”shecried。 Thespreadcloth,withitswonderfulreddishrosesanddark,greenstems,allsosimple,andsomehowsowicked-looking,layat,herfeet。Shewentonherkneesbeforeit,herdarkcurlsdropping。 Hesawhercrouchedvoluptuouslybeforehiswork,andhisheart,beatquickly。Suddenlyshelookedupathim。 “Whydoesitseemcruel?”sheasked。 “What?” “Thereseemsafeelingofcrueltyaboutit,“shesaid。 “It’sjollygood,whetherornot,“hereplied,foldingup,hisworkwithalover’shands。 Sheroseslowly,pondering。 “Andwhatwillyoudowithit?”sheasked。 “SendittoLiberty’s。Ididitformymother,butIthink,she’dratherhavethemoney。” “Yes,“saidMiriam。Hehadspokenwithatouchofbitterness,andMiriamsympathised。MoneywouldhavebeennothingtoHER。 Hetooktheclothbackintotheparlour。Whenhereturned,hethrewtoMiriamasmallerpiece。Itwasacushion-cover,withthesamedesign。 “Ididthatforyou,“hesaid。 Shefingeredtheworkwithtremblinghands,anddidnotspeak。 Hebecameembarrassed。 “ByJove,thebread!”hecried。 Hetookthetoploavesout,tappedthemvigorously。Theyweredone。 Heputthemonthehearthtocool。Thenhewenttothescullery,wettedhishands,scoopedthelastwhitedoughoutofthepunchion,anddroppeditinabaking-tin。Miriamwasstillbentoverher,paintedcloth。Hestoodrubbingthebitsofdoughfromhishands。 “Youdolikeit?”heasked。 Shelookedupathim,withherdarkeyesoneflameoflove。 Helaugheduncomfortably。Thenhebegantotalkaboutthedesign。 Therewasforhimthemostintensepleasureintalkingabouthis,worktoMiriam。Allhispassion,allhiswildblood,wentinto,thisintercoursewithher,whenhetalkedandconceivedhiswork。 Shebroughtforthtohimhisimaginations。Shedidnotunderstand,anymorethanawomanunderstandswhensheconceivesachildinherwomb。 Butthiswaslifeforherandforhim。 Whiletheyweretalking,ayoungwomanofabouttwenty-two,smallandpale,hollow-eyed,yetwitharelentlesslookabouther,enteredtheroom。ShewasafriendattheMorel’s。 “Takeyourthingsoff,“saidPaul。 “No,I’mnotstopping。” ShesatdowninthearmchairoppositePaulandMiriam,whowereonthesofa。Miriammovedalittlefartherfromhim。 Theroomwashot,withascentofnewbread。Brown,crisploaves,stoodonthehearth。 “Ishouldn’thaveexpectedtoseeyouhereto-night,MiriamLeivers,“saidBeatricewickedly。 “Whynot?”murmuredMiriamhuskily。 “Why,let’slookatyourshoes。” Miriamremaineduncomfortablystill。 “Ifthadoesnathadurs’na,“laughedBeatrice。 Miriamputherfeetfromunderherdress。Herboots,hadthatqueer,irresolute,ratherpatheticlookaboutthem,whichshowedhowself-consciousandself-mistrustfulshewas。 Andtheywerecoveredwithmud。 “Glory!,You’reapositivemuck-heap,“exclaimedBeatrice。 “Whocleansyourboots?” “Icleanthemmyself。” “Thenyouwantedajob,“saidBeatrice。”Itwouldha’ takenalotofmentoha’broughtmedownhereto-night。Butlove,laughsatsludge,doesn’tit,’Postlemyduck?” “Interalia,“hesaid。 “Oh,Lord!areyougoingtospoutforeignlanguages? Whatdoesitmean,Miriam?” Therewasafinesarcasminthelastquestion,butMiriamdid,notseeit。 “’Amongotherthings,’Ibelieve,“shesaidhumbly。 Beatriceputhertonguebetweenherteethandlaughedwickedly。 “’Amongotherthings,’’Postle?”sherepeated。”Doyoumean,lovelaughsatmothers,andfathers,andsisters,andbrothers,andmenfriends,andladyfriends,andevenattheb’lovedhimself?” Sheaffectedagreatinnocence。 “Infact,it’sonebigsmile,“hereplied。 “Upitssleeve,’PostleMorel——youbelieveme,“shesaid; andshewentoffintoanotherburstofwicked,silentlaughter。 Miriamsatsilent,withdrawnintoherself。EveryoneofPaul’s,friendsdelightedintakingsidesagainsther,andhelefther,inthelurch——seemedalmosttohaveasortofrevengeuponherthen。 “Areyoustillatschool?”askedMiriamofBeatrice。 “Yes。” “You’venothadyournotice,then?” “IexpectitatEaster。” “Isn’titanawfulshame,toturnyouoffmerelybecauseyou,didn’tpasstheexam。?” “Idon’tknow,“saidBeatricecoldly。 “Agathasaysyou’reasgoodasanyteacheranywhere。