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类别:其他 作者:Robert Louis Stevenson字数:21655更新时间:18/12/21 13:17:54
Andalltheattachmentofhissoulwouldnotkeephim。Verywell,hewouldhavetogo。Buthewouldcomebackwhenhehadtiredofhis,newsensation。 Hehackedattheearthtillshewasfrettedtodeath。Sherose。 Hesatflinginglumpsofearthinthestream。 “Wewillgoandhaveteahere?”heasked。 “Yes,“sheanswered。 Theychatteredoverirrelevantsubjectsduringtea。 Heheldforthontheloveofornament——thecottageparlourmovedhim,thereto——anditsconnectionwithaesthetics。Shewascoldandquiet。 Astheywalkedhome,sheasked: “Andweshallnotseeeachother?” “No——orrarely,“heanswered。 “Norwrite?”sheasked,almostsarcastically。 “Asyouwill,“heanswered。”We’renotstrangers——never,shouldbe,whateverhappened。Iwillwritetoyounowandagain。 Youpleaseyourself。” “Isee!”sheansweredcuttingly。 Buthewasatthatstageatwhichnothingelsehurts。 Hehadmadeagreatcleavageinhislife。Hehadhadagreatshock,whenshehadtoldhimtheirlovehadbeenalwaysaconflict。 Nothingmoremattered。Ifitneverhadbeenmuch,therewasnoneed,tomakeafussthatitwasended。 Heleftheratthelane-end。Asshewenthome,solitary,inhernewfrock,havingherpeopletofaceattheotherend,hestoodstillwithshameandpaininthehighroad,thinkingof,thesufferinghecausedher。 Inthereactiontowardsrestoringhisself-esteem,hewent,intotheWillowTreeforadrink。Therewerefourgirlswhohad,beenoutfortheday,drinkingamodestglassofport。Theyhad,somechocolatesonthetable。Paulsatnearwithhiswhisky。 Henoticedthegirlswhisperingandnudging。Presentlyone,abonnydarkhussy,leanedtohimandsaid: “Haveachocolate?” Theotherslaughedloudlyatherimpudence。 “Allright,“saidPaul。”Givemeahardone——nut。Idon’t,likecreams。” “Hereyouare,then,“saidthegirl;“here’sanalmondforyou。” Sheheldthesweetbetweenherfingers。Heopenedhismouth。 Shepoppeditin,andblushed。 “YouAREnice!”hesaid。 “Well,“sheanswered,“wethoughtyoulookedovercast,andtheydaredmeofferyouachocolate。” “Idon’tmindifIhaveanother——anothersort,“hesaid。 Andpresentlytheywerealllaughingtogether。 Itwasnineo’clockwhenhegothome,fallingdark。Heentered,thehouseinsilence。Hismother,whohadbeenwaiting,roseanxiously。 “Itoldher,“hesaid。 “I’mglad,“repliedthemother,withgreatrelief。 Hehunguphiscapwearily。 “Isaidwe’dhavedonealtogether,“hesaid。 “That’sright,myson,“saidthemother。”It’shardforhernow,butbestinthelongrun。Iknow。Youweren’tsuitedforher。” Helaughedshakilyashesatdown。 “I’vehadsuchalarkwithsomegirlsinapub,“hesaid。 Hismotherlookedathim。HehadforgottenMiriamnow。Hetold,heraboutthegirlsintheWillowTree。Mrs。Morellookedathim。 Itseemedunreal,hisgaiety。Atthebackofitwastoomuchhorror,andmisery。 “Nowhavesomesupper,“shesaidverygently。 Afterwardshesaidwistfully: “Sheneverthoughtshe’dhaveme,mother,notfromthefirst,andsoshe’snotdisappointed。” “I’mafraid,“saidhismother,“shedoesn’tgiveuphopes,ofyouyet。” “No,“hesaid,“perhapsnot。” “You’llfindit’sbettertohavedone,“shesaid。 “Idon’tknow,“hesaiddesperately。 “Well,leaveheralone,“repliedhismother。Sohelefther,andshewasalone。Veryfewpeoplecaredforher,andsheforvery,fewpeople。Sheremainedalonewithherself,waiting。 CHAPTERXII PASSION HEwasgraduallymakingitpossibletoearnalivelihoodby,hisart。Liberty’shadtakenseveralofhispainteddesigns,onvariousstuffs,andhecouldselldesignsforembroideries,foraltar-cloths,andsimilarthings,inoneortwoplaces。 Itwasnotverymuchhemadeatpresent,buthemightextendit。 Hehadalsomadefriendswiththedesignerforapotteryfirm,andwasgainingsomeknowledgeofhisnewacquaintance’sart。 Theappliedartsinterestedhimverymuch。Atthesametime,helabouredslowlyathispictures。Helovedtopaintlargefigures,fulloflight,butnotmerelymadeupoflightsandcastshadows,liketheimpressionists;ratherdefinitefiguresthathadacertain,luminousquality,likesomeofMichaelAngelo’speople。Andthese,hefittedintoalandscape,inwhathethoughttrueproportion。 Heworkedagreatdealfrommemory,usingeverybodyheknew。 Hebelievedfirmlyinhiswork,thatitwasgoodandvaluable。 Inspiteoffitsofdepression,shrinking,everything,hebelieved,inhiswork。 Hewastwenty-fourwhenhesaidhisfirstconfidentthing,tohismother。 “Mother,“hesaid,“Is’llmakeapainterthatthey’llattendto。” Shesniffedinherquaintfashion。Itwaslikeahalf-pleased,shrugoftheshoulders。 “Verywell,myboy,we’llsee,“shesaid。 “Youshallsee,mypigeon!,Youseeifyou’renotswanky,oneofthesedays!” “I’mquitecontent,myboy,“shesmiled。 “Butyou’llhavetoalter。LookatyouwithMinnie!” Minniewasthesmallservant,agirloffourteen。 “AndwhataboutMinnie?”askedMrs。Morel,withdignity。 “Iheardherthismorning:,’Eh,Mrs。Morel!,Iwasgoing,todothat,’whenyouwentoutintherainforsomecoal,“hesaid。 “Thatlooksalotlikeyourbeingabletomanageservants!” “Well,itwasonlythechild’sniceness,“saidMrs。Morel。 “Andyouapologisingtoher:,’Youcan’tdotwothingsatonce,canyou?’“ “SheWASbusywashingup,“repliedMrs。Morel。 “Andwhatdidshesay?,’Itcouldeasyhavewaitedabit。 Nowlookhowyourfeetpaddle!’“ “Yes——brazenyoungbaggage!”saidMrs。Morel,smiling。 Helookedathismother,laughing。Shewasquitewarmand,rosyagainwithloveofhim。Itseemedasifallthesunshine,wereonherforamoment。Hecontinuedhisworkgladly。 Sheseemedsowellwhenshewashappythatheforgothergreyhair。 AndthatyearshewentwithhimtotheIsleofWightfor,aholiday。Itwastooexcitingforthemboth,andtoobeautiful。 Mrs。Morelwasfullofjoyandwonder。Buthewouldhaveher,walkwithhimmorethanshewasable。Shehadabadfaintingbout。 Sogreyherfacewas,sobluehermouth!,Itwasagonytohim。 Hefeltasifsomeonewerepushingaknifeinhischest。Thenshe,wasbetteragain,andheforgot。Buttheanxietyremainedinsidehim,likeawoundthatdidnotclose。 AfterleavingMiriamhewentalmoststraighttoClara。 OntheMondayfollowingthedayoftherupturehewentdownto,thework-room。Shelookedupathimandsmiled。Theyhadgrown,veryintimateunawares。Shesawanewbrightnessabouthim。 “Well,QueenofSheba!”hesaid,laughing。 “Butwhy?”sheasked。 “Ithinkitsuitsyou。You’vegotanewfrockon。” Sheflushed,asking: “Andwhatofit?” “Suitsyou——awfully!,Icoulddesignyouadress。” “Howwoulditbe?” Hestoodinfrontofher,hiseyesglitteringasheexpounded。 Hekepthereyesfixedwithhis。Thensuddenlyhetookholdofher。 Shehalf-startedback。Hedrewthestuffofherblousetighter,smootheditoverherbreast。 “MoreSO!”heexplained。 Buttheywerebothofthemflamingwithblushes,andimmediately,heranaway。Hehadtouchedher。Hiswholebodywasquivering,withthesensation。 Therewasalreadyasortofsecretunderstandingbetweenthem。 Thenexteveninghewenttothecinematographwithherforafew,minutesbeforetrain-time。Astheysat,hesawherhandlying,nearhim。Forsomemomentshedarednottouchit。Thepictures,dancedanddithered。Thenhetookherhandinhis。Itwaslarge,andfirm;itfilledhisgrasp。Hehelditfast。Sheneither,movednormadeanysign。Whentheycameouthistrainwasdue。 Hehesitated。 “Good-night,“shesaid。Hedartedawayacrosstheroad。 Thenextdayhecameagain,talkingtoher。Shewasrather,superiorwithhim。 “ShallwegoawalkonMonday?”heasked。 Sheturnedherfaceaside。 “ShallyoutellMiriam?”sherepliedsarcastically。 “Ihavebrokenoffwithher,“hesaid。 “When?” “LastSunday。” “Youquarrelled?” “No!,Ihadmadeupmymind。ItoldherquitedefinitelyI shouldconsidermyselffree。” Claradidnotanswer,andhereturnedtohiswork。Shewas,soquietandsosuperb! OntheSaturdayeveningheaskedhertocomeanddrinkcoffee,withhiminarestaurant,meetinghimafterworkwasover。Shecame,lookingveryreservedandverydistant。Hehadthree-quarters,ofanhourtotrain-time。 “Wewillwalkalittlewhile,“hesaid。 Sheagreed,andtheywentpasttheCastleintothePark。 Hewasafraidofher。Shewalkedmoodilyathisside,withakind,ofresentful,reluctant,angrywalk。Hewasafraidtotakeherhand。 “Whichwayshallwego?”heaskedastheywalkedindarkness。 “Idon’tmind。” “Thenwe’llgoupthesteps。” Hesuddenlyturnedround。TheyhadpassedtheParksteps。 Shestoodstillinresentmentathissuddenlyabandoningher。 Helookedforher。Shestoodaloof。Hecaughthersuddenlyin,hisarms,heldherstrainedforamoment,kissedher。Thenhelet,hergo。 “Comealong,“hesaid,penitent。 Shefollowedhim。Hetookherhandandkissedher,finger-tips。Theywentinsilence。Whentheycametothelight,heletgoherhand。Neitherspoketilltheyreachedthestation。 Thentheylookedeachotherintheeyes。 “Good-night,“shesaid。 Andhewentforhistrain。Hisbodyactedmechanically。 Peopletalkedtohim。Heheardfaintechoesansweringthem。 Hewasinadelirium。HefeltthathewouldgomadifMondaydid,notcomeatonce。OnMondayhewouldseeheragain。Allhimself,waspitchedthere,ahead。Sundayintervened。Hecouldnotbearit。 HecouldnotseehertillMonday。AndSundayintervened——hour,afterhouroftension。Hewantedtobeathisheadagainstthe,doorofthecarriage。Buthesatstill。Hedranksomewhisky,onthewayhome,butitonlymadeitworse。Hismothermustnot,beupset,thatwasall。Hedissembled,andgotquicklytobed。 Therehesat,dressed,withhischinonhisknees,staringoutof,thewindowatthefarhill,withitsfewlights。Heneitherthoughtnorslept,butsatperfectlystill,staring。Andwhenatlasthewassocoldthat,hecametohimself,hefoundhiswatchhadstoppedathalf-pasttwo。 Itwasafterthreeo’clock。Hewasexhausted,butstilltherewas,thetormentofknowingitwasonlySundaymorning。Hewenttobed,andslept。Thenhecycledalldaylong,tillhewasfaggedout。 Andhescarcelyknewwherehehadbeen。ButthedayafterwasMonday。 Heslepttillfouro’clock。Thenhelayandthought。Hewascoming,nearertohimself——hecouldseehimself,real,somewhereinfront。 Shewouldgoawalkwithhimintheafternoon。Afternoon!,Itseemed,yearsahead。 Slowlythehourscrawled。Hisfathergotup;heheardhim,potteringabout。Thentheminersetofftothepit,hisheavy,bootsscrapingtheyard。Cockswerestillcrowing。Acart,wentdowntheroad。Hismothergotup。Sheknockedthefire。 Presentlyshecalledhimsoftly。Heansweredasifhewereasleep。 Thisshellofhimselfdidwell。 Hewaswalkingtothestation——anothermile!,Thetrain,wasnearNottingham。Woulditstopbeforethetunnels? Butitdidnotmatter;itwouldgettherebeforedinner-time。He,wasatJordan’s。Shewouldcomeinhalfanhour。Atanyrate,shewouldbenear。Hehaddonetheletters。Shewouldbethere。 Perhapsshehadnotcome。Herandownstairs。Ah!hesawher,throughtheglassdoor。Hershouldersstoopingalittletoher,workmadehimfeelhecouldnotgoforward;hecouldnotstand。 Hewentin。Hewaspale,nervous,awkward,andquitecold。 Wouldshemisunderstandhim?,Hecouldnotwritehisrealself,withthisshell。 “Andthisafternoon,“hestruggledtosay。”Youwillcome?” “Ithinkso,“shereplied,murmuring。 Hestoodbeforeher,unabletosayaword。Shehidher,facefromhim。Againcameoverhimthefeelingthathewould,loseconsciousness。Hesethisteethandwentupstairs。Hehad,doneeverythingcorrectlyyet,andhewoulddoso。Allthemorning,thingsseemedalongwayoff,astheydotoamanunderchloroform。 Hehimselfseemedunderatightbandofconstraint。Thentherewashis,otherself,inthedistance,doingthings,enteringstuffinaledger,andhewatchedthatfar-offhimcarefullytoseehemadenomistake。 Buttheacheandstrainofitcouldnotgoonmuchlonger。 Heworkedincessantly。Stillitwasonlytwelveo’clock。Asifhe,hadnailedhisclothingagainstthedesk,hestoodthereandworked,forcingeverystrokeoutofhimself。Itwasaquartertoone; hecouldclearaway。Thenherandownstairs。 “YouwillmeetmeattheFountainattwoo’clock,“hesaid。 “Ican’tbetheretillhalf-past。” “Yes!”hesaid。 Shesawhisdark,madeyes。 “Iwilltryataquarterpast。” Andhehadtobecontent。Hewentandgotsomedinner。 Allthetimehewasstillunderchloroform,andeveryminute,wasstretchedoutindefinitely。Hewalkedmilesofstreets。 Thenhethoughthewouldbelateatthemeeting-place。Hewasat,theFountainatfivepasttwo。Thetortureofthenextquarter,ofanhourwasrefinedbeyondexpression。Itwastheanguish,ofcombiningthelivingselfwiththeshell。Thenhesawher。 Shecame!,Andhewasthere。 “Youarelate,“hesaid。 “Onlyfiveminutes,“sheanswered。 “I’dneverhavedoneittoyou,“helaughed。 Shewasinadarkbluecostume。Helookedatherbeautifulfigure。 “Youwantsomeflowers,“hesaid,goingtothenearestflorist’s。 Shefollowedhiminsilence。Heboughtherabunchofscarlet,brick-redcarnations。Sheputtheminhercoat,flushing。 “That’safinecolour!”hesaid。 “I’dratherhavehadsomethingsofter,“shesaid。 Helaughed。 “Doyoufeellikeablotofvermilionwalkingdownthestreet?” hesaid。 Shehungherhead,afraidofthepeopletheymet。 Helookedsidewaysatherastheywalked。Therewasawonderful,closedownonherfaceneartheearthathewantedtotouch。 Andacertainheaviness,theheavinessofaveryfullearof,cornthatdipsslightlyinthewind,thattherewasabouther,madehisbrainspin。Heseemedtobespinningdownthestreet,everythinggoinground。 Astheysatinthetramcar,sheleanedherheavyshoulder,againsthim,andhetookherhand。Hefelthimselfcominground,fromtheanaesthetic,beginningtobreathe。Herear,half-hiddenamong,herblondehair,wasneartohim。Thetemptationtokissitwas,almosttoogreat。Buttherewereotherpeopleontopofthecar。 Itstillremainedtohimtokissit。Afterall,hewasnothimself,hewassomeattributeofhers,likethesunshinethatfellonher。 Helookedquicklyaway。Ithadbeenraining。Thebigbluff,oftheCastlerockwasstreakedwithrain,asitrearedabove,theflatofthetown。Theycrossedthewide,blackspaceofthe,MidlandRailway,andpassedthecattleenclosurethatstoodoutwhite。 ThentheyrandownsordidWilfordRoad。 Sherockedslightlytothetram’smotion,andassheleaned,againsthim,rockeduponhim。Hewasavigorous,slenderman,withexhaustlessenergy。Hisfacewasrough,withrough-hewnfeatures,likethecommonpeople’s;buthiseyesunderthedeepbrowswere,sofulloflifethattheyfascinatedher。Theyseemedtodance,andyettheywerestilltremblingonthefinestbalanceoflaughter。 Hismouththesamewasjustgoingtospringintoalaughoftriumph,yetdidnot。Therewasasharpsuspenseabouthim。Shebither,lipmoodily。Hishandwashardclenchedoverhers。 Theypaidtheirtwohalfpenniesattheturnstileandcrossed,thebridge。TheTrentwasveryfull。Itsweptsilentandinsidious,underthebridge,travellinginasoftbody。Therehadbeenagreat,dealofrain。Ontheriverlevelswereflatgleamsoffloodwater。 Theskywasgrey,withglistenofsilverhereandthere。InWilford,churchyardthedahliasweresoddenwithrain——wetblack-crimsonballs。 Noonewasonthepaththatwentalongthegreenrivermeadow,alongtheelm-treecolonnade。 Therewasthefaintesthazeoverthesilvery-darkwater,andthegreenmeadow-bank,andtheelm-treesthatwerespangled,withgold。Theriverslidbyinabody,utterlysilentandswift,intertwiningamongitselflikesomesubtle,complexcreature。 Clarawalkedmoodilybesidehim。 “Why,“sheaskedatlength,inratherajarringtone,“didyou,leaveMiriam?” Hefrowned。 “BecauseIWANTEDtoleaveher,“hesaid。 “Why?” “BecauseIdidn’twanttogoonwithher。AndIdidn’twant,tomarry。” Shewassilentforamoment。Theypickedtheirwaydownthemuddypath。 Dropsofwaterfellfromtheelm-trees。 “Youdidn’twanttomarryMiriam,oryoudidn’twanttomarry,atall?”sheasked。 “Both,“heanswered——“both!” Theyhadtomanoeuvretogettothestile,becauseofthepools,ofwater。 “Andwhatdidshesay?”Claraasked。 “Miriam?,ShesaidIwasababyoffour,andthatIalways,HADbattledheroff。” Claraponderedoverthisforatime。 “Butyouhavereallybeengoingwithherforsometime?” sheasked。 “Yes。” “Andnowyoudon’twantanymoreofher?” “No。Iknowit’snogood。” Sheponderedagain。 “Don’tyouthinkyou’vetreatedherratherbadly?”sheasked。 “Yes;Ioughttohavedroppedityearsback。Butitwould,havebeennogoodgoingon。Twowrongsdon’tmakearight。” “HowoldAREyou?”Claraasked。 “Twenty-five。” “AndIamthirty,“shesaid。 “Iknowyouare。” “Ishallbethirty-one——orAMIthirty-one?” “Ineitherknownorcare。Whatdoesitmatter!” TheywereattheentrancetotheGrove。Thewet,redtrack,alreadystickywithfallenleaves,wentupthesteepbankbetween,thegrass。Oneithersidestoodtheelm-treeslikepillarsalong,agreataisle,archingoverandmakinghighuparooffromwhichthe,deadleavesfell。Allwasemptyandsilentandwet。Shestoodon,topofthestile,andheheldbothherhands。Laughing,shelooked,downintohiseyes。Thensheleaped。Herbreastcameagainsthis; heheldher,andcoveredherfacewithkisses。 Theywentonuptheslippery,steepredpath。Presentlyshe,releasedhishandandputitroundherwaist。 “Youpresstheveininmyarm,holdingitsotightly,“ shesaid。 Theywalkedalong。Hisfinger-tipsfelttherockingofherbreast。 Allwassilentanddeserted。Onthelefttheredwetplough-land,showedthroughthedoorwaysbetweentheelm-bolesand,theirbranches。Ontheright,lookingdown,theycouldseethetree-tops,ofelmsgrowingfarbeneaththem,hearoccasionallythegurgleof,theriver。Sometimestherebelowtheycaughtglimpsesofthefull,soft-slidingTrent,andofwater-meadowsdottedwithsmallcattle。 “IthasscarcelyalteredsincelittleKirkeWhiteusedtocome,“ hesaid。 Buthewaswatchingherthroatbelowtheear,wheretheflushwas,fusingintothehoney-white,andhermouththatpouteddisconsolate。 Shestirredagainsthimasshewalked,andhisbodywaslike,atautstring。 Halfwayupthebigcolonnadeofelms,wheretheGroverose,highestabovetheriver,theirforwardmovementfalteredtoanend。 Heledheracrosstothegrass,underthetreesattheedgeofthepath。 Thecliffofredearthslopedswiftlydown,throughtreesandbushes,totheriverthatglimmeredandwasdarkbetweenthefoliage。 Thefar-belowwater-meadowswereverygreen。Heandshestoodleaning,againstoneanother,silent,afraid,theirbodiestouchingallalong。 Therecameaquickgurglefromtheriverbelow。 “Why,“heaskedatlength,“didyouhateBaxterDawes?” Sheturnedtohimwithasplendidmovement。Hermouthwas,offeredhim,andherthroat;hereyeswerehalf-shut;herbreast,wastiltedasifitaskedforhim。Heflashedwithasmalllaugh,shuthiseyes,andmetherinalong,wholekiss。Hermouthfused,withhis;theirbodiesweresealedandannealed。Itwassomeminutes,beforetheywithdrew。Theywerestandingbesidethepublicpath。 “Willyougodowntotheriver?”heasked。 Shelookedathim,leavingherselfinhishands。Hewent,overthebrimofthedeclivityandbegantoclimbdown。 “Itisslippery,“hesaid。 “Nevermind,“shereplied。 Theredclaywentdownalmostsheer。Heslid,wentfromone,tuftofgrasstothenext,hangingontothebushes,makingfora,littleplatformatthefootofatree。Therehewaitedforher,laughingwithexcitement。Hershoeswerecloggedwithredearth。 Itwashardforher。Hefrowned。Atlasthecaughtherhand,andshestoodbesidehim。Thecliffroseabovethemandfellaway,below。Hercolourwasup,hereyesflashed。Helookedatthebig,dropbelowthem。 “It’srisky,“hesaid;“ormessy,atanyrate。Shallwe,goback?” “Notformysake,“shesaidquickly。 “Allright。Yousee,Ican’thelpyou;Ishouldonlyhinder。 Givemethatlittleparcelandyourgloves。Yourpoorshoes!” Theystoodperchedonthefaceofthedeclivity,underthetrees。 “Well,I’llgoagain,“hesaid。 Awayhewent,slipping,staggering,slidingtothenexttree,intowhichhefellwithaslamthatnearlyshookthebreathoutofhim。 Shecameaftercautiously,hangingontothetwigsandgrasses。 Sotheydescended,stagebystage,totheriver’sbrink。There,tohisdisgust,thefloodhadeatenawaythepath,andthered,declineranstraightintothewater。Heduginhisheelsandbrought,himselfupviolently。Thestringoftheparcelbrokewithasnap; thebrownparcelboundeddown,leapedintothewater,andsailed,smoothlyaway。Hehungontohistree。 “Well,I’llbedamned!”hecriedcrossly。Thenhelaughed。 Shewascomingperilouslydown。 “Mind!”hewarnedher。Hestoodwithhisbacktothetree,waiting。”Comenow,“hecalled,openinghisarms。 Sheletherselfrun。Hecaughther,andtogethertheystood,watchingthedarkwaterscoopattherawedgeofthebank。 Theparcelhadsailedoutofsight。 “Itdoesn’tmatter,“shesaid。 Heheldhercloseandkissedher。Therewasonlyroom,fortheirfourfeet。 “It’saswindle!”hesaid。”Butthere’sarutwhereaman,hasbeen,soifwegoonIguessweshallfindthepathagain。” Theriverslidandtwineditsgreatvolume。Ontheotherbank,cattlewerefeedingonthedesolateflats。Thecliffrosehigh,abovePaulandClaraontheirrighthand。Theystoodagainst,thetreeinthewaterysilence。 “Letustrygoingforward,“hesaid;andtheystruggled,intheredclayalongthegrooveaman’snailedbootshadmade。 Theywerehotandflushed。Theirbarkledshoeshungheavyon,theirsteps。Atlasttheyfoundthebrokenpath。Itwaslittered,withrubblefromthewater,butatanyrateitwaseasier。 Theycleanedtheirbootswithtwigs。Hisheartwasbeatingthick,andfast。 Suddenly,comingontothelittlelevel,hesawtwofigures,ofmenstandingsilentatthewater’sedge。Hisheartleaped。 Theywerefishing。HeturnedandputhishandupwarninglytoClara。 Shehesitated,buttonedhercoat。Thetwowentontogether。 Thefishermenturnedcuriouslytowatchthetwointruders,ontheirprivacyandsolitude。Theyhadhadafire,butitwas,nearlyout。Allkeptperfectlystill。Thementurnedagainto,theirfishing,stoodoverthegreyglintingriverlikestatues。 Clarawentwithbowedhead,flushing;hewaslaughingtohimself。 Directlytheypassedoutofsightbehindthewillows。 “Nowtheyoughttobedrowned,“saidPaulsoftly。 Claradidnotanswer。Theytoiledforwardalongatinypath,ontheriver’slip。Suddenlyitvanished。Thebankwassheerred,solidclayinfrontofthem,slopingstraightintotheriver。 Hestoodandcursedbeneathhisbreath,settinghisteeth。 “It’simpossible!”saidClara。 Hestooderect,lookinground。Justaheadweretwoislets,inthestream,coveredwithosiers。Buttheywereunattainable。 Thecliffcamedownlikeaslopingwallfromfarabovetheirheads。 Behind,notfarback,werethefishermen。Acrosstheriverthe,distantcattlefedsilentlyinthedesolateafternoon。Hecursed,againdeeplyunderhisbreath。Hegazedupthegreatsteepbank。 Wastherenohopebuttoscalebacktothepublicpath? “Stopaminute,“hesaid,and,digginghisheelssideways,intothesteepbankofredclay,hebegannimblytomount。 Helookedacrossateverytree-foot。Atlasthefoundwhathewanted。 Twobeech-treessidebysideonthehillheldalittlelevelonthe,upperfacebetweentheirroots。Itwaslitteredwithdampleaves,butitwoulddo。Thefishermenwereperhapssufficientlyoutofsight。 Hethrewdownhisrainproofandwavedtohertocome。 Shetoiledtohisside。Arrivingthere,shelookedathim,heavily,dumbly,andlaidherheadonhisshoulder。Heheldherfast,ashelookedround。Theyweresafeenoughfromallbutthesmall,lonelycowsovertheriver。Hesunkhismouthonherthroat,wherehefeltherheavypulsebeatunderhislips。Everythingwas,perfectlystill。Therewasnothingintheafternoonbutthemselves。 Whenshearose,he,lookingonthegroundallthetime,sawsuddenlysprinkledontheblackwetbeech-rootsmanyscarlet,carnationpetals,likesplasheddropsofblood;andred,small,splashesfellfromherbosom,streamingdownherdresstoherfeet。 “Yourflowersaresmashed,“hesaid。 Shelookedathimheavilyassheputbackherhair。 Suddenlyheputhisfinger-tipsonhercheek。 “Whydostlooksoheavy?”hereproachedher。 Shesmiledsadly,asifshefeltaloneinherself。Hecaressed,hercheekwithhisfingers,andkissedher。 “Nay!”hesaid。”Nevertheebother!” Shegrippedhisfingerstight,andlaughedshakily。 Thenshedroppedherhand。Heputthehairbackfromherbrows,strokinghertemples,kissingthemlightly。 “Butthashouldnaworrit!”hesaidsoftly,pleading。 “No,Idon’tworry!”shelaughedtenderlyandresigned。 “Yea,thadoes!,Dunnatheeworrit,“heimplored,caressing。 “No!”sheconsoledhim,kissinghim。 Theyhadastiffclimbtogettothetopagain。Ittookthem,aquarterofanhour。Whenhegotontothelevelgrass,hethrew,offhiscap,wipedthesweatfromhisforehead,andsighed。 “Nowwe’rebackattheordinarylevel,“hesaid。 Shesatdown,panting,onthetussockygrass。Hercheeks,wereflushedpink。Hekissedher,andshegavewaytojoy。 “AndnowI’llcleanthybootsandmaketheefit,forrespectablefolk,“hesaid。 Hekneeledatherfeet,workedawaywithastickandtufts,ofgrass。Sheputherfingersinhishair,drewhisheadtoher,andkissedit。 “WhatamIsupposedtobedoing,“hesaid,lookingatherlaughing; “cleaningshoesordibblingwithlove?,Answermethat!” “JustwhicheverIplease,“shereplied。 “I’myourboot-boyforthetimebeing,andnothingelse!” Buttheyremainedlookingintoeachother’seyesandlaughing。 Thentheykissedwithlittlenibblingkisses。 “T-t-t-t!”hewentwithhistongue,likehismother。 “Itellyou,nothinggetsdonewhenthere’sawomanabout。” Andhereturnedtohisboot-cleaning,singingsoftly。 Shetouchedhisthickhair,andhekissedherfingers。Heworked,awayathershoes。Atlasttheywerequitepresentable。 “Thereyouare,yousee!”hesaid。”Aren’tIagreathandat,restoringyoutorespectability?,Standup! There,youlookasirreproachableasBritanniaherself!” Hecleanedhisownbootsalittle,washedhishandsinapuddle,andsang。TheywentonintoCliftonvillage。Hewasmadlyinlove,withher;everymovementshemade,everycreaseinhergarments,sentahotflashthroughhimandseemedadorable。 Theoldladyatwhosehousetheyhadteawasrousedintogaiety,bythem。 “Icouldwishyou’dhadsomethingofabetterday,“shesaid,hoveringround。 “Nay!”helaughed。”We’vebeensayinghowniceitis。” Theoldladylookedathimcuriously。Therewasapeculiar,glowandcharmabouthim。Hiseyesweredarkandlaughing。 Herubbedhismoustachewithagladmovement。 “HaveyoubeensayingSO!”sheexclaimed,alightrousing,inheroldeyes。 “Truly!”helaughed。 “ThenI’msuretheday’sgoodenough,“saidtheoldlady。 Shefussedabout,anddidnotwanttoleavethem。 “Idon’tknowwhetheryou’dlikesomeradishesaswell,“ shesaidtoClara;“butI’vegotsomeinthegarden——ANDacucumber。” Claraflushed。Shelookedveryhandsome。 “Ishouldlikesomeradishes,“sheanswered。 Andtheoldladypotteredoffgleefully。 “Ifsheknew!”saidClaraquietlytohim。 “Well,shedoesn’tknow;anditshowswe’reniceinourselves,atanyrate。Youlookquiteenoughtosatisfyanarchangel,andI’m,sureIfeelharmless——so——ifitmakesyoulooknice,andmakesfolk,happywhentheyhaveus,andmakesushappy——why,we’renotcheating,themoutofmuch!” Theywentonwiththemeal。Whentheyweregoingaway,theoldladycametimidlywiththreetinydahliasinfullblow,neatasbees,andspeckledscarletandwhite。ShestoodbeforeClara,pleasedwithherself,saying: “Idon’tknowwhether——“andholdingtheflowersforward,inheroldhand。 “Oh,howpretty!”criedClara,acceptingtheflowers。 “Shallshehavethemall?”askedPaulreproachfullyofthe,oldwoman。 “Yes,sheshallhavethemall,“shereplied,beamingwithjoy。 “Youhavegotenoughforyourshare。” “Ah,butIshallaskhertogivemeone!”heteased。 “Thenshedoesasshepleases,“saidtheoldlady,smiling。 Andshebobbedalittlecurtseyofdelight。 Clarawasratherquietanduncomfortable。Astheywalkedalong,hesaid: “Youdon’tfeelcriminal,doyou?” Shelookedathimwithstartledgreyeyes。 “Criminal!”shesaid。”No。” “Butyouseemtofeelyouhavedoneawrong?” “No,“shesaid。”Ionlythink,’Iftheyknew!’“ “Iftheyknew,they’dceasetounderstand。Asitis,theydo,understand,andtheylikeit。Whatdotheymatter?,Here,withonly,thetreesandme,youdon’tfeelnottheleastbitwrong,doyou?” Hetookherbythearm,heldherfacinghim,holdinghereyes,withhis。Somethingfrettedhim。 “Notsinners,arewe?”hesaid,withanuneasylittlefrown。 “No,“shereplied。 Hekissedher,laughing。 “Youlikeyourlittlebitofguiltiness,Ibelieve,“hesaid。 “IbelieveEveenjoyedit,whenshewentcoweringoutofParadise。” Buttherewasacertainglowandquietnessaboutherthatmade,himglad。Whenhewasaloneintherailway-carriage,hefound,himselftumultuouslyhappy,andthepeopleexceedinglynice,andthenightlovely,andeverythinggood。 Mrs。Morelwassittingreadingwhenhegothome。Herhealth,wasnotgoodnow,andtherehadcomethativorypallorintoherface,whichhenevernoticed,andwhichafterwardsheneverforgot。 Shedidnotmentionherownill-healthtohim。Afterall,shethought,itwasnotmuch。 “Youarelate!”shesaid,lookingathim。 Hiseyeswereshining;hisfaceseemedtoglow。Hesmiled,toher。 “Yes;I’vebeendownCliftonGrovewithClara。” Hismotherlookedathimagain。 “Butwon’tpeopletalk?”shesaid。 “Why?,Theyknowshe’sasuffragette,andsoon。Andwhat,iftheydotalk!” “Ofcourse,theremaybenothingwronginit,“saidhismother。 “Butyouknowwhatfolksare,andifonceshegetstalkedabout——“ “Well,Ican’thelpit。Theirjawisn’tsoalmightyimportant,afterall。” “IthinkyououghttoconsiderHER。” “SoIDO!,Whatcanpeoplesay?——thatwetakeawalktogether。 Ibelieveyou’rejealous。” “YouknowIshouldbeGLADifsheweren’tamarriedwoman。” “Well,mydear,shelivesseparatefromherhusband,andtalks,onplatforms;soshe’salreadysingledoutfromthesheep,and,asfar,asIcansee,hasn’tmuchtolose。No;herlife’snothingtoher,sowhat’stheworthofnothing?,Shegoeswithme——itbecomessomething。 Thenshemustpay——webothmustpay!,Folkaresofrightenedofpaying; they’dratherstarveanddie。” “Verywell,myson。We’llseehowitwillend。” “Verywell,mymother。I’llabidebytheend。” “We’llsee!” “Andshe’s——she’sAWFULLYnice,mother;sheisreally! Youdon’tknow!” “That’snotthesameasmarryingher。” “It’sperhapsbetter。” Therewassilenceforawhile。Hewanted,toaskhismothersomething,butwasafraid。 “Shouldyouliketoknowher?”Hehesitated。 “Yes,“saidMrs。Morelcoolly。”Ishouldliketoknow,whatshe’slike。” “Butshe’snice,mother,sheis!,Andnotabitcommon!” “Ineversuggestedshewas。” “Butyouseemtothinkshe’s——notasgoodas——,She’sbetterthan,ninety-ninefolkoutofahundred,Itellyou!,She’sBETTER,sheis! She’sfair,she’shonest,she’sstraight!,Thereisn’tanything,underhandorsuperiorabouther。Don’tbemeanabouther!” Mrs。Morelflushed。 “IamsureIamnotmeanabouther。Shemaybequite,asyousay,but——“ “Youdon’tapprove,“hefinished。 “Anddoyouexpectmeto?”sheansweredcoldly。 “Yes!——yes!——ifyou’danythingaboutyou,you’dbeglad! DoyouWANTtoseeher?” “IsaidIdid。” “ThenI’llbringher——shallIbringherhere?” “Youpleaseyourself。” “ThenIWILLbringherhere——oneSunday——totea。Ifyouthink,ahorridthingabouther,Ishan’tforgiveyou。” Hismotherlaughed。 “Asifitwouldmakeanydifference!”shesaid。Heknewhe,hadwon。 “Oh,butitfeelssofine,whenshe’sthere!,She’ssuch,aqueeninherway。” OccasionallyhestillwalkedalittlewayfromchapelwithMiriam,andEdgar。Hedidnotgouptothefarm。She,however,wasverymuch,thesamewithhim,andhedidnotfeelembarrassedinherpresence。 Oneeveningshewasalonewhenheaccompaniedher。Theybegan,bytalkingbooks:,itwastheirunfailingtopic。Mrs。Morelhad,saidthathisandMiriam’saffairwaslikeafirefedonbooks——if,therewerenomorevolumesitwoulddieout。Miriam,forherpart,boastedthatshecouldreadhimlikeabook,couldplaceherfinger,anyminuteonthechapterandtheline。He,easilytakenin,believedthatMiriamknewmoreabouthimthananyoneelse。Soit,pleasedhimtotalktoherabouthimself,likethesimplestegoist。 Verysoontheconversationdriftedtohisowndoings。Itflattered,himimmenselythathewasofsuchsupremeinterest。 “Andwhathaveyoubeendoinglately?” “I——oh,notmuch!,ImadeasketchofBestwoodfromthegarden,thatisnearlyrightatlast。It’sthehundredthtry。” Sotheywenton。Thenshesaid: “You’venotbeenout,then,lately?” “Yes;IwentupCliftonGroveonMondayafternoonwithClara。” “Itwasnotveryniceweather,“saidMiriam,“wasit?” “ButIwantedtogoout,anditwasallright。TheTrent,ISfull。” “AnddidyougotoBarton?”sheasked。 “No;wehadteainClifton。” “DIDyou!,Thatwouldbenice。” “Itwas!,Thejolliestoldwoman!,Shegaveusseveral,pompomdahlias,asprettyasyoulike。” Miriambowedherheadandbrooded。Hewasquiteunconscious,ofconcealinganythingfromher。 “Whatmadehergivethemyou?”sheasked。 Helaughed。 “Becauseshelikedus——becausewewerejolly,Ishouldthink。” Miriamputherfingerinhermouth。 “Wereyoulatehome?”sheasked。 Atlastheresentedhertone。 “Icaughttheseven-thirty。” “Ha!” Theywalkedoninsilence,andhewasangry。 “AndhowISClara?”askedMiriam。 “Quiteallright,Ithink。” “That’sgood!”shesaid,withatingeofirony。”Bytheway,whatofherhusband?,Oneneverhearsanythingofhim。” “He’sgotsomeotherwoman,andisalsoquiteallright,“ hereplied。”Atleast,soIthink。” “Isee——youdon’tknowforcertain。Don’tyouthinkaposition,likethatishardonawoman?” “Rottenlyhard!” “It’ssounjust!”saidMiriam。”Themandoesashelikes——“ “Thenletthewomanalso,“hesaid。 “Howcanshe?,Andifshedoes,lookatherposition!” “Whatofit?” “Why,it’simpossible!,Youdon’tunderstandwhatawomanforfeits——“ “No,Idon’t。Butifawoman’sgotnothingbutherfairfame,tofeedon,why,it’sthintack,andadonkeywoulddieofit!” Sosheunderstoodhismoralattitude,atleast,andsheknew,hewouldactaccordingly。 Sheneveraskedhimanythingdirect,butshegottoknowenough。 Anotherday,whenhesawMiriam,theconversationturned,tomarriage,thentoClara’smarriagewithDawes。 “Yousee,“hesaid,“sheneverknewthefearfulimportance,ofmarriage。Shethoughtitwasallintheday’smarch——itwould,havetocome——andDawes——well,agoodmanywomenwouldhavegiven,theirsoulstogethim;sowhynothim?,Thenshedevelopedinto,thefemmeincomprise,andtreatedhimbadly,I’llbetmyboots。” “Andshelefthimbecausehedidn’tunderstandher?” “Isupposeso。Isupposeshehadto。Itisn’taltogether,aquestionofunderstanding;it’saquestionofliving。Withhim,shewasonlyhalf-alive;therestwasdormant,deadened。Andthe,dormantwomanwasthefemmeincomprise,andsheHADtobeawakened。” “Andwhatabouthim。” “Idon’tknow。Iratherthinkhelovesherasmuchashecan,buthe’safool。” “Itwassomethinglikeyourmotherandfather,“saidMiriam。 “Yes;butmymother,Ibelieve,gotrealjoyandsatisfaction,outofmyfatheratfirst。Ibelieveshehadapassionforhim; that’swhyshestayedwithhim。Afterall,theywereboundto,eachother。” “Yes,“saidMiriam。 “That’swhatoneMUSTHAVE,Ithink,“hecontinued——“thereal,realflameoffeelingthroughanotherperson——once,onlyonce,ifitonlylaststhreemonths。See,mymotherlooksasifshe’d,HADeverythingthatwasnecessaryforherlivinganddeveloping。 There’snotatinybitoffeelingofsterilityabouther。” “No,“saidMiriam。 “Andwithmyfather,atfirst,I’msureshehadtherealthing。 Sheknows;shehasbeenthere。Youcanfeetitabouther,andabouthim,andabouthundredsofpeopleyoumeeteveryday;and,onceithas,happenedtoyou,youcangoonwithanythingandripen。” “Whathappened,exactly?”askedMiriam。 “It’ssohardtosay,butthesomethingbigandintensethat,changesyouwhenyoureallycometogetherwithsomebodyelse。 Italmostseemstofertiliseyoursoulandmakeitthatyoucango,onandmature。” “Andyouthinkyourmotherhaditwithyourfather?” “Yes;andatthebottomshefeelsgratefultohimforgiving,ither,evennow,thoughtheyaremilesapart。” “AndyouthinkClaraneverhadit?” “I’msure。” Miriamponderedthis。Shesawwhathewasseeking——asort,ofbaptismoffireinpassion,itseemedtoher。Sherealised,thathewouldneverbesatisfiedtillhehadit。Perhapsitwas,essentialtohim,astosomemen,tosowwildoats;andafterwards,whenhewassatisfied,hewouldnotragewithrestlessnessanymore,butcouldsettledownandgiveherhislifeintoherhands。Well,then,ifhemustgo,lethimgoandhavehisfill——somethingbigandintense,hecalledit。Atanyrate,whenhehadgotit,hewouldnotwant,it——thathesaidhimself;hewouldwanttheotherthingthatshe,couldgivehim。Hewouldwanttobeowned,sothathecouldwork。 Itseemedtoherabitterthingthathemustgo,butshecouldlet,himgointoaninnforaglassofwhisky,soshecouldlethimgo,toClara,solongasitwassomethingthatwouldsatisfyaneedinhim,andleavehimfreeforherselftopossess。 “HaveyoutoldyourmotheraboutClara?”sheasked。 Sheknewthiswouldbeatestoftheseriousnessofhis,feelingfortheotherwoman:,sheknewhewasgoingtoClarafor,somethingvital,notasamangoesforpleasuretoaprostitute,ifhetoldhismother。 “Yes,“hesaid,“andsheiscomingtoteaonSunday。” “Toyourhouse?” “Yes;Iwantmatertoseeher。” “Ah!” Therewasasilence。Thingshadgonequickerthanshethought。 Shefeltasuddenbitternessthathecouldleavehersosoon,andsoentirely。AndwasClaratobeacceptedbyhispeople,whohadbeensohostiletoherself? “ImaycallinasIgotochapel,“shesaid。”Itisalong,timesinceIsawClara。” “Verywell,“hesaid,astonished,andunconsciouslyangry。 OntheSundayafternoonhewenttoKestontomeetClaraat,thestation。Ashestoodontheplatformhewastryingtoexamine,inhimselfifhehadapremonition。 “DoIFEELasifshe’dcome?”hesaidtohimself,andhetried,tofindout。Hisheartfeltqueerandcontracted。Thatseemed,likeforeboding。ThenheHADaforebodingshewouldnotcome! Thenshewouldnotcome,andinsteadoftakingheroverthe,fieldshome,ashehadimagined,hewouldhavetogoalone。 Thetrainwaslate;theafternoonwouldbewasted,andtheevening。 Hehatedherfornotcoming。Whyhadshepromised,then,ifshe,couldnotkeepherpromise?,Perhapsshehadmissedhertrain——he,himselfwasalwaysmissingtrains——butthatwasnoreasonwhy,sheshouldmissthisparticularone。Hewasangrywithher; hewasfurious。 Suddenlyhesawthetraincrawling,sneakingroundthecorner。 Here,then,wasthetrain,butofcourseshehadnotcome。Thegreen,enginehissedalongtheplatform,therowofbrowncarriagesdrewup,severaldoorsopened。No;shehadnotcome!,No!,Yes;ah,there,shewas!,Shehadabigblackhaton!,Hewasathersideinamoment。 “Ithoughtyouweren’tcoming,“hesaid。 Shewaslaughingratherbreathlesslyassheputoutherhand,tohim;theireyesmet。Hetookherquicklyalongtheplatform,talkingatagreatratetohidehisfeeling。Shelookedbeautiful。 Inherhatwerelargesilkroses,colouredliketarnishedgold。 Hercostumeofdarkclothfittedsobeautifullyoverherbreast,andshoulders。Hispridewentupashewalkedwithher。 Hefeltthestationpeople,whoknewhim,eyedherwithawe,andadmiration。 “Iwassureyouweren’tcoming,“helaughedshakily。 Shelaughedinanswer,almostwithalittlecry。 “AndIwondered,whenIwasinthetrain,WHATEVERIshould,doifyouweren’tthere!”shesaid。 Hecaughtherhandimpulsively,andtheywentalong,thenarrowtwitchel。TheytooktheroadintoNuttalland,overtheReckoningHouseFarm。Itwasablue,mildday。 Everywherethebrownleaveslayscattered;manyscarlethips,stooduponthehedgebesidethewood。Hegatheredafewforhertowear。 “Though,really,“hesaid,ashefittedthemintothebreast,ofhercoat,“yououghttoobjecttomygettingthem,becauseof,thebirds。Buttheydon’tcaremuchforrose-hipsinthispart,wheretheycangetplentyofstuff。Youoftenfindtheberries,goingrotteninthespringtime。” Sohechattered,scarcelyawareofwhathesaid,onlyknowing,hewasputtingberriesinthebosomofhercoat,whileshestood,patientlyforhim。Andshewatchedhisquickhands,sofulloflife,anditseemedtohershehadneverSEENanythingbefore。Tillnow,everythinghadbeenindistinct。 Theycameneartothecolliery。Itstoodquitestillandblack,amongthecorn-fields,itsimmenseheapofslagseenrisingalmost,fromtheoats。 “Whatapitythereisacoal-pitherewhereitissopretty!” saidClara。 “Doyouthinkso?”heanswered。”Yousee,Iamsousedtoit,Ishouldmissit。No;andIlikethepitshereandthere。Ilikethe,rowsoftrucks,andtheheadstocks,andthesteaminthedaytime,andthelightsatnight。WhenIwasaboy,Ialwaysthought,apillarofcloudbydayandapillaroffirebynightwasapit,withitssteam,anditslights,andtheburningbank,——andIthought,theLordwasalwaysatthepit-top。” Astheydrewnearhomeshewalkedinsilence,andseemed,tohangback。Hepressedherfingersinhisown。Sheflushed,butgavenoresponse。 “Don’tyouwanttocomehome?”heasked。 “Yes,Iwanttocome,“shereplied。 Itdidnotoccurtohimthatherpositioninhishomewould,beratherapeculiaranddifficultone。Tohimitseemedjustasif,oneofhismenfriendsweregoingtobeintroducedtohismother,onlynicer。 TheMorelslivedinahouseinanuglystreetthatrandown,asteephill。Thestreetitselfwashideous。Thehousewasrather,superiortomost。Itwasold,grimy,withabigbaywindow,andit,wassemi-detached;butitlookedgloomy。ThenPaulopenedthedoor,tothegarden,andallwasdifferent。Thesunnyafternoonwasthere,likeanotherland。Bythepathgrewtansyandlittletrees。Infront,ofthewindowwasaplotofsunnygrass,witholdlilacsroundit。 Andawaywentthegarden,withheapsofdishevelledchrysanthemums,inthesunshine,downtothesycamore-tree,andthefield,andbeyondonelookedoverafewred-roofedcottagestothehills,withalltheglowoftheautumnafternoon。 Mrs。Morelsatinherrocking-chair,wearingherblack,silkblouse。Hergrey-brownhairwastakensmoothbackfromherbrow,andherhightemples;herfacewasratherpale。Clara,suffering,followedPaulintothekitchen。Mrs。Morelrose。Clarathought,heralady,evenratherstiff。Theyoungwomanwasverynervous。 Shehadalmostawistfullook,almostresigned。 “Mother——Clara,“saidPaul。 Mrs。Morelheldoutherhandandsmiled。 “Hehastoldmeagooddealaboutyou,“shesaid。 ThebloodflamedinClara’scheek。 “Ihopeyoudon’tmindmycoming,“shefaltered。 “Iwaspleasedwhenhesaidhewouldbringyou,“repliedMrs。Morel。 Paul,watching,felthisheartcontractwithpain。Hismother,lookedsosmall,andsallow,anddone-forbesidetheluxuriantClara。 “It’ssuchaprettyday,mother!”hesaid。”Andwesawajay。” Hismotherlookedathim;hehadturnedtoher。Shethought,whatamanheseemed,inhisdark,well-madeclothes。Hewaspale,anddetached-looking;itwouldbehardforanywomantokeephim。 Herheartglowed;thenshewassorryforClara。 “Perhapsyou’llleaveyourthingsintheparlour,“ saidMrs。Morelnicelytotheyoungwoman。 “Oh,thankyou,“shereplied。 “Comeon,“saidPaul,andheledthewayintothelittle,frontroom,withitsoldpiano,itsmahoganyfurniture,itsyellowing,marblemantelpiece。Afirewasburning;theplacewaslittered,withbooksanddrawing-boards。”Ileavemythingslyingabout,“ hesaid。”It’ssomucheasier。” Shelovedhisartist’sparaphernalia,andthebooks,andthe,photosofpeople。Soonhewastellingher:,thiswasWilliam,thiswasWilliam’syoungladyintheeveningdress,thiswasAnnie,andherhusband,thiswasArthurandhiswifeandthebaby。 Shefeltasifshewerebeingtakenintothefamily。Heshowed,herphotos,books,sketches,andtheytalkedalittlewhile。 Thentheyreturnedtothekitchen。Mrs。Morelputasideherbook。 Claraworeablouseoffinesilkchiffon,withnarrowblack-and-white,stripes;herhairwasdonesimply,coiledontopofherhead。 Shelookedratherstatelyandreserved。 “YouhavegonetolivedownSneintonBoulevard?”saidMrs。Morel。 “WhenIwasagirl——girl,Isay!——whenIwasayoungwomanWElived,inMinervaTerrace。” “Oh,didyou!”saidClara。”Ihaveafriendinnumber6。” Andtheconversationhadstarted。TheytalkedNottingham,andNottinghampeople;itinterestedthemboth。Clarawasstill,rathernervous;Mrs。Morelwasstillsomewhatonherdignity。 Sheclippedherlanguageveryclearandprecise。Buttheyweregoing,togetonwelltogether,Paulsaw。 Mrs。Morelmeasuredherselfagainsttheyoungerwoman,andfoundherselfeasilystronger。Clarawasdeferential。 SheknewPaul’ssurprisingregardforhismother,andshehad,dreadedthemeeting,expectingsomeoneratherhardandcold。 Shewassurprisedtofindthislittleinterestedwomanchattingwith,suchreadiness;andthenshefelt,asshefeltwithPaul,thatshewouldnot,caretostandinMrs。Morel’sway。Therewassomethingsohard,andcertaininhismother,asifsheneverhadamisgivinginherlife。 PresentlyMorelcamedown,ruffledandyawning,fromhis,afternoonsleep。Hescratchedhisgrizzledhead,heplodded,inhisstockingfeet,hiswaistcoathungopenoverhisshirt。 Heseemedincongruous。 “ThisisMrs。Dawes,father,“saidPaul。 ThenMorelpulledhimselftogether。ClarasawPaul’smanner,ofbowingandshakinghands。 “Oh,indeed!”exclaimedMorel。”Iamverygladtoseeyou——Iam,Iassureyou。Butdon’tdisturbyourself。No,nomakeyourself,quitecomfortable,andbeverywelcome。” Clarawasastonishedatthisfloodofhospitalityfrom,theoldcollier。Hewassocourteous,sogallant!,Shethought,himmostdelightful。 “Andmayyouhavecomefar?”heasked。 “OnlyfromNottingham,“shesaid。 “FromNottingham!,Thenyouhavehadabeautifulday,foryourjourney。” Thenhestrayedintothescullerytowashhishandsandface,andfromforceofhabitcameontothehearthwiththetowelto,dryhimself。 AtteaClarafelttherefinementandsang-froidofthehousehold。 Mrs。Morelwasperfectlyatherease。Thepouringouttheteaand,attendingtothepeoplewentonunconsciously,withoutinterrupting,herinhertalk。Therewasalotofroomattheovaltable;thechina,ofdarkbluewillow-patternlookedprettyontheglossycloth。 Therewasalittlebowlofsmall,yellowchrysanthemums。 Clarafeltshecompletedthecircle,anditwasapleasuretoher。 Butshewasratherafraidoftheself-possessionoftheMorels,fatherandall。Shetooktheirtone;therewasafeelingofbalance。 Itwasacool,clearatmosphere,whereeveryonewashimself,andinharmony。Claraenjoyedit,buttherewasafeardeepatthe,bottomofher。 PaulclearedthetablewhilsthismotherandClaratalked。 Clarawasconsciousofhisquick,vigorousbodyasitcameandwent,seemingblownquicklybyawindatitswork。Itwasalmostlike,thehitherandthitherofaleafthatcomesunexpected。Mostofherself,wentwithhim。Bythewaysheleanedforward,asiflistening,Mrs。Morelcouldseeshewaspossessedelsewhereasshetalked,andagaintheelderwomanwassorryforher。 Havingfinished,hestrolleddownthegarden,leavingthetwo,womentotalk。Itwasahazy,sunnyafternoon,mildandsoft。 Claraglancedthroughthewindowafterhimasheloiteredamong,thechrysanthemums。Shefeltasifsomethingalmosttangiblefastened,hertohim;yetheseemedsoeasyinhisgraceful,indolentmovement,sodetachedashetiedupthetoo-heavyflowerbranchestotheirstakes,thatshewantedtoshriekinherhelplessness。 Mrs。Morelrose。