第1章

类别:其他 作者:Wilkie Collins字数:5055更新时间:18/12/21 17:27:55
THISisthestoryofwhataWoman’spatiencecanendure,andwhataMan’sresolutioncanachieve。 IfthemachineryoftheLawcouldbedependedontofathomeverycaseofsuspicion,andtoconducteveryprocessofinquiry,withmoderateassistanceonlyfromthelubricatinginfluencesofoilofgold,theeventswhichfillthesepagesmighthaveclaimedtheirshareofthepublicattentioninaCourtofJustice。 ButtheLawisstill,incertaininevitablecases,thepre-engagedservantofthelongpurse;andthestoryislefttobetold,forthefirsttime,inthisplace。AstheJudgemightoncehaveheardit,sotheReadershallhearitnow。Nocircumstanceofimportance,fromthebeginningtotheendofthedisclosure,shallberelatedonhearsayevidence。Whenthewriteroftheseintroductorylines(WalterHartrightbyname)happenstobemorecloselyconnectedthanotherswiththeincidentstoberecorded,hewillbethenarrator。Whennot,hewillretirefromthepositionofnarrator; andhistaskwillbecontinued,fromthepointatwhichhehasleftitoff,byotherpersonswhocanspeaktothecircumstancesundernoticefromtheirownknowledge,justasclearlyandpositivelyashehasspokenbeforethem。 Thus,thestoryherepresentedwillbetoldbymorethanonepen,asthestoryofanoffenceagainstthelawsistoldinCourtbymorethanonewitness——withthesameobjectinbothcases,topresentthetruthalwaysinitsmostdirectandmostintelligibleaspect;andtotracethecourseofonecompleteseriesofevents,bymakingthepersonswhohavebeenmostcloselyconnectedwiththem,ateachsuccessivestage,relatetheirownexperience,wordforword。 LetWalterHartright,teacherofdrawing,agedtwenty-eightyears,beheardfirst。THESTORYBEGUNBYWALTERHARTRIGHT(ofClement’sinn,TeacherofDrawing)IItwasthelastdayofJuly。Thelonghotsummerwasdrawingtoaclose; andwe,thewearypilgrimsoftheLondonpavement,werebeginningtothinkofthecloud-shadowsonthecorn-fields,andtheautumnbreezesonthesea-shore。 Formyownpoorpart,thefadingsummerleftmeoutofhealth,outofspirits,and,ifthetruthmustbetold,outofmoneyaswell。DuringthepastyearIhadnotmanagedmyprofessionalresourcesascarefullyasusual; andmyextravagancenowlimitedmetotheprospectofspendingtheautumneconomicallybetweenmymother’scottageatHampsteadandmyownchambersintown。 Theevening,Iremember,wasstillandcloudy;theLondonairwasatitsheaviest;thedistanthumofthestreet-trafficwasatitsfaintest; thesmallpulseofthelifewithinme,andthegreatheartofthecityaroundme,seemedtobesinkinginunison,languidlyandmorelanguidly,withthesinkingsun。IrousedmyselffromthebookwhichIwasdreamingoverratherthanreading,andleftmychamberstomeetthecoolnightairinthesuburbs。ItwasoneofthetwoeveningsineveryweekWhichIwasaccustomedtospendwithmymotherandmysister。SoIturnedmystepsnorthwardinthedirectionofHampstead。 EventswhichIhaveyettorelatemakeitnecessarytomentioninthisplacethatmyfatherhadbeendeadsomeyearsattheperiodofwhichI amnowwriting;andthatmysisterSarahandIwerethesolesurvivorsofafamilyoffivechildren。Myfatherwasadrawing-masterbeforeme。 Hisexertionshadmadehimhighlysuccessfulinhisprofession;andhisaffectionateanxietytoprovideforthefutureofthosewhoweredependentonhislabourshadimpelledhim,fromthetimeofhismarriage,todevotetotheinsuringofhislifeamuchlargerportionofhisincomethanmostmenconsideritnecessarytosetasideforthatpurpose。Thankstohisadmirableprudenceandself-denialmymotherandsisterwereleft,afterhisdeath,asindependentoftheworldastheyhadbeenduringhislifetime。 Isucceededtohisconnection,andhadeveryreasontofeelgratefulfortheprospectthatawaitedmeatmystartinginlife。 Thequiettwilightwasstilltremblingonthetopmostridgesoftheheath;andtheviewofLondonbelowmehadsunkintoablackgulfintheshadowofthecloudynight,whenIstoodbeforethegateofmymother’scottage。Ihadhardlyrungthebellbeforethehousedoorwasopenedviolently; myworthyItalianfriend,ProfessorPesca,appearedintheservant’splace; anddartedoutjoyouslytoreceiveme,withashrillforeignparodyonanEnglishcheer。 Onhisownaccount,and,Imustbeallowedtoadd,onminealso,theProfessormeritsthehonourofaformalintroduction。Accidenthasmadehimthestarting-pointofthestrangefamilystorywhichitisthepurposeofthesepagestounfold。 IhadfirstbecomeacquaintedwithmyItalianfriendbymeetinghimatcertaingreathouseswherehetaughthisownlanguageandItaughtdrawing。 AllIthenknewofthehistoryofhislifewas,thathehadonceheldasituationintheUniversityofPadua;thathehadleftItalyforpoliticalreasons(thenatureofwhichheuniformlydeclinedtomentiontoanyone); andthathehadbeenformanyyearsrespectablyestablishedinLondonasateacheroflanguages。 Withoutbeingactuallyadwarf——forhewasperfectlywellproportionedfromheadtofoot——Pescawas,Ithink,thesmallesthumanbeingIeversawoutofashow-room。Remarkableanywhere,byhispersonalappearance,hewasstillfurtherdistinguishedamongtherankandfileofmankindbytheharmlesseccentricityofhischaracter。Therulingideaofhislifeappearedtobe,thathewasboundtoshowhisgratitudetothecountrywhichhadaffordedhimanasylumandameansofsubsistencebydoinghisutmosttoturnhimselfintoanEnglishman。Notcontentwithpayingthenationingeneralthecomplimentofinvariablycarryinganumbrella,andinvariablywearinggaitersandawhitehat,theProfessorfurtheraspiredtobecomeanEnglishmaninhishabitsandamusements,aswellasinhispersonalappearance。Findingusdistinguished,asanation,byourloveofathleticexercises,thelittleman,intheinnocenceofhisheart,devotedhimselfimpromptutoallourEnglishsportsandpastimeswheneverhehadtheopportunityofjoiningthem;firmlypersuadedthathecouldadoptournationalamusementsofthefieldbyaneffortofwillpreciselyashehadadoptedournationalgaitersandournationalwhitehat。 Ihadseenhimriskhislimbsblindlyatafox-huntandinacricket-field; andsoonafterwardsIsawhimriskhislife,justasblindly,intheseaatBrighton。 Wehadmetthereaccidentally,andwerebathingtogether。Ifwehadbeenengagedinanyexercisepeculiartomyownnationlshould,ofcourse,havelookedafterPescacarefully;butasforeignersaregenerallyquiteaswellabletotakecareofthemselvesinthewaterasEnglishmen,itneveroccurredtomethattheartofswimmingmightmerelyaddonemoretothelistofmanlyexerciseswhichtheprofessorbelievedthathecouldlearnimpromptu。Soonafterwehadbothstruckoutfromshore,Istopped,findingmyfrienddidnotgainonme,andturnedroundtolookforhim。 Tomyhorrorandamazement,Isawnothingbetweenmeandthebeachbuttwolittlewhitearmswhichstruggledforaninstantabovethesurfaceofthewater,andthendisappearedfromview。WhenIdivedforhim,thepoorlittlemanwaslyingquietlycoiledupatthebottom,inahollowofshingle,lookingbymanydegreessmallerthanIhadeverseenhimlookbefore。DuringthefewminutesthatelapsedwhileIwastakinghimin,theairrevivedhim,andheascendedthestepsofthemachinewithmyassistance。 Withthepartialrecoveryofhisanimationcamethereturnofhiswonderfuldelusiononthesubjectofswimming。Assoonashischatteringteethwouldlethimspeak,hesmiledvacantly,andsaidhethoughtitmusthavebeentheCramp。 Whenhehadthoroughlyrecoveredhimself,andhadjoinedmeonthebeach,hiswarmSouthernnaturebrokethroughallartificialEnglishrestraintsinamoment。Heoverwhelmedmewiththewildestexpressionsofaffection——exclaimedpassionately,inhisexaggeratedItalianway,thathewouldholdhislifehenceforthatmydisposal——anddeclaredthatheshouldneverbehappyagainuntilhehadfoundanopportunityofprovinghisgratitudebyrenderingmesomeservicewhichImightremember,onmyside,totheendofmydays。 Ididmybesttostopthetorrentofhistearsandprotestationsbypersistingintreatingthewholeadventureasagoodsubjectforajoke; andsucceededatlast,asIimagined,inlesseningPesca’soverwhelmingsenseofobligationtome。LittledidIthinkthen——littledidIthinkafterwardswhenourpleasantholidayhaddrawntoanend——thattheopportunityofservingmeforwhichmygratefulcompanionsoardentlylongedwassoontocome;thathewaseagerlytoseizeitontheinstant;andthatbysodoinghewastoturnthewholecurrentofmyexistenceintoanewchannel,andtoaltermetomyselfalmostpastrecognition。 Yetsoitwas。IfIhadnotdivedforProfessorPescawhenhelayunderwateronhisshinglebed,Ishouldinallhumanprobabilityneverhavebeenconnectedwiththestorywhichthesepageswillrelate——Ishouldnever,perhaps,haveheardeventhenameofthewomanwhohaslivedinallmythoughts,whohaspossessedherselfofallmyenergies,whohasbecometheoneguidinginfluencethatnowdirectsthepurposeofmylife。IIPesca’sfaceandmanner,ontheeveningwhenweconfrontedeachotheratmymother’sgate,weremorethansufficienttoinformmethatsomethingextraordinaryhadhappened。Itwasquiteuseless,however,toaskhimforanimmediateexplanation。Icouldonlyconjecture,whilehewasdraggingmeinbybothhands,that(knowingmyhabits)hehadcometothecottagetomakesureofmeetingmethatnight,andthathehadsomenewstotellofanunusuallyagreeablekind。 Webothbouncedintotheparlourinahighlyabruptandundignifiedmanner。Mymothersatbytheopenwindowlaughingandfanningherself。 Pescawasoneofherespecialfavourites,andhiswildesteccentricitieswerealwayspardonableinhereyes。Poordearsoul!fromthefirstmomentwhenshefoundoutthatthelittleProfessorwasdeeplyandgratefullyattachedtoherson,sheopenedherhearttohimunreservedly,andtookallhispuzzlingforeignpeculiaritiesforgranted,withoutsomuchasattemptingtounderstandanyoneofthem。 MysisterSarah,withalltheadvantagesofyouth,was,strangelyenough,lesspliable。ShedidfulljusticetoPesca’sexcellentqualitiesofheart; butshecouldnotaccepthimimplicitly,asmymotheracceptedhimformysake。HerinsularnotionsofproprietyroseinperpetualrevoltagainstPesca’sconstitutionalcontemptforappearances;andshewasalwaysmoreorlessundisguisedlyastonishedathermother’sfamiliaritywiththeeccentriclittleforeigner。Ihaveobserved,notonlyinmysister’scase,butintheinstancesofothers,thatweoftheyounggenerationarenothinglikesoheartyandsoimpulsiveassomeofourelders。lconstantlyseeoldpeopleflushedandexcitedbytheprospectofsomeanticipatedpleasurewhichaltogetherfailstorufflethetranquillityoftheirserenegrandchildren。 Arewe,Iwonder,quitesuchgenuineboysandgirlsnowasourseniorswereintheirtime?Hasthegreatadvanceineducationtakenrathertoolongastride;andarewe,inthesemoderndays,justtheleasttrifleintheworldtoowellbroughtup? Withoutattemptingtoanswerthosequestionsdecisively,ImayatleastrecordthatIneversawmymotherandmysistertogetherinPesca’ssociety,withoutfindingmymothermuchtheyoungerwomanofthetwo。Onthisoccasion,forexample,whiletheoldladywaslaughingheartilyovertheboyishmannerinwhichwetumbledintotheparlour,Sarahwasperturbedlypickingupthebrokenpiecesofateacup,whichtheProfessorhadknockedoffthetableinhisprecipitateadvancetomeetmeatthedoor。