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类别:其他 作者:William Dean Howells字数:4566更新时间:18/12/22 09:09:46
OnSundayMrs。MarchpartiallyconformedtoanearlierNewEnglandidealofthedaybyceasingfromsight-seeing。Shecouldnothaveunderstoodthesermonifshehadgonetochurch,butsheappeasedthelingeringconscienceshehadonthispointbynotgoingouttillafternoon。ThenshefoundnothingofthegayetywhichSundayafternoonwearsinCatholiclands。Thepeoplewererestingfromtheirweek-daylabors,buttheywerenotplaying;andtheoldchurches,longsinceconvertedtoLutheranuses,werelockedagainsttouristcuriosity。 Itwasasitshouldbe;itwasasitwouldbeathome;andyetinthisancientcity,wherethepastwassomuchaliveintheperpetualpicturesqueness,theMarchesfeltanincongruityinit;andtheywerefaintoescapefromtheProtestantsilenceandseriousnessofthestreetstotheshadeofthepublicgardentheyhadinvoluntarilyvisitedtheeveningoftheirarrival。 Onabenchsataquiet,ratherdejectedman,whomMarchaskedsomequestionoftheirway。HeansweredinEnglish,andintheparleythatfollowedtheydiscoveredthattheywereallAmericans。ThestrangerprovedtobeanAmericanofthesortcommonestinGermany,andhesaidhehadreturnedtohisnativecountrytogetridoftheaguewhichhehadtakenonStatenIsland。HehadbeenseventeenyearsinNewYork,andnowatalkofTammanyanditschancesinthenextelection,ofpullsanddeals,ofbossesandheelers,grewupbetweenthecivicstep-brothers,andjoinedthemisacommoninterest。TheGerman-Americansaidhewasbookkeeperinsomeglass-workswhichhadbeenclosedbyourtariff,andheconfessedthathedidnotmeantoreturntous,thoughhespokeofGermanaffairswiththeimpartialityofanoutsider。HesaidthattheSocialistpartywasincreasingfasterthananyother,andthatthistacitlymeantthesuppressionofrankandtheabolitionofmonarchy。HewarnedMarchagainsttheappearanceofindustrialprosperityinGermany; beggarywasseverelyrepressed,andifpovertywasbettercladthanwithus,itwasashungryandashopelessinNurembergasinNewYork。Theworkingclasseswerekindlyandpeaceable;theyonlyknifedeachotherquietlyonSundayeveningsafterhavingtoomuchbeer。 PresentlythestrangerroseandbowedtotheMarchesforgood-by;andashewalkeddowntheaisleoftreesinwhichtheyhadbeenfittingtogether,heseemedtoberetreatingfartherandfartherfromsuchAmericanismastheyhadincommon。HehadrevertedtoanentirelyGermaneffectofdressandfigure;hiswalkwasslowandTeutonic;hemustbeatypeofthousandswhohavereturnedtothefatherlandwithoutwishingtoownthemselvesitschildrenagain,andyetoutofheartwiththeonlycountryleftthem。 “Hewasratherpathetic,mydear。”saidMarch,inthediscomfortheknewhiswifemustbefeelingaswellashimself。“Howoddtohavethelidliftedhere,andseethesameoldproblemsseethingandbubblinginthewitch’scaldronwecallcivilizationasweleftsimmeringawayathome! Andhowhardtohaveourtariffreachoutandsnatchthebreadfromthemouthsofthosepoorglass-workers!” “Ithoughtthatwashard。”shesighed。“Itmusthavebeenhisbread,too。” “Let’shopeitwasnothiscake,anyway。Isuppose。”headded,dreamily,“thatwhatweusedtolikeinItalywastheabsenceofallthemodernactivities。TheItaliansdidn’trepelusbyassumingtobeofourepochinthepresenceoftheirmonuments;theyknewhowtobehaveaspensivememories。Iwonderifthey’restillascharming。” “Oh,no。”shereturned,“nothingisascharmingasitusedtobe。Andnowweneedthecharmmorethanever。” Helaughedatherdespair,inthetacitunderstandingtheyhadlivedintothatonlyoneofthemwastobedesperateatatime,andthattheyweretotaketurnsincheeringeachotherup。“Well,perhapswedon’tdeserveit。AndI’mnotsurethatweneeditsomuchaswedidwhenwewereyoung。We’vegottougher;wecanstandthecoldfactsbetternow。Theymademeshiveronce,butnowtheygivemeasortofagreeablethrill。 Besides,if,lifekeptupitsprettyillusions,ifitinsisteduponbeingascharmingasitusedtobe,howcouldweeverbeartodie?We’vegotthattoconsider。”Heyieldedtothetemptationofhisparadox,buthedidnotfailaltogetherofthepurposewithwhichhebegan,andtheytookthetrolleybacktotheirhotelcheerfulintheintrepidfancythattheyhadconfrontedfatewhentheyhadonlyhadthehardihoodtofaceaphrase。 TheyagreedthatnowheoughtreallytofindoutsomethingaboutthecontemporarylifeofNuremberg,andthenextmorninghewentoutbeforebreakfast,andstrolledthroughsomeofthesimplerstreets,inthehopeofintimateimpressions。Thepeasantwomen,servingportionsofmilkfromhousetohouseoutofthecansinthelittlewagonswhichtheydrewthemselves,wereatouchofpleasingdomesticcomedy;acertaineffectoftragedyimparteditselffromthelamentationsofthesucking-pigsjoltedoverthepavementsinhandcarts;acertainmajestyfromthelongprocessionofyellowmail-wagons,withdriversintheroyalBavarianblue,troopingbyinthecoldsmallrain,impassiblydrippingfromtheirglazedhat-brimsupontheiruniforms。Buthecouldnotfeelthatthesethingswereanyofthemverypoignantlysignificant;andhecoveredhisretreatfromtheactualitiesofNurembergbyvisitingthechiefbook- storeandbuyingmorephotographsofthearchitecturethanhewanted,andmorelocalhistoriesthanbeshouldeverread。HemadealasteffortforthecontemporaneouslifebyaskingtheEnglish-speakingclerkiftherewereanyliterarymenofdistinctionlivinginNuremberg,andtheclerksaidtherewasnotone。 Hewenthometobreakfastwonderingifbeshouldbeabletomakehismeagrefactsservewithhiswife;buthefoundherfarfromanywishtolistentothem。Shewasintentuponapairofyounglovers,atatablenearherown,whoweresoabsorbedineachotherthattheywereproofagainstaninterestthatmustotherwisehavepiercedthemthrough。Thebridegroom,ashewouldhavecalledhimself,wasaprettylittleBavarianlieutenant,verydarkandregular,andthebridewasasprettyandaslittle,butdelicatelyblond。Naturehadadmirablymatedthem,andifarthadhelpedtobringthemtogetherthroughthegeniusofthebride’smother,whowasbreakfastingwiththem,ithadwroughtalmostasfitly。 Mrs。Marchqueriedimpartiallywhotheywere,wheretheymet,andhow,andjustwhentheyweregoingtobemarried;andMarchconsented,inhispersonalimmunityfromtheirromance,toletitgoonunderhiseyeswithoutprotest。Butlater,whentheymettheloversinthestreet,walkingarminarm,withthebride’smotherbehindthemgloatingupontheirbliss,hesaidthewomanought,athertimeoflife,tobeashamedofsuchfolly。Shemustknowthatthisaffair,byninechancesoutoften,couldnotfailtoeventuateatthebestinamarriageastiresomeasmostothermarriages,andyetshewasabandoningherselfwiththoseignorantyoungpeopletotheillusionthatitwasthefinestandsweetestthinginlife。 “Well,isn’tit?”hiswifeasked。 “Yes,that’stheworstofit。Itshowshowpoverty-strickenlifereallyis。Wewantsomehowtobelievethateachpairofloverswillfindthegoodwehavemissed,andbeashappyasweexpectedtobe。” “Ithinkwehavebeenhappyenough,andthatwe’vehadasmuchgoodaswaswholesomeforus。”shereturned,hurt。 “You’realwayssoconcrete!Imeantusintheabstract。Butifyouwillbepersonal,I’llsaythatyou’vebeenashappyasyoudeserve,andgotmoregoodthanyouhadanyrightto。” Shelaughedwithhim,andthentheylaughedagaintoperceivethattheywerewalkingarminarmtoo,likethelovers,whomtheywereinsensiblyfollowing。 Heproposedthatwhiletheywereinthemoodtheyshouldgoagaintotheoldcemetery,andseethehingedjawofthemurderedPaumgartner,waggingineternalaccusationofhismurderess。“It’sratherhardonher,thatheshouldbehavingthelastword,thatway。”hesaid。“Shewasawoman,nomatterwhatmistakesshehadcommitted。” “That’swhatIcall’banale’。”saidMrs。March。 “Itis,rather。”heconfessed。“ItmakesmefeelasifImustgotoseethehouseofDurer,afterall。” “Well,Iknewweshouldhaveto,soonerorlater。” Itwasthethingthattheyhadsaidwouldnotdo,inNuremberg,becauseeverybodydidit;butnowtheyhailedafiacre,andordereditdriventoDurer’shouse,whichtheyfoundinaremotepartofthetownnearastretchofthecitywall,variedinitspicturesquenessbytheinterpositionofadrippinggrove;itwasrainingagainbythetimetheyreachedit。Thequarterhadlapsedfromearlierdignity,andwithoutbeingsqualid,itlookedwornandhardworked;otherwiseitcouldhardlyhavebeendifferentinDurer’stime。Hisdwelling,innowayimpressiveoutside,amidsttheenvironingquaintness,stoodatthecornerofanarrowside-hillstreetthatslopedcityward;andwithinitwasstrippedbareofallthefurnitureoflifebelow-stairs,andabovewasnonethecozierforthestiffappointmentofashow-house。Itwascavernousandcold;butiftherehadbeenafireinthekitchen,andatablelaidinthedining-room,andbedsequippedfornightmare,aftertheGermanfashion,intheemptychambers,onecouldhaveimaginedakindly,simple,neighborlyexistencethere。Itinnowisesuggestedthecallingofanartist,perhapsbecauseartistshadnotbeguninDurer’stimetotakethemselvessoobjectivelyastheydonow,butitimpliedthelifeofaprosperouscitizen,anditexpressedtheperiod。 TheMarcheswrotetheirnamesinthevisitors’book,andpaidthevisitor’sfee,whichalsoboughtthemticketsinanannuallotteryforareproductionofoneofDurer’spictures;andthentheycameaway,bynomeansdissatisfiedwithhishouse。ByitsassociationwithhissojournsinItalyitrecalledvisitstoothershrines,andtheyhadtoownthatitwasreallynoworsethanAriosto’shouseatFerrara,orPetrarch’satArqua,orMichelangelo’satFlorence。“ButwhatIadmire。”hesaid,“isourfutilityingoingtoseeit。Weexpectedtosurprisesomequalityofthemanleftlyingaboutinthehousebecausehelivedanddiedinit; andbecausehiswifekepthimupsoclosethere,andworkedhimsohardtosavehiswidowfromcomingtowant。” “Whosaidshedidthat?” “Afriendofhiswhohatedher。ButhehadtoallowthatshewasaGod- fearingwoman,andhadaNewEnglandconscience。” “Well,IdaresayDurerwaseasy-going。” “Yes;butIdon’tlikeherlayingherplanstosurvivehim;thoughwomenalwaysdothat。”