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类别:其他 作者:William Dean Howells字数:4041更新时间:18/12/22 09:09:46
“HewasgoingtowriteaboutitforthatpaperinParis。”Thegirlhadtheeffectofgatheringhercourageupforaboldplunge。Shelookedsteadilyatherfather,andadded:“Hesaidhecamebackbecausehecouldn’thelpit。He——wishedtospeakwithme,HesaidheknewhehadnorighttosupposeIcaredanythingaboutwhathadhappenedwithhimandMr。Stoller。Hewantedtocomebackandtellme——that。” Herfatherwaitedforhertogoon,butapparentlyshewasgoingtoleavethewordtohim,now。Hehesitatedtotakeit,butheaskedatlastwithamildnessthatseemedtosurpriseher,“Haveyouheardanythingfromhimsince?” “No。” “Whereishe?” “Idon’tknow。ItoldhimIcouldnotsaywhathewished;thatImusttellyouaboutit。” ThecasewaslesssimplethanitwouldoncehavebeenforGeneralTriscoe。Therewasstillhisaffectionforhisdaughter,hiswishforherhappiness,butthishadalwaysbeensubordinatetohissenseofhisowninterestandcomfort,andaquestionhadrecentlyarisenwhichputhispaternalloveanddutyinanewlight。Hewasnomoreexplicitwithhimselfthanothermenare,andthemostwhichcouldeverbesaidofhimwithoutinjusticewasthatinhisdependenceuponherhewouldratherhavekepthisdaughtertohimselfifshecouldnothavebeenveryprosperouslymarried。Ontheotherhand,ifhedislikedthemanforwhomshenowhardlyhidherliking,hewasnotjustthenreadytogotoextremesconcerninghim。 “Hewasveryanxious。”shewenton,“thatyoushouldknowjusthowitwas。Hethinkseverythingofyourjudgmentand——and——opinion。”Thegeneralmadeaconsentingnoiseinhisthroat。“Hesaidthathedidnotwishmeto’whitewash’himtoyou。Hedidn’tthinkhehaddoneright;hedidn’texcusehimself,oraskyoutoexcusehimunlessyoucouldfromthestand-pointofagentleman。” Thegeneralmadealessconsentingnoiseinhisthroat,andasked,“Howdoyoulookatit,yourself,Agatha?” “Idon’tbelieveIquiteunderstandit;butMrs。March——“ “Oh,Mrs。March!”thegeneralsnorted。 “——saysthatMr。MarchdoesnotthinksobadlyofitasMr。Burnamydoes。” “Idoubtit。Atanyrate,IunderstoodMarchquitedifferently。” “ShesaysthathethinkshebehavedverynoblyafterwardswhenMr。 Stollerwantedhimtohelphimputafalsecomplexiononit;thatitwasallthemoredifficultforhimtodorightthen,becauseofhisremorseforwhathehaddonebefore。”Asshespokeonshehadbecomemoreeager。 “There’ssomethinginthat。”thegeneraladmitted,withacandorthathemadethemostofbothtohimselfandtoher。“ButIshouldliketoknowwhatStollerhadtosayofitall。Isthereanything。”heinquired,“anyreasonwhyIneedbemoreexplicitaboutit,justnow?” “N——no。Only,Ithought——Hethinkssomuchofyouropinionthat——if——“ “Oh,hecanverywellaffordtowait。Ifhevaluesmyopinionsohighlyhecangivemetimetomakeupmymind。” “Ofcourse——“ “AndI’mnotresponsible。”thegeneralcontinued,significantly,“forthedelayaltogether。Ifyouhadtoldmethisbefore——Now,Idon’tknowwhetherStollerisstillintown。” Hewasnotbehavingopenlywithher;butshehadnotbehavedopenlywithhim。Sheownedthattoherself,andshegotwhatcomfortshecouldfromhismakingtheaffairaquestionofwhatBurnamyhaddonetoStollerratherthanofwhatBurnamyhadsaidtoher,andwhatshehadansweredhim。Ifshewasnotperfectlyclearastowhatshewantedtodo,orwishedtohavehappen,therewasnowtimeandplaceinwhichshecoulddelayandmakesure。Theacceptedtheoryofsuchmattersisthatpeopleknowtheirmindsfromthebeginning,andthattheydonotchangethem。 Butexperienceseemstocontradictthistheory,orelsepeopleoftenactcontrarytotheirconvictionsandimpulses。Ifthestatisticswereaccessible,itmightbefoundthatmanypotentialengagementshoveredinadoubtfulair,andbeforetheytouchedtheearthinactualpromiseweredissipatedbytheplayofmeteorologicalchances。 WhenGeneralTriscoeputdownhisnapkininrisinghesaidthathewouldsteproundtoPupp’sandseeifStollerwerestillthere。ButonthewayhesteppeduptoMrs。Adding’shotelonthehill,andhecameback,afteranintervalwhichheseemednottohavefoundlong,toreportrathercasuallythatStollerhadleftCarlsbadthedaybefore。BythistimethefactseemednottoconcernAgathaherselfveryvitally。 HeaskediftheMarcheshadleftanyaddresswithher,andsheansweredthattheyhadnot。TheyweregoingtospendafewdaysinNuremberg,andthenpushontoHollandforMr。March’safter-cure。TherewasnorelevanceinhisquestionunlessitintimatedhisbeliefthatshewasinconfidentialcorrespondencewithMrs。March,andshemetthisbysayingthatshewasgoingtowriteherincareoftheirbankers;sheaskedwhetherhewishedtosendanyword。 “No。Iunderstand。”heintimated,“thatthereisnothingatallinthenatureofa——a——anunderstanding,then,with——“ “No,nothing。” “Hm!”Thegeneralwaitedamoment。Thenheventured,“Doyoucaretosay——doyouwishmetoknow——howhetookit?” Thetearscameintothegirl’seyes,butshegovernedherselftosay,“He——hewasdisappointed。” “Hehadnorighttobedisappointed。” Itwasaquestion,andsheanswered:“Hethoughthehad。Hesaid——thathewouldn’t——troublemeanymore。” Thegeneraldidnotaskatonce,“Andyoudon’tknowwhereheisnow——youhaven’theardanythingfromhimsince?” Agathaflashedthroughhertears,“Papa!” “Oh!Ibegyourpardon。Ithinkyoutoldme。” EndTheirSilverWeddingJourneyV3 byWilliamDeanHowellsPARTIII。 Atthefirststationwherethetrainstopped,ayoungGermanbowedhimselfintothecompartmentwiththeMarches,andsovisiblyresistedanimpulsetosmokethatMarchbeggedhimtolighthiscigarette。Inthetalkwhichthisfriendlyovertureledtobetweenthemheexplainedthathewasarailwayarchitect,employedbythegovernmentonthatlineofroad,andwastravellingofficially。MarchspokeofNuremberg;heownedthesortofsurfeithehadsufferedfromitsexcessivemediaevalism,andtheyoungmansaiditwaspartofthenewimperialpatriotismtocherishtheGothicthroughoutGermany;noothersortofarchitecturewaspermittedinNuremberg。ButtheywouldfindenoughclassicismatAnsbach,hepromisedthem,andheenteredwithsympatheticintelligenceintotheirwishtoseethisformercapitalwhenMarchtoldhimtheyweregoingtostopthere,inhopesofsomethingtypicaloftheolddisjointedGermanyofthepettyprincipalities,thelittlepaternaldespotismsnowextinct。 Astheytalkedon,partlyinGermanandpartlyinEnglish,theirpurposeinvisitingAnsbachappearedtotheMarchesmoremeditatedthanitwas。 Infactitwassomewhataccidental;AnsbachwasnearNuremberg;itwasnotmuchoutofthewaytoHolland。Theytookmoreandmorecredittothemselvesforareasonedanddefinitemotive,inthelightoftheircompanion’senthusiasmfortheplace,anditscharmbeganforthemwiththedrivefromthestationthroughstreetswhosesentimentwasbothItalianandFrench,andwheretherewasayellowishcastinthegrayofthearchitecturewhichwasalmostMantuan。Theyrestedtheirsensibilities,sobruisedandfrettedbyGothicanglesandpoints,againstthesmoothsurfacesoftheprevailingclassicisticfacadesofthehousesastheypassed,andwhentheyarrivedattheirhotel,anoldmansionofVersaillestype,frontingonalongirregularsquareplantedwithpollardsycamores,theysaidthatitmightaswellhavebeenLucca。 ThearchwayandstairwayofthehotelweredrapedwiththeBavariancolors,andtheywereobscurelyflatteredtolearnthatPrinceLeopold,thebrotherofthePrince-Regentofthekingdom,hadtakenroomsthere,onhiswaytothemanoeuvresatNuremberg,andwasmomentlyexpectedwithhissuite。Theyrealizedthattheywerenotoftheprincelyparty,however,whentheyweretoldthathehadsolepossessionofthedining- room,andtheywentouttoanotherhotel,andhadtheirsupperinkeepingdelightfullynative。Peopleseemedtocometheretowritetheirlettersandmakeuptheiraccounts,aswellastoeattheirsuppers;theycalledforstationerylikecharactersinoldcomedy,andtheclatterofcrockeryandthescratchingofpenswentontogether;andfortuneofferedtheMarchesadelicatereparationfortheirexclusionfromtheirownhotelinthecoldpopularreceptionoftheprincewhichtheygotbackjustintimetowitness。Averysmallgroupofpeople,mostlywomenandboys,hadgatheredtoseehimarrive,buttherewasnocheeringoranysignofpublicinterest。Perhapshepersonallymeritednone;helookedadull,sadman,withhisplain,stubbedfeatures;andafterhehadmountedtohisapartment,theofficersofhisstaffstoodquiteacrossthelanding,andbarredthepassageoftheAmericans,ignoringevenMrs。March’spresence,astheytalkedtogether。 “Well,mydear。”saidherhusband,“hereyouhaveitatlast。Thisiswhatyou’vebeenlivingfor,eversincewecametoGermany。It’sagreatmoment。” “Yes。Whatareyougoingtodo?” “Who?I?Oh,nothing!Thisisyouraffair;it’sforyoutoact。” Ifshehadbeenyoung,shemighthavewitheredthemwithaglance;shedoubtednowifherdimeyeswouldhaveanysuchpower;butsheadvancedsteadilyuponthem,andthentheofficersseemedawareofher,andstoodaside。