第54章

类别:其他 作者:William Dean Howells字数:3802更新时间:18/12/22 09:09:46
“It’sworsethanKenby。”shesaidwithasigh。“YouknowItoldyouatCarlsbadIthoughtthatric1icnlousoldthingwasmakinguptoMrs。 Adding。” “Kenby?Whyofco——“ “Don’tbestupid,mydear!No,notKenby:GeneralTriscoe。Iwishyoucouldhavebeenheretoseehimpayingherallsort;ofsillyattentions,andhearhimmakinghercompliments。” “Thankyou。IthinkI’mjustaswellwithoutit。Didshepayhimsillyattentionsandcompliments,too?” “That’stheonlythingthatcanmakemeforgiveherforhiswantingher。 Shewaskeepinghimatarm’s-lengththewholetime,andshewasdoingitsoasnottomakehimcontemptiblebeforehisdaughter。” “Itmusthavebeenhard。AndRose?” “Rosedidn’tseemverywell。Helooksthinandpale;buthe’ssweeterthanever。She’scertainlycommonerclaythanRose。No,Iwon’tsaythat!It’sreallynothingbutGeneralTriscoe’sbeinganoldgooseaboutherthatmakesherseemso,anditisn’tfair。” MarchwentdowntohiscoffeeinthemorningwiththedelicatedutyoftellingKenbythatMrs。Addingwasintown。Kenbyseemedtothinkitquitenaturalsheshouldwishtoseethemanoeuvres,andnotatallstrangethatsheshouldcometothemwithGeneralTriscoeandhisdaughter。HeaskedifMarchwouldnotgowithhimtocalluponherafterbreakfast,andasthiswasinthelineofhisowninstructionsfromMrs。 March,hewent。 TheyfoundMrs。AddingwiththeTriscoes,andMarchsawnothingthatwasnotmerelyfriendly,oratthemostfatherly,inthegeneral’sbehaviortowardher。IfMrs。AddingorMissTriscoesawmore,theyhiditinaguiseofsisterlyaffectionforeachother。Atthemostthegeneralshowedagayetywhichonewouldnothaveexpectedofhimunderanyconditions,andwhichthefactthatheandRosehadkepteachotherawakeagooddealthenightbeforeseemedsolittleadaptedtocallout。HejokedwithRoseabouttheirroomandtheirbeds,andputonacomraderywithhimthatwasnotaperfectfit,andthatsufferedbycontrastwiththepleasureoftheboyandKenbyinmeeting。TherewasacertainquestionintheattitudeofMrs。AddingtillMarchhelpedKenbytoaccountforhispresence;thensherelaxedinaneffectofsecuritysotacitthatwordsoverstateit,andbegantomakefunofRose。 MarchcouldnotfindthatMissTriscoelookedunhappy,ashiswifehadsaid;hethoughtsimplythatshehadgrownplainer;butwhenhereportedthis,shelostherpatiencewithhim。Inagirl,shesaid,plainnesswasunhappiness;andshewishedtoknowwhenhewouldeverlearntolookaninchbelowthesurface:ShewassurethatAgathaTriscoehadnotheardfromBurnamysincetheEmperor’sbirthday;thatshewasatswords’-pointswithherfather,andsodesperatethatshedidnotcarewhatbecameofher。 HehadleftKenbywiththeothers,andnow,afterhiswifehadtalkedherselftiredofthemall,heproposedgoingoutagaintolookaboutthecity,wheretherewasnothingforthemomenttoremindthemofthepresenceoftheirfriendsorevenoftheirexistence。Sheansweredthatshewasworryingaboutallthosepeople,andtryingtoworkouttheirproblemforthem。Heaskedwhyshedidnotletthemworkitoutthemselvesastheywouldhavetodo,afterallherworry,andshesaidthatwherehersympathyhadbeenexcitedshecouldnotstopworrying,whetheritdidanygoodornot,andshecouldnotrespectanyonewhocoulddropthingssocompletelyoutofhismindashecould;shehadneverbeenabletorespectthatinhim。 “Iknow,mydear。”heassented。“ButIdon’tthinkit’saquestionofmoralresponsibility;it’saquestionofmentalstructure,isn’tit? Yourconsciousnessisn’tbuiltinthought-tightcompartments,andoneemotiongoesallthroughit,andsinksyou;butIsimplyclosethedoorsandshuttheemotionin,andkeepon。” Thefancypleasedhimsomuchthatheworkeditoutinallitsimplications,andcouldnot,aftertheirlongexperienceofeachother,realizethatshewasnotenjoyingthejoketoo,tillshesaidshesawthathemerelywishedtotease。Then,toolate,hetriedtoshareherworry;butsheprotestedthatshewasnotworryingatall;thatshecarednothingaboutthosepeople:thatshewasnervous,shewastired;andshewishedhewouldleaveher,andgooutalone。 Hefoundhimselfinthestreetagain,andheperceivedthathemustbewalkingfastwhenavoicecalledhimbyname,andaskedhimwhathishurrywas。ThevoicewasStoller’s,whogotintostepwithhimandfollowedthefirstwithasecondquestion。 “Madeupyourmindtogotothemanoeuvreswithme?” HisbluntnessmadeiteasyforMarchtoanswer:“I’mafraidmywifecouldn’tstandthedrivebackandforth。” “Comewithouther。” “Thankyou。It’sverykindofyon。I’mnotcertainthatIshallgoatall。IfIdo,Ishallrunoutbytrain,andtakemychanceswiththecrowd。” Stollerinsistednofurther。Hefeltnooffenceattherefusalofhisoffer,orchosetoshownone。Hesaid,withthesameuncouthabruptnessasbefore:“HeardanythingofthatfellowsinceheleftCarlsbad?” “Burnamy?” “Mm。” “No。” “Knowwhereheis?” “Idon’tintheleast。” Stollerletanothersilenceelapsewhiletheyhurriedon,beforehesaid,“Igottothinkingwhathedone-afterwards。Hewasn’tboundtolookoutforme;hemightsupposeIknewwhatIwasabout。” MarchturnedhisfaceandstaredinStoller’s,whichhewaslettinghangforwardashestampedheavilyon。Hadthedisasterprovedlessthanhehadfeared,anddidhestillwantBurnamy’shelpinpatchingupthebrokenpieces;ordidhereallywishtodoBurnamyjusticetohisfriend? InanycaseMarch’sdutywasclear。“IthinkBurnamywasboundtolookoutforyou;Mr。Stoller,andIamgladtoknowthathesawitinthesamelight。” “Iknowhedid。”saidStokerwithablazeasfromalong-smoulderingfury,“anddamnhim,I’mnotgoingtohaveit。I’mnotgoingto,pleadthebabyactwithhim,orwithanyman。Youtellhimso,whenyougetthechance。YoutellhimIdon’tholdhimaccountableforanythingI madehimdo。Thatain’tbusiness;Idon’twanthimaroundme,anymore; butifhewantstogobacktothepaperhecanhavehisplace。YoutellhimIstandbywhatIdone;andit’sallrightbetweenhimandme。 Ihain’tdoneanythingaboutit,thewayIwantedhimtohelpmeto;I’veletitlay,andI’ma-goingto。Iguessitain’tgoingtodomeanyharm,afterall;ourpeoplehain’tgotverylongmemories;butifitis,letit。Youtellhimit’sallright。” “Idon’tknowwhereheis,Mr。Stoller,andIdon’tknowthatIcaretobethebearerofyourmessage。”saidMarch。 “Whynot?” “Why,foronething,Idon’tagreewithyouthatit’sallright。YourchoosingtostandbytheconsequencesofBurnamy’swrongdoesn’tundoit。 AsIunderstand,youdon’tpardonit——“ Stollergulpedanddidnotansweratonce。Thenhesaid,“IstandbywhatIdone。I’mnotgoingtolethimsayIturnedhimdownfordoingwhatItoldhimto,becauseIhadn’tthesensetoknowwhatIwasabout。” “Ah,Idon’tthinkit’sathinghe’llliketospeakofinanycase。”saidMarch。 Stollerlefthim,atthecornertheyhadreached,asabruptlyashehadjoinedhim,andMarchhurriedbacktohiswife,andtoldherwhathadjustpassedbetweenhimandStoller。 Shebrokeout,“Well,Iamsurprisedatyou,mydear!Youhavealwaysaccusedmeofsuspectingpeople,andattributingbadmotives;andhereyou’verefusedeventogivethepoormanthebenefitofthedoubt。Hemerelywantedtosavehissavagepridewithyou,andthat’sallhewantstodowithBurnamy。HowcouldithurtthepoorboytoknowthatStollerdoesn’tblamehim?WhyshouldyourefusetogivehismessagetoBurnamy? Idon’twantyoutoridiculemeformyconscienceanymore,Basil;you’retwiceasbadasIeverwas。Don’tyouthinkthatapersoncaneverexpiateanoffence?I’veoftenheardyousaythatifanyoneownedhisfault,heputitfromhim,anditwasthesameasifithadn’tbeen;andhasn’tBurnamyownedupoverandoveragain?I’mastonishedatyou,dearest。” Marchwasinfactsomewhatastonishedathimselfinthelightofherreasoning;butshewentonwithsomesophistriesthatrestoredhimtohisself-righteousness。 “IsupposeyouthinkhehasinterferedwithStoller’spoliticalambition,andinjuredhiminthatway。Well,whatifhehas?Woulditbeagoodthingtohaveamanlikethatsucceedinpolitics?You’realwayssayingthatthelowcharacterofourpoliticiansistheruinofthecountry;andI’msure。”sheadded,withaprodigiousleapoverallthesequences,“thatMr。Stollerisactingnobly;andit’syourdutytohelphimrelieveBurnamy’smind。”Atthelaughhebrokeintoshehastenedtosay,“Orifyouwon’t,Ihopeyou’llnotobjecttomydoingso,forIshall,anyway!” Sheroseasifsheweregoingtobeginatonce,inspiteofhislaughing;