第56章

类别:其他 作者:William Dean Howells字数:3499更新时间:18/12/22 09:09:46
“It’snothing,mother。”hecalledtoher,andasshedroppedonherkneesbeforehimhesanklimplyagainsther。“ItwaslikewhatIhadinCarlsbad;that’sall。Don’tworryaboutme,please!” “I’mnotworrying,Rose。”shesaidwithcourageofthesametextureashisown。“You’vebeenwalkingtoomuch。Youmustgobackinthecarriagewithus。Can’tyouhaveitcomehere?”sheaskedKenby。 “There’snoroad,Mrs。Adding。ButifRosewouldletmecarryhim——“。 “Icanwalk。”theboyprotested,tryingtolifthimselffromherneck。 “No,no!youmustn’t。”ShedrewawayandlethimfallintothearmsthatKenbyputroundhim。Heraisedthefrailburdenlightlytohisshoulder,andmovedstronglyaway,followedbytheeyesofthespectatorswhohadgatheredaboutthelittlegroup,butwhodispersednow,andwentbacktotheirdevotions。 MarchhurriedafterKenbywithMrs。Adding,whomhetoldhehadjustmissedRoseandwaslookingaboutforhim,whenKenbycamewithhermessageforthem。Theymadesurethathewasnowhereaboutthechurch,andthenstartedtogetherdowntheterraces。Atthesecondorthirdstationbelowtheyfoundtheboyclingingtothebarrierthatprotectedthebass-relieffromthezealofthedevotees。Helookedwhiteandsick,thoughheinsistedthathewaswell,andwhenheturnedtocomeawaywiththemhereeledandwouldhavefallenifKenbyhadnotcaughthim。Kenbywantedtocarryhim,butRosewouldnotlethim,andhadmadehiswaydownbetweenthem。 “Yea,hehassuchaspirit。”shesaid,“andI’venodoubthe’ssufferingnowmorefromMr。Kenby’skindnessthanfromhisownsicknesshehadoneofthesegiddyturnsinCarlsbad,though,andIshallcertainlyhaveadoctortoseehim。” “IthinkIshould,Mrs。Adding。”saidMarch,nottoogravely,foritseemedtohimthatitwasnotquitehisbusinesstoalarmherfurther,ifshewasherselftakingtheaffairwiththatseriousness。 Hequestionedwhethershewastakingitquiteseriouslyenough,whensheturnedwithalaugh,andcalledtoGeneralTriscoe,whowaslimpingdownthestepsofthelastterracebehindthem: “Oh,poorGeneralTriscoe!Ithoughtyouhadgoneonahead。” GeneralTriscoecouldnotenterintothejokeofbeingforgotten,apparently。Heassistedwithgravityatthedispositionofthepartyforthereturn,whentheyallreachedthecarriage。Rosehadtheplacebesidehismother,andKenbywishedMarchtotakehiswiththegeneralandlethimsitwiththedriver;butheinsistedthathewouldratherwalkhome,andhedidwalktilltheyhaddrivenoutofeight。Thenhecalledapassingone-spanner,anddrovetohishotelincomfortandsilence。 KenbydidnotcometotheSwanbeforesupper;thenhereportedthatthedoctorhadsaidRosewasonthevergeofanervouscollapse。Hehadoverworkedatschool,buttheimmediatetroublewasthehigh,thinair,whichthedoctorsaidhemustbegotoutofatonce,intoaquietplaceatthesea-shoresomewhere。HehadsuggestedOstend;orsomepointontheFrenchcoast;KenbyhadthoughtofSchevleningen,andthedoctorhadsaidthatwoulddoadmirably。 “IunderstoodfromMrs。Adding。”heconcluded,“thatyouweregoing。 thereforyourafter-cure,Mr。March,andIdidn’tknowbutyoumightbegoingsoon。” AtthementionofSchevleningentheMarcheshadlookedateachotherwithaguiltyalarm,whichtheybothtriedtogivethecastofaffectionatesympathybutshedismissedherfearthathemightbegoingtolethiscompassionprevailwithhimtohishurtwhenhesaid:“Why,weoughttohavebeentherebeforethis,butI’vebeentakingmylifeinmyhandsintryingtoseealittleofGermany,andI’mafraidnowthatMrs。MarchhashermindtoofirmlyfixedonBerlintoletmethinkofgoingtoSchevleningentillwe’vebeenthere。” “It’stoobad!”saidMrs。March,withrealregret。“Iwishweweregoing。”Butshehadnottheleastnotionofgratifyingherwish;andtheywereallsilenttillKenbybrokeout: “Lookhere!YouknowhowIfeelaboutMrsAdding!I’vebeenprettyfrankwithMr。Marchmyself,andI’vehadmysuspicionsthatshe’sbeenfrankwithyou,Mrs。March。Thereisn’tanydoubtaboutmywantingtomarryher,anduptothistimetherehasn’tbeenanydoubtabouthernotwantingtomarryme。Butitisn’taquestionofherorofme,now。It’saquestionofRose。Ilovetheboy。”andKenby’svoiceshook,andhefalteredamoment。“Pshaw!Youunderstand。” “IndeedIdo,Mr。Kenby。”saidMrs。March。“Iperfectlyunderstandyou。” “Well,Idon’tthinkMrs。Addingisfittomakethejourneywithhimalone,ortoplaceherselfinthebestwayaftershegetstoSchevleningen。She’sbeenbadlyshakenup;shebrokedownbeforethedoctor;shesaidshedidn’tknowwhattodo;Isupposeshe’sfrightened——“ Kenbystoppedagain,andMarchasked,“Whenisshegoing?” “To-morrow。”saidKenby,andheadded,“Andnowthequestionis,whyshouldn’tIgowithher?” Mrs。Marchgavealittlestart,andlookedatherhusband,buthesaidnothing,andKenbyseemednottohavesupposedthathewouldsayanything。 “IknowitwouldbeveryAmerican,andallthat,butIhappentobeanAmerican,anditwouldn’tbeoutofcharacterforme。Isuppose。”heappealedtoMrs。March,“thatit’ssomethingImightoffertodoifitwerefromNewYorktoFlorida——andIhappenedtobegoingthere?AndI didhappentobegoingtoHolland。” “Why,ofcourse,Mr。Kenby。”sheresponded,withsuchsolemnitythatMarchgavewayinanoutrageouslaugh。 Kenbylaughed,andMrs。Marchlaughedtoo,butwithaninnernoteofprotest。 “Well。”Kenbycontinued,stilladdressingher,“whatIwantyoutodoistostandbymewhenIproposeit。” Mrs。Marchgatheredstrengthtosay,“No,Mr。Kenby,it’syourownaffair,andyoumusttaketheresponsibility。” “Doyoudisapprove?” “Itisn’tthesameasitwouldbeathome。Youseethatyourself。” “Well。”saidKenby,rising,“Ihavetoarrangeabouttheirgettingawayto-morrow。Itwon’tbeeasyinthishurly-burlythat’scomingoff。” “GiveRoseourlove;andtellMrs。AddingthatI’llcomeroundandseeherto-morrowbeforeshestarts。” “Oh!I’mafraidyoucan’t,Mrs。March。They’retostartatsixinthemorning。” “Theyare!Thenwemustgoandseethemtonight。We’llbetherealmostassoonasyouare。” Marchwentuptotheirroomswith,hiswife,andshebeganonthestairs: “Well,mydear,Ihopeyourealizethatyourlaughingsogaveuscompletelyaway。Andwhatwastheretokeepgrinningabout,allthrough?” “Nothingbutthedisingenuous,hypocriticalpassionoflove。It’salwaysthemostamusingthingintheworld;buttoseeittryingtopassitselfoffinpooroldKenbyasdutyandhumanity,anddisinterestedaffectionforRose,wasmorethanIcouldstand。Idon’tapologizeforlaughing; Iwantedtoyell。” Hiseffronteryandhisphilosophybothhelpedtosavehim;andshesaidfromthepointwherehehadside-trackedhermind:“Idon’tcallitdisingenuous。Hewasbrutallyfrank。He’smadeitimpossibletotreattheaffairwithdignity。Iwantyoutoleavethewholethingtome,fromthisout。Now,willyou?” OntheirwaytotheSpanischerHofshearrangedinherownmindforMrs。 Addingtogetamaid,andforthedoctortosendanassistantwithheronthejourney,butshewasinsuchdespairwithherschemethatshehadnotthecouragetorightherselfwhenMrs。Addingmetherwiththeappeal: “Oh,Mrs。March,I’msogladyouapproveofMr。Kenby’splan。Itdoesseemtheonlythingtodo。Ican’ttrustmyselfalonewithRose,andMr。 Kenby’sintendingtogotoSchevleningenafewdayslateranyway。Thoughit’stoobadtolethimgiveupthemanoeuvres。” “I’msurehewon’tmindthat。”Mrs。March’svoicesaidmechanically,whileherthoughtwasbusywiththequestionwhetherthisscandalousduplicitywasaltogetherKenby’s,andwhetherMrs。Addingwasasguiltlessofanyshareinitasshelooked。Shelookedpitifullydistracted;shemightnothaveunderstoodhisreport;orKenbymightreallyhavemistakenMrs。March’ssympathyforfavor。