第58章

类别:其他 作者:William Dean Howells字数:4075更新时间:18/12/22 09:09:46
Hewas,infact,nottheleastcuriousforthesight,andtheonlythingthatreallytroubledhimwasthequestionofhowheshouldjustifyhisrecreancetohiswife。Thisdidalloythepleasurewithwhichhebegan,afteranexcellentbreakfastataneighboringcaf?tostrollaboutthestreets,thoughhehadthemalmosttohimself,somanycitizenshadfollowedthesoldierstothemanoeuvres。 Itwasnottillthesoldiersbeganreturningfromthemanoeuvres,dusty- footed,andinwhitecanvasoverallsdrawnovertheirtrouserstosavethem,thathewentbacktoMrs。MarchandMissTriscoeattheSwan。Hehadgiventhemtimeenoughtoimaginehimatthereview,andtowonderwhetherhehadseenGeneralTriscoeandtheStollersthere,andtheymethimwithsuchconfidentinquiriesthathewouldnotundeceivethematonce。Heletthemdivinefromhisinventiveanswersthathehadnotgonetothemanoeuvres,whichputtheminthebesthumorwiththemselves,andthegirlsaiditwassocoldandroughthatshewishedherfatherhadnotgone,either。Thegeneralappearedjustbeforedinnerandfranklyavowedthesamewish。Hewasraspingandwheezingfromthedustwhichfilledhislungs;helookedblownandred,andhewastooangrywiththecompanyhehadbeenintohaveanycommentsonthemanoeuvres。HereferredtothemilitarychieflyinrelationtotheMissStollers’ineffectualflirtations,whichhedeclaredhadbeenoutrageous。Theirfatherhadapparentlynocontroloverthemwhatever,orelsewastooignoranttoknowthattheyweremisbehaving。Theywerewithoutrespectorreverenceforanyone;theyhadtalkedtoGeneralTriscoeasifhewereaboyoftheirownage,oradotardwhomnobodyneedmind;theyhadnotonlykeptuptheirfoolishbabblebeforehim,theyhadlaughedandgiggled,theyhadbrokenintosnatchesofAmericansong,theyhadallbutwhistledanddanced。TheymadeloudcommentsinIllinoisEnglish——onthecutenessoftheofficerswhomtheyadmired,andtheyhadatonetimeactuallygotouttheirhandkerchiefs。Hesupposedtheymeanttowavethemattheofficers,butatthelookhegavethemtheymerelyputtheirhatstogetherandsnickeredinderisionofhim。TheywereAmericangirlsoftheworsttype;theyconformedtonostandardofbehavior;theirconductwaspersonal。Theyoughttobetakenhome。 Mrs。Marchsaidshesawwhathemeant,andsheagreedwithhimthattheywerealtogetherunformed,andweretheeffectoftheirownignorantcaprices。Probably,however,itwastoolatetoamendthembytakingthemaway。 “Itwouldhidethem,atanyrate。”heanswered。“Theywouldsinkbackintothegreatmassofourvulgarity,andnotbenoticed。Webehavelikeaparcelofpeasantswithourwomen。Wethinkthatifnoharmismeantorthought,wemayriskanysortofappearance,andwedothingsthatarescandalouslyimpropersimplybecausetheyareinnocent。Thatmaybeallverywellathome,butpeoplewhopreferthatsortofthinghadbetterstaythere,whereourpeasantmannerswon’tmakethemconspicuous。” AstheirtrainrannorthwardoutofWurzburgthatafternoon,Mrs。Marchrecurredtothegeneral’sclosingwords。“ThatwasaslapatMrs。AddingforlettingKenbygooffwithher。” Shetookupthehistoryofthepasttwenty-fourhours,fromthetimeMarchhadleftherwithMissTriscoewhenhewentwithherfatherandtheAddingsandKenbytoseethatchurch。Shehadhadnochancetobringupthesearrearsuntilnow,andsheatonedtoherselfforthedelaybymakingthehistoryveryfull,andgoingbackandaddingtouchesatanypointwhereshethoughtshehadscantedit。Afterall,itconsistedmainlyoffragmentaryintimationsfromMissTriscoeandofhalf-utteredquestionswhichherownartnowbuiltintoacoherentstatement。 MarchcouldnotfindthatthegeneralhadmuchresentedBurnamy’sclandestinevisittoCarlsbadwhenhisdaughtertoldhimofit,orthathehaddonemorethanmakeherpromisethatshewouldnotkeepuptheacquaintanceuponanytermsunknowntohim。 “Probably。”Mrs。Marchsaid,“aslongashehadanyhopesofMrs。Adding,hewasalittletooself-conscioustobeveryupanddownaboutBurnamy。” “Thenyouthinkhewasreallyseriousabouther?” “Nowmydear!HewassoseriousthatIsupposehewasneversocompletelytakenabackinhislifeaswhenhemetKenbyinWurzburgandsawhowshereceivedhim。Ofcourse,thatputanendtothefight。” “Thefight?” “Yes——thatMrs。AddingandAgathawerekeepinguptopreventhisofferinghimself。” “Oh!Andhowdoyouknowthattheywerekeepingupthefighttogether?” “HowdoI?Didn’tyouseeyourselfwhatfriendstheywere?DidyoutellhimwhatStollerhad,saidaboutBurnamy?” “Ihadnochance。Idon’tknowthatIshouldhavedoneit,anyway。Itwasn’tmyaffair。” “Well,then,Ithinkyoumight。Itwouldhavebeeneverythingforthatpoorchild;itwouldhavecompletelyjustifiedherinherowneyes。” “Perhapsyourtellingherwillservethesamepurpose。” “Yes,Ididtellher,andIamgladofit。Shehadarighttoknowit。” “DidshethinkStoller’swillingnesstooverlookBurnamy’sperformancehadanythingtodowithitsmoralquality?” Mrs。Marchwasdauntedforthemoment,butshesaid,“Itoldheryouthoughtthatifapersonownedtoafaulttheydisownedit,andputitawayfromthemjustasifithadneverbeencommitted;andthatifapersonhadtakentheirpunishmentforawrongtheyhaddone,theyhadexpiateditsofarasanybodyelsewasconcerned。Andhasn’tpoorBurnamydoneboth?” AsamoralistMarchwasflatteredtobehoistwithhisownpetard,butasahusbandhewasnotgoingtocomedownatonce。“Ithoughtprobablyyouhadtoldherthat。Youhaditpatfromhavingjustbeenoveritwithme。 Whenhassheheardfromhim?” “Why,that’sthestrangestthingaboutit。Shehasn’theardatall。Shedoesn’tknowwhereheis。Shethoughtwemustknow。Shewasterriblybrokenup。” “Howdidsheshowit?” “Shedidn’tshowit。Eitheryouwanttotease,oryou’veforgottenhowsuchthingsarewithyoungpeople——oratleastgirls。” “Yes,it’sallalongtimeagowithme,andIneverwasagirl。Besides,thefrankanddirectbehaviorofKenbyandMrs。Addinghasbeenveryobliteratingtomyearlyimpressionsoflove-making。” “Itcertainlyhasn’tbeenideal。”saidMrs。Marchwithasigh。 “Whyhasn’titbeenideal?”heasked。“Kenbyistremendouslyinlovewithher;andIbelieveshe’shadafancyforhimfromthebeginning。 Ifithadn’tbeenforRoseshewouldhaveacceptedhimatonce;andnowhe’sessentialtothembothintheirhelplessness。AsforPapaTriscoeandhisEuropeanizedscruples,iftheyhaveanyrealityatallthey’retheresiduumofhispersonalresentment,andKenbyandMrs。Addinghavenothingtodowiththeirunreality。Hisbeinginlovewithherisnoreasonwhyheshouldn’tbehelpfultoherwhensheneedshim,andeveryreasonwhyheshould。Icallitapoem,suchasveryfewpeoplehavethelucktoliveouttogether。” Mrs。Marchlistenedwithmountingfervor,andwhenhestopped,shecriedout,“Well,mydear,Idobelieveyouareright!Itisideal,asyousay;it’saperfectpoem。AndIshallalwayssay——“ Shestoppedatthemockinglightwhichshecaughtinhislook,andperceivedthathehadbeenamusinghimselfwithherperennialenthusiasmforallsortsoflove-affairs。Butsheaverredthatshedidnotcare; whathehadsaidwastrue,andsheshouldalwaysholdhimtoit。 Theywereagaininthewedding-journeysentimentinwhichtheyhadleftCarlsbad,whentheyfoundthemselvesalonetogetheraftertheirescapefromthepressureofothers’interests。ThetideoftravelwastowardsFrankfort,wherethegrandparadewastotakeplacesomedayslater。 TheyweregoingtoWeimar,whichwassofewhoursoutoftheirwaythattheysimplymustnotmissit;andallthewaytotheoldliterarycapitaltheywerealoneintheircompartment,withnotevenastranger,muchlessafriendtomolestthem。Theflyinglandscapewithoutwasoftheirownearlyautumnalmood,andwhenthevineyardsofWurzburgceasedtopurpleit,theheavyafter-mathofhayandclover,whichmen,women,andchildrenwereloadingonheavywains,anddrivingfromthemeadowseverywhere,offeredapastoralandpleasingchange。ItwasalwaystheGermanlandscape;sometimesflatandfertile,sometimeshillyandpoor; oftenclothedwithdensewoods,butalwayscharming,withcastledtopsinruinorrepair,andwithlevelswhereGothicvillagesdrowsedwithintheirwalls,anddreamedofthemediaevalpast,silent,withoutapparentlife,exceptforsomelittlegoose-girldrivingherflockbeforeherasshesalliedoutintothenineteenthcenturyinsearchoffreshpasturage。 AstheirtrainmountedamongtheThuringianuplandstheywereawareofafiner,coolerairthroughtheiropenwindow。Thetorrentsfoamedwhiteoutoftheblackforestsoffirandpine,andbrawledalongthevalleys,wherethehamletsrousedthemselvesinmomentarycuriosityasthetrainroaredintothemfromthemanytunnels。Theafternoonsunshinehadtheglisterofmountainsunshineeverywhere,andthetravellershadapleasantbewildermentinwhichtheirmemoriesofSwitzerlandandtheWhiteMountainsmixedwithlong-dormantemotionsfromAdirondacksojourns。Theychosethisplaceandthatinthelovelyregionwheretheylamentedthattheyhadnotcomeatoncefortheafter-cure,andtheyappointedenoughreturnstoitinfutureyearstoconsumeallthesummerstheyhadlefttolive。