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类别:其他 作者:William Dean Howells字数:3980更新时间:18/12/22 09:09:46
BurnamycameawayfromseeingthepivotalgirlandhermotheroffonthetrainwhichtheyweretakingthateveningforFrankfortandHombourg,andstrolledbackthroughtheWeimarstreetslittleateasewithhimself。 Whilehewaswiththegirlandnearherhehadfelttheattractionbywhichyouthimpersonallydrawsyouth,thecharmwhichmeremaidhasformereman;butoncebeyondtherangeofthishefeltsickatheartandashamed。Hewasawareofhavingusedherfollyasananodyneforthepainwhichwasalwaysgnawingathim,andhehadmanagedtoforgetitinherfolly,butnowitcameback,andthesensethathehadbeenrecklessofherrightscamewithit。Hehaddonehisbesttomakeherthinkhiminlovewithher,byeverythingbutwords;hewonderedhowhecouldbesuchanass,suchawickedass,astotrymakingherpromisetowritetohimfromFrankfort;hewishednevertoseeheragain,andhewishedstilllesstohearfromher。Itwassomecomforttoreflectthatshehadnotpromised,butitwasnotcomfortenoughtorestorehimtosuchfragmentaryself-respectashehadbeenenjoyingsincehepartedwithAgathaTriscoeinCarlsbad;hecouldnotevengetbacktotheresentmentwithwhichhehadbeenstayinghimselfsomewhatbeforethepivotalgirlunexpectedlyappearedwithhermotherinWeimar。 ItwasSedanDay,buttherewasapparentlynoofficialobservanceoftheholiday,perhapsbecausetheGrand-Dukewasawayatthemanoeuvres,withalltheotherGermanprinces。Burnamyhadhopedforsomevoluntaryexcitementamongthepeople,atleastenoughtowarranthiminmakingapaperaboutSedanDayinWeimar,whichhecouldsellsomewhere;butthenightwasfalling,andtherewasstillnosignofpopularrejoicingovertheFrenchhumiliationtwenty-eightyearsbefore,exceptinthemultitudeofJapaneselanternswhichthechildrenwereeverywherecarryingattheendsofsticks。Babieshadthemintheircarriages,andtheeffectofthefloatinglightsinthewinding,up-and-down-hillstreetswascharmingeventoBurnamy’slack-lustreeyes。Hewentbyhishotelandontoacaf?withagarden,wheretherewasapatriotic,concertpromised;hesuppedthere,andthensatdreamilybehindhisbeer,whilethemusicbangedandbrayedroundhimunheeded。 PresentlyheheardavoiceoffriendlybantersayinginEnglish,“MayI sitatyourtable?”andhesawanironicalfacelookingdownonhim。 “Theredoesn’tseemanyotherplace。” “Why,Mr。March!”Burnamysprangupandwrungthehandheldouttohim,buthechokedwithhiswordsofrecognition;itwassogoodtoseethisfaithfulfriendagain,thoughhesawhimnowashehadseenhimlast,justwhenhehadsolittlereasontobeproudofhimself。 MarchsettledhispersoninthechairfacingBurnamy,andthenglancedroundatthejoyfuljamofpeopleeatinganddrinking,underafirmamentoflanterns。“Thisispretty。”hesaid,“mightypretty。IshallmakeMrs。Marchsorryfornotcoming,whenIgoback。” “IsMrs。March——sheis——withyou——inWeimar?”Burnamyaskedstupidly。 Marchforboretotakeadvantageofhim。“Oh,yes。WesawyououtatBelvederethisafternoon。Mrs。Marchthoughtforamomentthatyoumeantnottoseeus。Awomanlikestoexerciseherimaginationinthoselittleflights。” “Ineverdreamedofyourbeingthere——Ineversaw——“Burnamybegan。 “Ofcoursenot。NeitherdidMrs。Etkins,norMissEtkins;shewaslookingverypretty。Haveyoubeenheresometime?” “Notlong。Aweekorso。I’vebeenattheparadeatWurzburg。” “AtWurzburg!Ah,howlittletheworldis,orhowlargeWurzburgis! Weweretherenearlyaweek,andwepervadedtheplace。Buttherewasagreatcrowdforyoutohideinfromus。WhathadIbettertake?” Awaiterhadcomeup,andwasstandingatMarch’selbow。“IsupposeI mustn’tsitherewithoutorderingsomething?” “Whitewineandselters。”saidBurnamyvaguely。 “Theverything!Whydidn’tIthinkofit?It’sadivinedrink:itsatisfieswithoutfilling。Ihaditanightortwobeforewelefthome,intheMadisonSquareRoofGarden。Haveyouseen’EveryOtherWeek’ lately?” “No。”saidBurnamy,withmorespiritthanhehadyetshown。 “We’vejustgotourmailfromNuremberg。ThelastnumberhasapoeminitthatIratherlike。”Marchlaughedtoseetheyoungfellow’sfacelightupwithjoyfulconsciousness。“Comeroundtomyhotel,afteryou’retiredhere,andI’llletyouseeit。There’snohurry。Didyounoticethelittlechildrenwiththeirlanterns,asyoucamealong?It’sthegentlesteffectthatawarlikememoryevercameto。TheFrenchthemselvescouldn’thavemindedthoseinnocentscarryingthosesoftlightsonthedayoftheirdisaster。Yououghttogetsomethingoutofthat,andI’vegotasubjectintrustforyoufromRoseAdding。HeandhismotherwereatWurzburg;I’msorrytosaythepoorlittlechapdidn’tseemverywell。They’vegonetoHollandfortheseaair。”MarchhadbeentalkingforquantityincompassionoftheembarrassmentinwhichBurnamyseemedbound;buthequestionedhowfarheoughttobringcomforttotheyoungfellowmerelybecausehelikedhim。Sofarashecouldmakeout,Burnamyhadbeendoingratherlessthannothingtoretrievehimselfsincetheyhadmet;anditwasbyanimpulsethathecouldnothavelogicallydefendedtoMrs。Marchthatheresumed。“WefoundanotherfriendofyoursinWurzburg:Mr。Stoller。” “Mr。Stoller?”Burnamyfaintlyechoed。 “Yes;hewastheretogivehisdaughtersaholidayduringthemanoeuvres; andtheymadethemostofit。Hewantedustogototheparadewithhisfamilybutwedeclined。ThetwinswereprettynearlythedeathofGeneralTriscoe。” AgainBurnamyechoedhim。“GeneralTriscoe?” “Ah,yes:Ididn’ttellyou。GeneralTriscoeandhisdaughterhadcomeonwithMrs。AddingandRose。Kenby——yourememberKenby,OntheNorumbia?——Kenbyhappenedtobethere,too;wewerequiteafamilyparty; andStollergotthegeneraltodriveouttothemanoeuvreswithhimandhisgirls。” Nowthathewaslaunched,Marchratherenjoyedlettinghimselfgo。HedidnotknowwhatheshouldsaytoMrs。MarchwhenhecametoconfesshavingtoldBurnamyeverythingbeforeshegotachanceathim;hepushedonrecklessly,upontheprinciple,whichprobablywillnotholdinmorals,thatonemayaswellbehungforasheepasalamb。“IhaveamessageforyoufromMr。Stoller。” “Forme?”Burnamygasped。 “I’vebeenwonderinghowIshouldputit,forIhadn’texpectedtoseeyou。Butit’ssimplythis:hewantsyoutoknow——andheseemedtowantmetoknow——thathedoesn’tholdyouaccountableinthewayhedid。He’sthoughtitallover,andhe’sdecidedthathehadnorighttoexpectyoutosavehimfromhisownignorancewherehewasmakingashowofknowledge。Ashesaid,hedoesn’tchoosetopleadthebabyact。Hesaysthatyou’reallright,andyourplaceonthepaperisopentoyou。” Burnamyhadnotbeenverypromptbefore,butnowheseemedbracedforinstantresponse。“Ithinkhe’swrong。”hesaid,soharshlythatthepeopleatthenexttablelookedround。“Hisfeelingashedoeshasnothingtodowiththefact,anditdoesn’tletmeout。” Marchwouldhavelikedtotakehiminhisarms;hemerelysaid,“Ithinkyou’requiteright,astothat。Butthere’ssuchathingasforgiveness,youknow。Itdoesn’tchangethenatureofwhatyou’vedone;butasfarasthesuffererfromitisconcerned,itannulsit。” “Yes,Iunderstandthat。ButIcan’taccepthisforgivenessifIhatehim。” “Butperhapsyouwon’talwayshatehim。Somedayyoumayhaveachancetodohimagoodturn。It’sratherbanale;buttheredoesn’tseemanyotherway。Well,Ihavegivenyouhismessage。Areyougoingwithmetogetthatpoem?” WhenMarchhadgivenBurnamythepaperathishotel,andBurnamyhadputitinhispocket,theyoungmansaidhethoughthewouldtakesomecoffee,andheaskedMarchtojoinhiminthedining-roomwheretheyhadstoodtalking。 “No,thankyou。”saidtheelder,“Idon’tproposesittingupallnight,andyou’llexcusemeifIgotobednow。It’salittleinformaltoleaveaguest——“ “You’renotleavingaguest!I’mathomehere。I’mstayinginthishoteltoo。” Marchsaid,“Oh!”andthenheaddedabruptly,“Good-night。”andwentupstairsunderthefrescoofthefivepoets。 “Whomwereyoutalkingwithbelow?”askedMrs。Marchthroughthedooropeningintohisroomfromhers。 “Burnamy。”heansweredfromwithin。“He’sstayinginthishouse。HeletmeknowjustasIwasgoingtoturnhimoutforthenight。It’soneofthoselittleuncandorsofhisthatthrowsuspiciononhishonestyingreatthings。” “Oh!Thenyou’vebeentellinghim。”shesaid,withamentalboundhighaboveandfarbeyondthepoint。 “Everything。” “AboutStoller,too?” “AboutStollerandhisdaughters,andMrs。AddingandRoseandKenbyandGeneralTriscoe——andAgatha。” “Verywell。That’swhatIcallshabby。Don’tevertalktomeagainabouttheinconsistenciesofwomen。Butnowthere’ssomethingperfectlyfearful。” “Whatisit?” “AletterfromMissTriscoecameafteryouweregone,askingustofindroomsinsomehotelforherandherfatherto-morrow。Heisn’twell,andthey’recoming。AndI’vetelegraphedthemtocomehere。Nowwhatdoyousay?”