第62章

类别:其他 作者:William Dean Howells字数:4550更新时间:18/12/22 09:09:46
Theycouldseenowayoutofthetrouble,andMrs。Marchcouldnotresignherselftoittillherhusbandsuggestedthatsheshouldconsideritprovidential。Thistouchedthelingeringsuperstitioninwhichshehadbeenancestrallytaughttoregardherselfasameans,wheninaverytightplace,andtoleavetheresponsibilitywiththemoralgovernmentoftheuniverse。Asshenowperceived,ithadbeenthesameasorderedthattheyshouldseeBurnamyundersuchconditionsintheafternoonthattheycouldnotspeaktohim,andhearwherehewasstaying;andinaninferiordegreeithadbeenthesameasorderedthatMarchshouldseehimintheeveningandtellhimeverything,sothatsheshouldknowjusthowtoactwhenshesawhiminthemorning。IfhecouldplausiblyaccountfortherenewalofhisflirtationwithMissElkins,orifheseemedgenerallyworthyapartfromthat,shecouldforgivehim。 Itwassopleasantwhenhecameinatbreakfastwithhiswell-rememberedsmile,thatshedidnotrequirefromhimanyexplicitdefence。WhiletheytalkedshewasrightingherselfinanundercurrentofdramawithMissTriscoe,andexplainingtoherthattheycouldnotpossiblywaitoverforherandherfatherinWeimar,butmustbeoffthatdayforBerlin,astheyhadmadealltheirplans。Itwasnoteasy,evenindramawhereonehaseverythingone’sownway,toprovethatshecouldnotwithoutimpietysofarinterferewiththecourseofProvidenceastopreventMissTriscoe’scomingwithherfathertothesamehotelwhereBurnamywasstaying。Shecontrived,indeed,topersuadeherthatshehadnotknownhewasstayingtherewhenshetelegraphedthemwheretocome,andthatintheabsenceofanyopenconfidencefromMissTriscoeshewasnotobligedtosupposethathispresencewouldbeembarrassing。 MarchproposedleavingherwithBurnamywhilehewentupintothetownandinterviewedthehouseofSchiller,whichhehadnotdoneyet;andassoonashegothimselfawayshecametobusiness,breakingaltogetherfromtheinnerdramawithMissTriscoeanddevotingherselftoBurnamy。 TheyhadalreadygotsofarastohavementionedthemeetingwiththeTriscoesinWurzburg,andshesaid:“DidMr。Marchtellyoutheywerecominghere?Or,no!Wehadn’theardthen。Yes,theyarecomingto- morrow。Theymaybegoingtostaysometime。ShetalkedofWeimarwhenwefirstspokeofGermanyontheship。”Burnamysaidnothing,andshesuddenlyadded,withasharpglance,“Theywantedustogetthemrooms,andweadvisedtheircomingtothishouse。”Hestartedverysatisfactorily,and“Doyouthinktheywouldbecomfortable,here?”shepursued。 “Oh,yes,very。Theycanhavemyroom;it’ssoutheast;Ishallbegoingintootherquarters。”Shedidnotsayanything;and“Mrs。March。”hebeganagain,“whatistheuseofmybeatingaboutthebush?YoumustknowwhatIwentbacktoCarlsbadfor,thatnight——“ “Nooneevertold——“ “Well,youmusthavemadeaprettygoodguess。Butitwasafailure。I oughttohavefailed,andIdid。Shesaidthatunlessherfatherlikedit——Andapparentlyhehasn’tlikedit。”Burnamysmiledruefully。 “Howdoyouknow?Shedidn’tknowwhereyouwere!” “Shecouldhavegotwordtomeifshehadhadgoodnewsforme。They’veforwardedotherlettersfromPupp’s。Butit’sallright;IhadnobusinesstogobacktoCarlsbad。Ofcourseyoudidn’tknowIwasinthishousewhenyoutoldthemtocome;andImustclearout。IhadbetterclearoutofWeimar,too。” “No,Idon’tthinkso;Ihavenorighttopryintoyouraffairs,but——“ “Oh,they’rewideenoughopen!” “Andyoumayhavechangedyourmind。Ithoughtyoumight,whenIsawyouyesterdayatBelvedere——“ “Iwasonlytryingtomakebadworse。” “ThenIthinkthesituationhaschangedentirelythroughwhatMr。StollersaidtoMr。March。” “Ican’tseehowithas。Icommittedanactofshabbytreachery,andI’masmuchtoblameasifhestillwantedtopunishmeforit。” “DidMr。Marchsaythattoyou?” “No;IsaidthattoMr。March;andhecouldn’tanswerit,andyoucan’t。 You’reverygood,andverykind,butyoucan’tanswerit。” “Icanansweritverywell。”sheboasted,butshecouldfindnothingbettertosaythan,“It’syourdutytohertoseeherandletherknow。” “Doesn’tsheknowalready?” “Shehasarighttoknowitfromyou。Ithinkyouaremorbid,Mr。 Burnamy。YouknowverywellIdidn’tlikeyourdoingthattoMr。 Stoller。Ididn’tsaysoatthetime,becauseyouseemedtofeelitenoughyourself。ButIdidlikeyourowninguptoit。”andhereMrs。 Marchthoughtittimetotrotoutherborrowedbattle-horseagain。“Myhusbandalwayssaysthatifapersonownsuptoanerror,fullyandfaithfully,asyou’vealwaysdone,theymakeitthesameinitsconsequencestothemasifithadneverbeendone。” “DoesMr。Marchsaythat?”askedBurnamywitharelentingsmile。 “Indeedhedoes!” Burnamyhesitated;thenheasked,gloomilyagain: “Andwhatabouttheconsequencestothe,otherfellow?” “Awoman。”saidMrs。March,“hasnoconcernwiththem。Andbesides,I thinkyou’vedoneallyoucouldtosaveMr。Stollerfromtheconsequences。” “Ihaven’tdoneanything。” “Nomatter。Youwouldifyoucould。Iwonder。”shebrokeoff,topreventhispersistenceatapointwherehernerveswerebeginningtogiveway,“whatcanbekeepingMr。March?” Nothingmuchmoreimportant,itappearedlater,thanthepleasureofsaunteringthroughthestreetsonthewaytothehouseofSchiller,andlookingattheprettychildrengoingtoschool,withbooksundertheirarms。Itwasthedayfortheschoolstoopenafterthelongsummervacation,andtherewasafreshnessofexpectationintheshiningfaceswhich,ifitcouldnotlightuphisowngraybeardvisage,couldatleasttouchhisheart: WhenhereachedtheSchillerhousehefoundthatitwasreallynottheSchillerhouse,buttheSchillerflat,ofthreeorfourrooms,oneflightup,whosewindowslookoutuponthestreetnamedafterthepoet。Thewholeplaceisbareandclean;inonecornerofthelargeroomfrontingthestreetstandsSchiller’swriting-table,withhischairbeforeit; withthefootextendingtowardthistherestands,inanothercorner,thenarrowbedonwhichhedied;somewitheredwreathsonthepillowframeapictureofhisdeathmask,whichatfirstglanceislikehisdeadfacelyingthere。Itisallrathertasteless,andallrathertouching,andtheplacewithitsmeagreappointments,ascomparedwiththerichGoethehouse,suggeststhatpersonalcompetitionwithGoetheinwhichSchillerisalwaysfallingintothesecondplace。Whetheritwillbefinallysowithhiminliteratureitistooearlytoaskoftime,anduponotherpointseternitywillnotbeinterrogated。“Thegreat,GoetheandthegoodSchiller。”theyremain;andyet,Marchreasoned,therewassomethinggoodinGoetheandsomethinggreat,inSchiller。 Hewassofullofthepathosoftheirinequalitybeforetheworldthathedidnotheedthewarningonthedoorofthepastry-shopneartheSchillerhouse,andonopeningithebedaubedhishandwiththefreshpaintonit。 Hewastheninsuchastate,thathecouldnotbringhismindtobearuponthequestionofwhichcakeshiswifewouldprobablyprefer,andhestoodhelplesslyholdinguphishandtillthegoodwomanbehindthecounterdiscoveredhisplight,andutteredaloudcryofcompassion。 Sheranandgotawetnapkin,whichsherubbedwithsoap,andthensheinstructedhimbywordandgesturetorubhishanduponit,andshedidnotleavehimtillhisrescuewascomplete。Heletherchooseavarietyofthecakesforhim,andcameawaywithagaypaperbagfullofthem,andwiththefeelingthathehadbeeninmoreintimaterelationswiththelifeofWeimarthantravellersareoftenprivilegedtobe。Hearguedfromtheinstantandintelligentsympathyofthepastrywomanahighgradeofcultureinallclasses;andheconceivedthenotionofpretendingtoMrs。Marchthathehadgotthesecakesfrom,adescendantofSchiller。 Hisdeceitavailedwithherforthebriefmomentinwhichshealways,aftersomanyyears’experienceofhisduplicity,believedanythinghetoldher。Theydinedmerrilytogetherattheirhotel,andthenBurnamycamedowntothestationwiththemandwasverycomfortabletoMarchinhelpinghimtogettheirticketsandtheirbaggageregistered。ThetrainwhichwastotakethemtoHalle,wheretheyweretochangeforBerlin,wasratherlate,andtheyhadbuttenminutesafteritcameinbeforeitwouldstartagain。Mrs。Marchwaswatchingimpatientlyatthewindowofthewaiting-roomforthedismountingpassengerstocleartheplatformandallowthedoorstobeopened;suddenlyshegaveacry,andturnedandranintothepassagebywhichthenewarrivalswerepouringouttowardthesuperabundantomnibuses。MarchandBurnamy,whohadbeentalkingapart,mechanicallyrushedafterherandfoundherkissingMissTriscoeandshakinghandswiththegeneralamidstatempestofquestionsandanswers,fromwhichitappearedthattheTriscoeshadgottiredofstayinginWurzburg,andhadsimplycomeontoWeimaradaysoonerthantheyhadintended。 The,generalwasrathermuchbundledupforadaywhichwasmildforaGermansummerday,andhecoughedoutanexplanationthathehadtakenanabominablecoldatthatridiculousparade,andhadnotshakenitoffyet。 Hehadanotionthatchangeofairwouldbebetterforhim;itcouldnotbeworse。 HeseemedalittlevagueastoBurnamy,ratherthaninimical。WhiletheladieswerestilltalkingeagerlytogetherinprofferandacceptanceofMrs。March’slamentationsthatsheshouldbegoingawayjustasMissTriscoewascoming,heaskediftheomnibusfortheirhotelwasthere。 HebynomeansresentedBurnamy’sassurancethatitwas,andhedidnotrefusetolethimordertheirbaggage,littleandlarge,loadeduponit。 Bythetimethiswasdone,Mrs。MarchandMissTriscoehadsofardetachedthemselvesfromeachotherthattheycouldseparateafteronemoreformalexpressionofregretandforgiveness。Withalamentintowhichshepouredaworldofinarticulateemotions,Mrs。Marchwrenchedherselffromtheplace,andsufferedherself,tobepushedtowardhertrain。Butwiththelastlonglookwhichshecastoverhershoulder,beforeshevanishedintothewaiting-room,shesawMissTriscoeandBurnamytransactingtheelaboratepolitenessesofamiablestrangerswithregardtotheverysmallbagwhichthegirlhadinherhand。Hesucceededinrelievingherofit;andthenheledthewayoutofthestationontheleftofthegeneral,whileMissTriscoebroughtuptherear。