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类别:其他 作者:William Dean Howells字数:4664更新时间:18/12/22 09:09:46
Inthehotelservicetherewasoneofthosemenwhoareportersinthisworld,butwillbeangelsinthenext,unlesstheperfectgoodnessoftheirlooks,theconstantkindnessoftheiracts,beliesthem。TheMarcheshadknownandlovedthemanintheirbriefstay,andhehadbeenthefastfriendofBurnamyfromthemomenttheyfirstsaweachotheratthestation。HehadtenderlytakenpossessionofGeneralTriscoeonhisarrival,andhadconstitutedhimselfthenurseandkeeperoftheirascibleinvalid,intheintervalsofgoingtothetrains,withazealthatoftenrelievedhisdaughterandBurnamy。Thegeneralinfactpreferredhimtoeither,andatacitcustomgrewupbywhichwhenAugustknockedathisdoor,andofferedhimselfinhisfewwordsofserviceableEnglish,thatoneofthemwhohappenedtobesittingwiththegeneralgaveway,andlefthimincharge。Theretiringwatcherwasthenapttoencountertheotherwatcheronthestairs,orinthereading-room,orinthetiny,white-pebbleddoor-yardatalittletableintheshadeofthewooden-tubbedevergreens。FromthehabitofdoingthistheyonedaysuddenlyformedthehabitofgoingacrossthestreettothatgardenedhollowbeforeandbelowtheGrand-DucalMuseum。Therewashereabenchintheshelterofsomelate-floweringbushwhichthefewotherfrequentersoftheplacesoonrecognizedasbelongingtotheyoungstrangers,sothattheywouldsilentlyriseandleaveittothemwhentheysawthemcoming。Apparentlytheyyieldednotonlytotheirright,buttoacertainauthoritywhichresidesinlovers,andwhichallothermen,andespeciallyallotherwomen,liketoacknowledgeandrespect。 IntheabsenceofanycivicdocumentsbearingupontheaffairitisdifficulttoestablishthefactthatthiswasthecharacterinwhichAgathaandBurnamywerecommonlyregardedbytheinhabitantsofWeimar。 Butwhatevertheirownnotionoftheirrelationwas,ifitwasnotthatofaBrantandaBrautigam,thepeopleofWeimarwouldhavebeenpuzzledtosaywhatitwas。Itwasknownthatthegraciousyounglady’sfather,whowouldnaturallyhaveaccompaniedthem,wassick,andinthefactthattheywereAmericansmuchextenuationwasfoundforwhateverwasphenomenalintheirunencumberedenjoymentofeachother’ssociety。 IftheirfreeAmericanassociationwasindistinguishablylikethepeasantinformalitywhichGeneralTriscoedespisedintherelationsofKenbyandMrs。Adding,itistobesaidinhisexcusethathecouldnotbefullycognizantofit,inthecircumstances,andsocoulddonothingtopreventit。Hispessimismextendedtohishealth;fromthefirsthebelievedhimselfworsethanthedoctorthoughthim,andhewouldhavehadsomeotherphysicianifhehadnotfoundconsolationintheirdifferenceofopinionandtheconsequentcontemptwhichhewasenabledtocherishforthedoctorinviewoftheman’scompleteignoranceofthecase。Inproofofhisownbetterunderstandingofit,heremainedinbedsometimeafterthedoctorsaidhemightgetup。 Nearlytendayshadpassedbeforehelefthisroom,anditwasnottillthenthatheclearlysawhowfaraffairshadgonewithhisdaughterandBurnamy,thougheventhenhisobservanceseemedtohaveanticipatedtheirs。Hefoundtheminaquietacceptanceofthefortunewhichhadbroughtthemtogether,socontentedthattheyappearedtoasknothingmoreofit。ThedivinepatienceandconfidenceoftheiryouthmightsometimeshavehadalmosttheeffectofindifferencetoawitnesswhohadseenitsevolutionfromthemoodsofthefirstfewdaysoftheirreunioninWeimar。ToGeneralTriscoe,however,itlookedlikeanunderstandingwhichhadbeenmadewithoutreferencetohiswishes,andhadnotbeendirectlybroughttohisknowledge。 “Agatha。”hesaid,afterduenoteofagaycontestbetweenherandBurnamyoverthepleasureandprivilegeoforderinghissuppersenttohisroomwhenhehadgonebacktoitfromhisfirstafternoonintheopenair,“howlongisthatyoungmangoingtostayinWeimar?” “Why,Idon’tknow!”sheanswered,startledfromherworkofbeatingthesofapillowsintoshape,andpausingwithoneoftheminherhand。 “Ineveraskedhim。”Shelookeddowncandidlyintohisfacewherehesatinaneasy-chairwaitingforherarrangementofthesofa。“Whatmakesyouask?” Heansweredwithanotherquestion。“Doesheknowthatwehadthoughtofstayinghere?” “Why,we’vealwaystalkedofthat,haven’twe?Yes,heknowsit。Didn’tyouwanthimtoknowit,papa?Yououghttohavebegunontheship,then。OfcourseI’veaskedhimwhatsortofplaceitwas。I’msorryifyoudidn’twantmeto。” “HaveIsaidthat?It’sperfectlyeasytopushontoParis。Unless——“ “Unlesswhat?”Agathadroppedthepillow,andlistenedrespectfully。Butinspiteofherfilialattitudeshecouldnotkeepheryouthandstrengthandcouragefromquellingtheforcesoftheelderlyman。 Hesaidquerulously,“Idon’tseewhyyoutakethattonewithme。YoucertainlyknowwhatImean。Butifyoudon’tcaretodealopenlywithme,Iwon’taskyou。”Hedroppedhiseyesfromherface,andatthesametimeadeepblushbegantotingeit,growingupfromhernecktoherforehead。“Youmustknow——you’renotachild。”hecontinued,stillwithavertedeyes,“thatthissortofthingcan’tgoon……Itmustbesomethingelse,oritmustn’tbeanythingatall。Idon’taskyouforyourconfidence,andyouknowthatI’veneversoughttocontrolyou。” Thiswasnottheleasttrue,butAgathaanswered,eitherabsentlyorprovisionally,“No。” “AndIdon’tseektodosonow。Ifyouhavenothingthatyouwishtotellme——“ Hewaited,andafterwhatseemedalongtime,sheaskedasifshehadnotheardhim,“Willyouliedownalittlebeforeyoursupper,papa?” “IwillliedownwhenIfeellikeit。”heanswered。“SendAugustwiththesupper;hecanlookafterme。” Hisresentfultone,evenmorethanhiswords,dismissedher,butshelefthimwithoutapparentgrievance,sayingquietly,“IwillsendAugust。” AgathadidnotcomedowntosupperwithBurnamy。SheaskedAugust,whenshegavehimherfather’sorder,tohaveacupofteasenttoherroom,where,whenitcame,sheremainedthinkingsolongthatitwasrathertepidbythetimeshedrankit。 Thenshewenttoherwindow,andlookedout,firstaboveandnextbelow。 Above,themoonwashangingoverthegardenedhollowbeforetheMuseumwiththeairylightnessofanAmericanmoon。BelowwasBurnamybehindthetubbedevergreens,sittingtiltedinhischairagainstthehousewall,withthesparkofhiscigarfaintingandflashinglikeanAmericanfirefly。Agathawentdowntothedoor,afteralittledelay,andseemedsurprisedtofindhimthere;atleastshesaid,“Oh!”inatoneofsurprise。 Burnamystoodup,andanswered,“Nicenight。” “Beautiful!”shebreathed。“Ididn’tsupposetheskyinGermanycouldeverbesoclear。” “Itseemstobedoingitsbest。” “Theflowersovertherelooklikeghostsinthelight。”shesaiddreamily。 “They’renot。Don’tyouwanttogetyourhatandwrap,andgooverandexposethefraud?” “Oh。”sheanswered,asifitweremerelyaquestionofthehatandwrap,“Ihavethem。” Theysaunteredthroughthegardenwalksforawhile,longenoughtohaveascertainedthattherewasnotaveridicalphantomamongtheflowers,iftheyhadbeenlooking,andthenwhentheycametotheiraccustomedseat,theysatdown,andshesaid,“Idon’tknowthatI’veseenthemoonsoclearsinceweleftCarlsbad。”Atthelastwordhisheartgaveajumpthatseemedtolodgeitinhisthroatandkepthimfromspeaking,sothatshecouldresumewithoutinterruption,“I’vegotsomethingofyours,thatyouleftatthePosthof。Thegirlthatbrokethedishesfoundit,andLiligaveittoMrs。Marchforyou。”ThisdidnotaccountforAgatha’shavingthething,whateveritwas;butwhenshetookahandkerchieffromherbelt,andputoutherhandwithittowardhim,heseemedtofindthatherhavingithadnecessarilyfollowed。Hetriedtotakeitfromher,buthisownhandtrembledsothatitclungtohers,andhegasped,“Can’tyousaynow,whatyouwouldn’tsaythen?” Thelogicalsequencewasnomoreobviousthanbefore;butsheapparentlyfeltitinherturnashehadfeltitinhis。Shewhisperedback,“Yes。” andthenshecouldnotgetoutanythingmoretillsheentreatedinahalf-stifledvoice,“Oh,don’t!”` “No,no!”hepanted。“Iwon’t——Ioughtn’ttohavedoneit——Ibegyourpardon——Ioughtn’ttohavespoken,——even——I——“ Shereturnedinafarlessbreathlessandtremulousfashion,butstillbetweenlaughingandcrying,“Imeanttomakeyou。Andnow,ifyou’reeversorry,orI’mevertootoppingaboutanything,youcanbeperfectlyfreetosaythatyou’dneverhavespokenifyouhadn’tseenthatIwantedyouto。” “ButIdidn’tseeanysuchthing。”heprotested。“IspokebecauseI couldn’thelpitanylonger。” Shelaughedtriumphantly。“Ofcourseyouthinkso!Andthatshowsthatyouareonlyamanafterall;inspiteofyourfinessing。ButIamgoingtohavethecreditofit。Iknewthatyouwereholdingbackbecauseyouweretooproud,orthoughtyouhadn’ttheright,orsomething。Weren’tyou?”Shestartledhimwiththesuddenvehemenceofherchallenge:“Ifyoupretend,thatyouweren’tIshallneverforgiveyou!” “ButIwas!OfcourseIwas。Iwasafraid——“ “Isn’tthatwhatIsaid?”Shetriumphedoverhimwithanotherlaugh,andcoweredalittleclosertohim,ifthatcouldbe。 Theywerestanding,withoutknowinghowtheyhadgottotheirfeet;andnowwithoutanypurposeofthekind,theybegantostrollagainamongthegardenpaths,andtoaskandtoanswerquestions,whichtouchedeverypointoftheircommonhistory,andyetleftitamineofinexhaustibleknowledgeforallfuturetime。Outofthesweetanddeardelightofthisencyclopedianreservetwoorthreefactsappearedwithapresentdistinctness。OneofthesewasthatBurnamyhadregardedherrefusaltobedefiniteatCarlsbadasdefiniterefusal,andhadmeantnevertoseeheragain,andcertainlynevertospeakagainoflovetoher。Anotherpointwasthatshehadnotresentedhiscomingbackthatlastnight,buthadbeenproudandhappyinitasproofofhislove,andhadalwaysmeantsomehowtolethimknowthatshewastorchedbyhistrustingherenoughtocomebackwhilebewasstillunderthatcloudwithMr。Stoller。Withfurtherlogic,purelyoftheheart,sheacquittedhimaltogetherofwronginthataffair,andallegedinproof,whatMr。StollerhadsaidofittoMr。March。BurnamyownedthatheknewwhatStollerhadsaid,buteveninhispresentconditionhecouldnotacceptfullyherreadingofthatobscurepassageofhislife。Hepreferredtoputthequestionby,andperhapsneitherofthemcaredanythingaboutitexceptasitrelatedtothefactthattheywerenoweachother’sforever。