第67章

类别:其他 作者:William Dean Howells字数:3735更新时间:18/12/22 09:09:46
TheyagreedthattheymustwritetoMr。andMrs。Marchatonce;oratleast,Agathasaid,assoonasshehadspokentoherfather。Athermentionofherfathershewasawareofadoubt,afear,inBurnamywhichexpresseditselfbyscarcelymorethanaspiritualconsciousnessfromhisarmtothehandswhichshehadclaspedwithinit。“Hehasalwaysappreciatedyou。”shesaidcourageously,“andIknowhewillseeitintherightlight。” Sheprobablymeantnomorethantoaffirmherfaithinherownabilityfinallytobringherfathertoajustmindconcerningit;butBurnamyacceptedherassurancewithbuoyanthopefulness,andsaidhewouldseeGeneralTriscoethefirstthinginthemorning。 “No,Iwillseehim。”shesaid,“Iwishtoseehimfirst;hewillexpectitofme。Wehadbettergoin,now。”sheadded,butneithermadeanymotionforthepresenttodoso。Onthecontrary,theywalkedintheotherdirection,anditwasanhourafterAgathadeclaredtheirdutyinthematterbeforetheytriedtofulfilit。 Then,indeed,aftertheyreturnedtothehotel,shelostnotimeingoingtoherfatherbeyondthatwhichmustbegiventoalonghand-pressureunderthefrescoofthefivepoetsonthestairslanding,whereherwaysandBurnamy’sparted。Shewentintoherownroom,andsoftlyopenedthedoorintoherfather’sandlistened。 “Well?”hesaidinasortofchallengingvoice。 “Haveyoubeenasleep?”sheasked。 “I’vejustblownoutmylight。Whathaskeptyou?” Shedidnotreplycategorically。Standingthereintheshelteringdark,shesaid,“Papa,Iwasn’tverycandidwithyou,thisafternoon。IamengagedtoMr。Burnamy。” “Lightthecandle。”saidherfather。“Orno。”headdedbeforeshecoulddoso。“Isitquitesettled?” “Quite。”sheansweredinavoicethatadmittedofnodoubt。“Thatis,asfarasitcanbe,withoutyou。” “Don’tbeahypocrite,Agatha。”saidthegeneral。“Andletmetrytogettosleep。YouknowIdon’tlikeit,andyouknowIcan’thelpit。” “Yes。”thegirlassented。 “Thengotobed。”saidthegeneralconcisely。 Agathadidnotobeyherfather。Shethoughtsheoughttokisshim,butshedecidedthatshehadbetterpostponethis;soshemerelygavehimatendergoodnight,towhichhemadenoresponse,andshutherselfintoherownroom,wheresheremainedsittingandstaringoutintothemoonlight,withasmilethatneverleftherlips。 Whenthemoonsankbelowthehorizon,theskywaspalewiththecomingday,butbeforeitwasfairlydawn,shesawsomethingwhite,notmuchgreaterthansomemoths,movingbeforeherwindow。Shepulledthevalvesopenandfounditabitofpaperattachedtoathreaddanglingfromabove。Shebrokeitlooseandinthemorningtwilightshereadthegreatcentraltruthoftheuniverse: “Iloveyou。L。J。B。” Shewroteunderthetremendousinspiration: “SodoI。Don’tbesilly。A。T。” Shefastenedthepapertothethreadagain,andgaveitalittletwitch。 Shewaitedforthelownoteoflaughterwhichdidnotfailtoflutterdownfromabove;thenshethrewherselfuponthebed,andfellasleep。 Itwasnotsolateasshethoughtwhenshewoke,anditseemed,atbreakfast,thatBurnamyhadbeenupstillearlier。OfthethreeinvolvedintheanxietyofthenightbeforeGeneralTriscoewasstillrespitedfromitbysleep,buthewokemuchmorehaggardthaneitheroftheyoungpeople。They,infact,werenotatallhaggard;theworstwasover,ifbringingtheirengagementtohisknowledgewastheworst;theformalityofaskinghisconsentwhichBurnamystillhadtogothroughwasunpleasant,butafterallitwasaformality。Agathatoldhimeverythingthathadpassedbetweenherselfandherfather,andifithadnotthatcordialityonhispartwhichtheycouldhavewisheditwascertainlynothopelesslydiscouraging。 TheyagreedatbreakfastthatBurnamyhadbetterhaveitoverasquicklyaspossible,andhewaitedonlytillAugustcamedownwiththegeneral’straybeforegoinguptohisroom。Theyoungfellowdidnotfeelmoreathiseasethantheeldermeantheshouldintakingthechairtowhichthegeneralwavedhimfromwherehelayinbed;andtherewasnotalkwastedupontheweatherbetweenthem。 “IsupposeIknowwhatyouhavecomefor,Mr。Burnamy。”saidGeneralTriscoeinatonewhichwasratherjudicialthanotherwise,“andI supposeyouknowwhyyouhavecome。”ThewordscertainlyopenedthewayforBurnamy,buthehesitatedsolongtotakeitthatthegeneralhadabundanttimetoadd,“Idon’tpretendthatthiseventisunexpected,butIshouldliketoknowwhatreasonyouhaveforthinkingIshouldwishyoutomarrymydaughter。Itakeitforgrantedthatyouareattachedtoeachother,andwewon’twastetimeonthatpoint。Nottobeataboutthebush,onthenextpoint,letmeaskatoncewhatyourmeansofsupportingherare。HowmuchdidyouearnonthatnewspaperinChicago?” “Fifteenhundreddollars。”Burnamyanswered,promptlyenough。 “Didyouearnanythingmore,saywithinthelastyear?” “IgotthreehundreddollarsadvancecopyrightforabookIsoldtoapublisher。”ThegloryhadnotyetfadedfromthefactinBurnamy’smind。 “Eighteenhundred。WhatdidyougetforyourpoeminMarch’sbook?” “That’saverytriflingmatter:fifteendollars。” “AndyoursalaryasprivatesecretarytothatmanStoller?” “Thirtydollarsaweek,andmyexpenses。ButIwouldn’ttakethat,GeneralTriscoe。”saidBurnamy。 GeneralTriscoe,fromhis’litdejustice’,passedthispointinsilence。 “Haveyouanyonedependentonyou?” “Mymother;Itakecareofmymother。”answeredBurnamy,proudly。 “SinceyouhavebrokenwithStoller,whatareyourprospects?” “Ihavenone。” “Thenyoudon’texpecttosupportmydaughter;youexpecttoliveuponhermeans。” “Iexpecttodonothingofthekind!“criedBurnamy。“Ishouldbeashamed——Ishouldfeeldisgraced——Ishould——Idon’taskyou——Idon’taskhertillIhavethemeanstosupporther——“ “Ifyouwereveryfortunate。”continuedthegeneral,unmovedbytheyoungfellow’spain,andunperturbedbythefactthathehadhimselfliveduponhiswife’smeansaslongasshelived,andthenuponhisdaughter’s,“ifyouwentbacktoStoller——“ “Iwouldn’tgobacktohim。Idon’tsayhe’sknowinglyarascal,buthe’signorantlyarascal,andheproposedarascallythingtome。I behavedbadlytohim,andI’dgiveanythingtoundothewrongIlethimdohimself;butI’llnevergobacktohim。” “Ifyouwentback,onyouroldsalary。”thegeneralpersistedpitilessly,“youwouldbeveryfortunateifyoubroughtyourearningsuptotwenty- fivehundredayear。” “Yes——“ “Andhowfardoyouthinkthatwouldgoinsupportingmydaughteronthescalesheisusedto?Idon’tspeakofyourmother,whohasthefirstclaimuponyou。” Burnamysatdumb;andhisheadwhichhehadliftedindignantlywhenthequestionwasofStoller,begantosink。 Thegeneralwenton。“Youaskmetogiveyoumydaughterwhenyouhaven’tmoneyenoughtokeepheringowns;youaskmetogivehertoastranger——“ “Notquiteastranger,GeneralTriscoe。”Burnamyprotested。“Youhaveknownmeforthreemonthsatleast,andanyonewhoknowsmeinChicagowilltellyou——“ “Astranger,andworsethanastranger。”thegeneralcontinued,sopleasedwiththelogicalperfectionofhispositionthathealmostsmiled,andcertainlysoftenedtowardBurnamy。“Itisn’taquestionoflikingyou,Mr。Burnamy,butofknowingyou;mydaughterlikesyou;sodotheMarches;sodoeseverybodywhohasmetyou。Ilikeyoumyself。 You’vedonemepersonallyathousandkindnesses。ButIknowverylittleofyou,inspiteofourthreemonths’acquaintance;andthatlittleis—— Butyoushalljudgeforyourself!Youwereintheconfidentialemployofamanwhotrustedyou,andyoulethimbetrayhimself。” “Idid。Idon’texcuseit。Thethoughtofitburnslikefire。Butitwasn’tdonemaliciously;itwasn’tdonefalsely;itwasdoneinconsiderately;andwhenitwasdone,itseemedirrevocable。Butitwasn’t;Icouldhaveprevented,Icouldhavestoopedthemischief;andI didn’t!Icanneveroutlivethat。” “Iknow。”saidthegeneralrelentlessly,“thatyouhaveneverattemptedanydefence。Thathasbeentoyourcreditwithme。Itinclinedmetooverlookyourunwarrantedcourseinwritingtomydaughter,whenyoutoldheryouwouldneverseeheragain。Whatdidyouexpectmetothink,afterthat,ofyourcomingbacktoseeher?Ordidn’tyouexpectmetoknowit?” “Iexpectedyoutoknowit;Iknewshewouldtellyou。ButIdon’texcusethat,either。Itwasactingalietocomeback。AllIcansayisthatIhadtoseeheragainforonelasttime。”