第69章

类别:其他 作者:William Dean Howells字数:4026更新时间:18/12/22 09:09:46
“Ontheshelf。” ItseemedalongtimebeforeBurnamysaidwithalongsigh,asoffinalrecollection,“Oh,yes。”andthenhesaidnothing;andtheydidnotsitdown,butstoodlookingateachother。 “Wasitsomethingyougotforme,andforgottogiveme?”sheaskedinavoicewhichwouldnothavemisledawoman,butwhichdiditsworkwiththeyoungman。 Helaughedandsaid,“Well,hardly!Thegeneralhasbeenintheroomeversinceyoucame。” “Oh,yes。Thenperhapssomebodyleftittherebeforeyouhadtheroom?” Burnamywassilentagain,butatlasthesaid,“No,IflungitupthereI hadforgottenallaboutit。” “Andyouwishmetoforgetaboutit,too?”Agathaaskedinagayetyoftonethatstilldeceivedhim。 “Itwouldonlybefair。Youmademe。”herejoined,andtherewassomethingsocharminginhiswordsandway,thatshewouldhavebeengladtodoit。 Butshegovernedherselfagainstthetemptationandsaid,“Womenarenotgoodatforgetting,atleasttilltheyknowwhat。” “Oh,I’lltellyou,ifyouwanttoknow。”hesaidwithalaugh,andatthewordsshe——sankprovisionallyintheiraccustomedseat。Hesatdownbesideher,butnotsonearasusual,andhewaitedsolongbeforehebeganthatitseemedasifhehadforgottenagain。“Why,it’snothing。 MissEtkinsandhermotherwereherebeforeyoucame,andthisisabouquetthatImeanttogiveheratthetrainwhensheleft。ButI decidedIwouldn’t,andIthrewitontotheshelfinthecloset。” “MayIaskwhyyouthoughtoftakingabouquettoheratthetrain?” “Well,sheandhermother——Ihadbeenwiththemagooddeal,andI thoughtitwouldbecivil。” “Andwhydidyoudecidenottobecivil?” “Ididn’twantittolooklikemorethancivility。” “Weretheyherelong?” “Aboutaweek。TheyleftjustaftertheMarchescame。” Agathaseemednottoheedtheanswershehadexacted。Shesatreclinedinthecorneroftheseat,withherheaddrooping。AfteranintervalwhichwaslongtoBurnamyshebegantopullataringonthethirdfingerofherlefthand,absently,asifshedidnotknowwhatshewasdoing; butwhenshehadgotitoffsheheldittowardsBurnamyandsaidquietly,“Ithinkyouhadbetterhavethisagain。”andthensheroseandmovedslowlyandweaklyaway。 Hehadtakentheringmechanicallyfromher,andhestoodamomentbewildered;thenhepressedafterher。 “Agatha,doyou——youdon’tmean——“ “Yes。”shesaid,withoutlookingroundathisface,whichsheknewwasclosetohershoulder。“It’sover。Itisn’twhatyou’vedone。It’swhatyouare。Ibelievedinyou,inspiteofwhatyoudidtothatman—— andyourcomingbackwhenyousaidyouwouldn’t——and——ButIseenowthatwhatyoudidwasyou;itwasyournature;andIcan’tbelieveinyouanymore。” “Agatha!”heimplored。“You’renotgoingtobesounjust!Therewasnothingbetweenyouandmewhenthatgirlwashere!Ihadarightto——“ “Notifyoureallycaredforme!DoyouthinkIwouldhaveflirtedwithanyonesosoon,ifIhadcaredforyouasyoupretendedyoudidformethatnightinCarlsbad?Oh,Idon’tsayyou’refalse。Butyou’refickle——“ “ButI’mnotfickle!FromthefirstmomentIsawyou,Inevercaredforanyonebutyou!” “Youhavestrangewaysofshowingyourdevotion。Well,sayyouarenotfickle。Say,thatI’mfickle。Iam。Ihavechangedmymind。Iseethatitwouldneverdo。Ileaveyoufreetofollowalltheturningandtwistingofyourfancy。”Shespokerapidly,almostbreathlessly,andshegavehimnochancetogetoutthewordsthatseemedtochokehim。Shebegantorun,butatthedoorofthehotelshestoppedandwaitedtillhecamestupidlyup。“Ihaveafavortoask,Mr。Burnamy。Ibegyouwillnotseemeagain,ifyoucanhelpitbeforewegoto-morrow。MyfatherandIareindebtedtoyoufortoomanykindnesses,andyoumustn’ttakeanymoretroubleonouraccount。Augustcanseeusoffinthemorning。” Shenoddedquickly,andwasgonein-doorswhilehewasyetstrugglingwithhisdoubtoftherealityofwhathadallsoswiftlyhappened。 GeneralTriscoewasstillignorantofanychangeinthestatustowhichhehadreconciledhimselfwithsomuchdifficulty,whenhecamedowntogetintotheomnibusforthetrain。TillthenhehadbeentooproudtoaskwhathadbecomeofBurnamy,thoughhehadwondered,butnowhelookedaboutandsaidimpatiently,“Ihopethatyoungmanisn’tgoingtokeepuswaiting。” Agathawaspaleandwornwithsleeplessness,butshesaidfirmly,“Heisn’tgoing,papa。Iwilltellyouinthetrain。Augustwillseetotheticketsandthebaggage。” Augustconspiredwiththetraegertogetthemafirst-classcompartmenttothemselves。ButevenwiththeadvantagesofthisseclusionAgatha’sconfidencestoherfatherwerenotfull。ShetoldherfatherthatherengagementwasbrokenforreasonsthatdidnotmeananythingverywronginMr。Burnamybutthatconvincedhertheycouldneverbehappytogether。 Asshedidnotgivethereasons,hefoundanaturaldifficultyinacceptingthem,andtherewassomethinginthesituationwhichappealedstronglytohiscontrary-mindedness。Partlyfromthis,partlyfromhissenseofinjuryinbeingobligedsosoontoadjusthimselftonewconditions,andpartlyfromhiscomfortablefeelingofsecurityfromanengagementtowhichhisassenthadbeenforced,hesaid,“Ihopeyou’renotmakingamistake。” “Oh,no。”sheanswered,andsheattestedherconvictionbyaburstofsobbingthatlastedwellonthewaytothefirststopofthetrain。 ItwouldhavebeenalwaystwiceaseasytogodirectfromBerlintotheHaguethroughHanover;buttheMarchesdecidedtogobyFrankfortandtheRhine,becausetheywishedtorevisitthefamousriver,whichtheyrememberedfromtheiryouth,andbecausetheywishedtostopatDusseldorf,whereHeinrichHeinewasborn。WithoutthisMrs。March,whokeptherhusbanduptohisearlypassionforthepoetwithafeelingthatshewasdefendinghimfromageinit,saidthattheirsilverweddingjourneywouldnotbecomplete;andhebeganhimselftothinkthatitwouldbeinteresting。 Theytookasleeping-carforFrankfortandtheywokeearlyaspeopledoinsleeping-carseverywhere。Marchdressedandwentoutforacupofthesamecoffeeofwhichsleeping-carbuffetshavetheawfulsecretinEuropeaswellasAmerica,andforaglimpseofthetwilightlandscape。Onegraylittletown,toweredandsteepledandred-roofedwithinitsmediaevalwalls,lookedasifitwouldhavebeenwarmerinsomethingmore。Therewasaheavydew,ifnotalightfrost,overall,andinplacesapalefogbegantoliftfromthelowhills。Thenthesunrosewithoutdispersingthecold,whichwasafterwardssosevereintheirroomattheRussischerHofinFrankfortthatinspiteofthesteam-radiatorstheysatshiveringinalltheirwrapstillbreakfast-time。 Therewasnosteamonintheradiators,ofcourse;whentheyimploredtheportierforatleastalamptowarmtheirhandsbyheturnedonalltheelectriclightswithoutraisingthetemperatureintheslightestdegree。 Amidstthesemoderncomfortstheyweresomiserablethattheyvowedeachothertoshun,aslongastheywereinGermany,oratleastwhilethesummerlasted,allhotelswhichweresteam-heatedandelectric-lighted。 Theyheatedthemselvessomewhatwiththeirwrath,andovertheirbreakfasttheyrelentedsofarastosufferthemselvesacertaininterestinthetroopsofallarmsbeginningtopassthehotel。Theywerefragmentsofthegreatparade,whichhadendedthedaybefore,andtheywerenowdriftingbacktotheirseveralquartersoftheempire。Manyofthemwereverypicturesque,andtheyhadfortheboysandgirlsrunningbeforeandbesidethem,thecharmwhicharmiesandcircusprocessionshaveforchildreneverywhere。Buttheirpassagefilledwithcruelanxietyalargeolddogwhomhismasterhadleftharnessedtoamilk-cartbeforethehoteldoor;fromtimetotimehelifteduphisvoice,andcalledtotheabsenteewithhoarse,deepbarksthatalmostshookhimfromhisfeet。 Thedaycontinuedblueandbrightandcold,andtheMarchesgavethemorningtoarapidsurveyofthecity,gladthatitwasatleastnotwet。 WhatafterwardschieflyremainedtothemwastheimpressionofanoldtownasquaintalmostandasGothicasoldHamburg,andanewtown,handsomeandregular,and,inthesuddenarrestofsomestreets,apparentlyoverbuilt。ThemodernarchitecturaltastewasofcourseParisian;thereisnoothertastefortheGermans;butintheprevailingabsenceofstatuestherewasarelieffromthemostoppressivecharacteristicoftheimperialcapitalwhichwasapositivedelight。 SomesortofmonumenttothenationalvictoryoverFrancetheremusthavebeen;butitmusthavebeenunusuallyinoffensive,foritleftnorecordofitselfinthetravellers’consciousness。Theywereawareofgardenedsquaresandavenues,borderedbystatelydwellings,ofdignifiedcivicedifices,andofavastaridsplendidrailroadstation,suchasthestatebuildseveninminorEuropeancities,butsuchasourpaternalcorporationshavenotyetgivenusanywhereinAmerica。TheywenttotheZoologicalGarden,wheretheyheardthecustomaryKalmucksattheirpublicprayersbehindahighboardfence;andaspilgrimsfromthemostplutrocraticcountryintheworldMarchinsistedthattheymustpaytheirdevoirsattheshrineoftheRothschilds,whosenatalbanking-housetheyreveredfromtheoutside。