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类别:其他 作者:John Kendrick Bangs字数:26026更新时间:19/01/02 10:28:31
Foryourownsakereviseit,forthereadersofyourbookwon’tbelievethatyouaretellingatruestoryanyhow;theywillsaythatyouwrotethischapterandattributedittome,andyouwillfindyourselfheldresponsibleforitsshortcomings。IhaveinsertedafewnoteshereandtherewhichwillgiveyouanideaofwhatI sufferedasIwroteonandfoundhergrowingdailylessandlesstractable,withoccasionallyanindicationofthepointofdivergencebetweenheractualbehaviorandthatwhichIexpectedofher。\" Toafellow—workmaninliteraryfieldsthischapterisofpatheticinterest,thoughitmaynotsoappeartothereaderwhoknowslittleofthedifficultiesofauthorship。IcanhardlyreaditmyselfwithoutafeelingofmostintensepityforpoorHarley。Icanimaginethesleeplessnightswhichfollowedtheshatteringofhishopesastowhathisstorymightbebytherecalcitrantattitudeoftheyoungwomanhehadhonoredsohighlybyselectingherforhisheroine。Icanalmostfeelthebittersenseofdisappointment,whichmusthaveburnedtotheverydepthsofhissoul,whenhefinallyrealizedhowcompletelyoverturnedwereallhisplans,andIcannotforegocallingattentiontotheconstancytohiscreedofStuartHarley,insacrificinghisopportunityratherthanhisprinciples,asshownbyhisresolutedeterminationnottoforceMissAndrewstodohisbidding,eventhoughitrequiredmerelythedippingofhispenintotheinkandtheresolutiontodoso。 Icannotblameher,however。GrantingtoHarleytherighttoacreed,MissAndrews,too,itmustbeadmitted,wasentitledtohaveviewsastohowsheoughttobehaveundergivencircumstances,andifshefoundhernotionsrunningcountertohis,itwasonlyproperthatsheshouldactaccordingtothedictatesofherownheart,ormind,orwhateverelseitmaybethatawomanreasonswith,ratherthanaccordingtohiswishes。 Astoallquestionsofthiskind,however,asbetweenthetwo,thereadermustjudge,andonedocumentinevidenceisHarley’schapter,whichraninthiswise: AMEETING \"Stopbeating,heart,andinamomentcalmThequestionanswer——isthis,then,myfate?\" —PERKINS’S\"Odes。\" AsthecorrespondentsoftheNewYorkpapershadsurmised,invitationsfortheHowlettballwereissuedonthe12th。Itisnotsurprisingthatthecorrespondentsinthisinstanceshouldbeguiltyofthatrarecrimeamongsocietyreporters,accuracy,fortheirinformationwasderivedfromaperfectlyreliablesource,Mrs。 Howlett’sbutler,inwhosehandstheaddressingoftheenvelopeshadbeenplaced——amanofimposingpresence,andofgreatvaluetotheprofessionalsnappers—upofunconsideredtriflesofsocialgossipinthepayoftheSundaynewspapers,withmanyofwhomhewasontermsofclosestintimacy。OfcourseMrs。Howlettwasnotawarethatherhouseholdcontainedapersonageofgreatjournalisticimportance,anymorethanherneighbor,Mrs。Floyd—Hopkins,wasawarethatitwashermaidwhohadfurnishedtheWeeklyJournalofSocietywiththevividaccountofthescandalousbehavior,atherlastdinner,ofMajorPompoly,whohadtobeforciblyejectedfromtheFloyd—HopkinsdomicilebythehusbandofMrs。JerniganSmith——asocialmorselwhichattractedmuchattentionseveralyearsago。Everyeffortwasmadetohushthatmatterup,andtheguestsallsworeeternalsecrecy;buttheWeeklyJournalofSocietyhadit,and,strangelyenough,haditright,initsnextissue;butthemaidwasneversuspected,eventhoughshedidappeartobepossessedofmoreamplemeansthanusualforsometimeafter。Mrs。Floyd—Hopkinspreferredtosuspectoneofherguests,and,onthewhole,wasnotsorrythatthematterhadgotabroad,foreverybodytalkedaboutit,andthroughtheepisodeherdinnerbecameoneofthehistoricbanquetsoftheseason。 TheWillards,whowerebythistimecomfortablysettledat\"TheNeedles,\"theircottageonthecliff,itishardlynecessarytostate,wereamongthoseinvited,andwiththeircardswasincludedoneforMarguerite。AddedtothecardwasapersonalnotefromMrs。 HowletttoMissAndrews,expressingtheespecialhopethatshewouldnotfailthem,allofwhichwasverygratifyingtotheyounggirl。 \"SeewhatI’vegot,\"shecried,gleefully,runningintoMrs。 Willard’s\"den\"attheheadofthebeautifuloakenstairs。 (Note。——AtthispointinHarley’smanuscriptthereisevidenceofindecisionontheauthor’spart。Hisheroinehadbeguntobotherhimatrifle。Hehadwrittenahalf—dozenlinesdescriptiveofMissAndrews’semotionsatreceivingaspecialnoteofinvitation,subsequentlyerasingthem。Theword\"gleefully\"hadbeenscratchedout,andthenrestoredinplaceof\"scornfully,\"whichhadatfirstbeensubstitutedforit。ItwasplainthatHarleywasnotquitecertainastohowmuchawomanofMissAndrews’stypewouldcareforaspecialattentionofthisnature,evenifshecaredforitatall。 Asamatteroffact,thewordchosenshouldhavebeen\"dubiously,\" andneither\"gleefully\"nor\"scornfully\";fortherealtruthwasthattherewasnoreasonwhyMrs。HowlettshouldsohonorMarguerite,andthegirlatoncebegantowonderifitwerenotanextraprecautionofHarley’stoassureherpresenceattheballforthebenefitofhimselfandhispublishers。TheauthorfinallywroteitasIhavegivenitabove,however,andMissAndrewsreceivedherspecialinvitation\"gleefully\"——accordingtoHarley。Heperceivesherdoubt,however,withoutcomprehendingit;forafterdescribingMrs。 Willard’sreadingofthenote,hegoeson。) \"ThatisveryniceofMrs。Howlett,\"saidMrs。Willard,handingMargueritebackhernote。\"Itisaspecialhonor,mydear,bywhichyoushouldfeelhighlyflattered。Shedoesn’toftendothingslikethat。\" \"Ishouldthinknot,\"saidMarguerite。\"Iamaperfectstrangertoher,andthatsheshoulddoitatallstrikesmeasbeingmostextraordinary。Itdoesn’tseemsincere,andIcan’thelpthinkingthatsomeextraneouscircumstancehasbeenbroughttobearuponhertoforcehertodoit。\" (Note。——StuartHarleyhascommenteduponthisasfollows:\"AsIreadthisoverImustadmitthatMissAndrewswasright。WhyIhadMrs。 HowlettdosuchathingIdon’tknow,unlessitwasthatmyownadmirationformyheroineledmetobelievethatsomemorethanusualattentionwasherdue。InmyownbehalfIwillsaythatIshouldinallprobabilityhaveeliminatedorcorrectedthisfalsenotewhenI cametotherevisionofmyproofs。\"Thechapterthenproceeds。) \"Whatshallwewear?\"musedMrs。Willard,asMargueritefoldedMrs。 Howlett’snoteandreplaceditinitsenvelope。 \"Imustpositivelydeclinetodiscussthatquestion。Itisofnopublicinterest,\"snappedMarguerite,herfaceflushingangrily。\"Myclothingismyownbusiness,andnoone’selse。\"Shepausedamoment,andthen,inanapologetictone,sheadded,\"I’dbeperfectlywillingtotalkwithyouaboutitgenerally,mydearDorothy,butnotnow。\" Mrs。Willardlookedatthegirlinsurprise。 (Note。——StuartHarleyhaswrittenthisinthemargin:\"Hereyouhaveoneofthesituationswhichfinallycompelledmetorelinquishthisstory。Youknowyourselfhowharditistomake30,000wordsoutofaslightsituation,andatthesametimesticktoprobability。Ihadanidea,inmappingoutthischapter,thatIcouldmakethreeorfourinterestingpages——interestingtothegirls,mindyou——outofadiscussionofwhattheyshouldwearattheHowlettdance。Itwasaperfectlynaturalsubjectfordiscussionatthetimeandunderthecircumstances。Itwouldhavebeenagoodthinginthebook,too,foritmighthaveconveyedafewwholesomehintsinthelineofgoodtasteindresswhichwouldhavemademystoryofsomevalue。Womenarealwayswritingtothepapers,asking,’WhatshallIwearhere?’ and’WhatshallIwearthere?’TheideasoftwowomenlikeMrs。 WillardandMargueriteAndrewswouldhavebeencertaintobeinteresting,elevating,andexceedinglyusefultosuchpeople,butthemomentIattemptedtoinvolvetheminthatdiscussionMissAndrewsdeclinedutterlytospeak,andIwascutoutofsomesixorsevenhundredquiteimportantwords。Ihadsupposedallwomenalikeinthatmatter,butIfindIwasmistaken;one,atleast,won’tdiscussclothes——butIdon’twonderthatMrs。Willardlookedupinsurprise。Iputthatinjusttopleasemyself,forofcoursethewholeincidentwouldhavehadtobecutoutwhenthemanuscriptwenttothetype—setter。\"Thechaptertakesanewleadhere,asfollows:) Mrs。WillardwaspunctiliouslypromptinsendingtheacceptancesofherselfandMr。WillardtoMrs。Howlett,andatthesametimeMarguerite’sacceptancewasdespatched,althoughshewasatfirstdisposedtosendherregrets。Shewasonlymoderatelyfondofthoseinconsequentpleasureswhichmakethelifesocial。Shewasagooddancer,butamoreexcellenttalker,andshepreferredtalkingtodancing;buttheinanityofwhatareknownasstairtalksatdancesoppressedher;nordidshelookforwardwithanydegreeofpleasuretowhatwemighttermconservatoryconfidences,whichintheseluxuriousdayshavebecomesolargeafactorinterpsichoreandiversions,forMargueritewasofapracticalnature。ShehadoncechilledtheheartofayoungpoetbycallingVenicemalarious(HarleylittlerealizedwhenhewrotethishowhewouldhavesufferedhadhecarriedouthisoriginalintentionandtransplantedMargueritetotheCityoftheSea!),andaconservatorytoherwasathingformid—day,andnotformidnight。Shewasthereforenotparticularlyanxioustospendanevening——whichbeganatanaggravatinglylatehourinsteadofatareasonabletime,thankstoasocialcustomwhichhasitsfoundationinnothingshortofabsoluteinsanity——inthepursuitofnothingofgreatervaluethandancing,stairtalks,andconservatoryconfidences;butMrs。Willardsoonpersuadedherthatsheoughttogo,andgoshedid。 Itwasabeautifulnight,thatofthe22dofJuly。Newportwasatherbest。Themorninghadbeenoppressivelywarm,butalongaboutthreeintheafternoonaseriesofshortandsharpelectricalstormscame,andasquicklywent,coolingtheheatedcity,andfresheninguptheairuntilitwasasclearascrystal,andrefreshingasadraughtofcoldspring—water。 AttheHowlettmansiononBellevueAvenueallwasinreadinessfortheevent。Thecaterer’swagonshadarrivedwiththeirdaintycontents,andhadgone,andnowtheHungarianbandwassendingforthoverthecoolnightairthosebeautifulandweirdwavesofmelodywhichentrancethemostunwillingear。Aboutthebroadandspaciousgroundsfestoonedlightshungfromtreetotree;hereandtherelittlerose—scentedbowersfortete—a—tetetalkswereset;fromwithin,streamingthroughthewindowsinregalbeauty,camethelightsofthevastballroom,thereception—rooms,andthebeautifullydesigneddining—hall——latelyaddedbyyoungMorrisBlack,thearchitect,toMrs。Howlett’salreadyperfecthouse。 OntheballroomflooraresometenortwentycouplesgracefullywaltzingtothestrainsofSullivan,andinthemidstoftheseweseeMargueriteAndrewsthreadingherwayacrosstheroomwithsomedifficulty,attendedbyMr。andMrs。Willard。Theyhavejustarrived。AsMargueritewalksacrossthehallsheattractseveryone。 Thereisthataboutherwhichcommandsattention。AttheinstantofherentranceCountBonettiisonthequiVive。 \"PyChove!\"hecries,asheleansgracefullyagainstthedoorwayopeningintotheconservatory。\"Zare,mydearfriend,zatissmyideaofzetrulypeautifulwoman。Vatisshername?\" \"ThatisMissAndrewsofNewYork,Count,\"thepersonaddressedreplies。\"SheisupherewiththeWillards。\" \"Imusdmeedher,\"saystheCount,hiseyefollowingMargueriteasshewalksuptoMrs。Howlettandisgreetedeffusivelybythatlady。 Margueriteispale,andappearsanxious。Eventotheauthorthewaysofthewomeninhisworksareinscrutable;souponthisoccasion。 Sheispale,butIcannotsaywhy。Canitbethatshehasanintuitiveknowledgethatto—nightmaydecideherwholefuturelife? Whocantell?Woman’sintuitionsaregreat,andtherebethosewhosaytheyareunerringlytrue。Onebyone,withtheexceptionofCountBonetti,theyoungmenamongMrs。Howlett’sguestsarepresented——Bonettipreferstoawaitamorefavorableopportunity——andtoallMargueriteappearstobethebeautifulwomansheis。Hersisaninstantsuccess。AnewbeautyhasdawnedupontheNewporthorizon。 Letusdescribeherasshestands。 (Note。——Thereisablankspacelefthere。AtfirstIthoughtitwasbecauseHarleywishedtoreflectalittlebeforedrawingapictureofsosuperbawomanasheseemedtothinkher,andgoontotheconclusionofthechapter,themainincidentsbeinghotinhismind,andthepurelydescriptivemattersmoreeasilylefttocalmermoments。Heinformsme,however,thatsuchwasnotthecase。\"WhenIcametodescribeherasshestood,\"hesaid,\"shehaddisappeared,andIhadtosearchalloverthehousebeforeIfinallyfoundherintheconservatory。SoIchangedthechaptertoreadthus:\") Afterahalf—hourofdancingandholdingcourt——forMarguerite’striumphwastrulythatofaqueen,itwassocomplete——MissAndrewsturnedtoMr。Willardandtookhisarm。 \"Letusgointotheconservatory,\"shesaid,inawhisper。\"IhaveheardsomuchaboutMrs。Howlett’sorchids,Ishouldliketoseethem。\" Willard,seeingthatshewastiredandslightlyboredbytheincessantchatterofthoseabouther,escortedheroutthroughthebroaddoorintotheconservatory。AsshepassedfromtheballroomthedarkeyesofCountBonettiflasheduponher,butsheheededthemnot,movingonintothefloralbowerinapparentlysereneunconsciousnessofthatperson’spresence。HereWillardgotherachair。 \"Willyouhaveanice?\"heasked,assheseatedherselfbeneathoneoftheloftypalms。 \"Yes,\"sheanswered,simply。\"Icanwaitherealoneifyouwillgetit。\" Willardpassedout,andsoonreturnedwiththeice;butashecamethroughthedoorwayBonettistoppedhimandwhisperedsomethinginhisear。 \"Certainly,Count,rightaway,\"Willardanswered。\"Comealong。\" Bonettineedednosecondbidding,butfollowedWillardclosely,andsoonstoodexpectantbeforeMarguerite。 \"MissAndrews,\"saidWillard,\"mayIhavethepleasureofpresentingCountBonetti?\" TheCount’sheadnearlycollidedwithhistoesinthebowthathemade。 \"Mr。Willard,\"returnedMissAndrews,coldly,ignoringtheCount,\"feelingasIdothatCountBonettiismerelyabogusCountwithacquisitiveinstincts,broughthere,likemyself,forliterarypurposesofwhichIcannotapprove,Imustreplytoyourquestionthatyoumaynothavethatpleasure。\" Withwhichremark(concludesStuartHarley)MissMargueriteAndrewssweptproudlyfromtheroom,orderedhercarriage,andwenthome,therebyutterlyruiningthesecondstoryofherlifethatIhadundertakentowrite。ButIshallmakeonemoreeffort。 CHAPTERV:ANEXPERIMENT \"AndthusI’llcurbhermadandheadstronghumor。 Hethatknowsbetterhowtotameashrew,Nowlethimspeak;’tischaritytoshow。\" ——\"TamingoftheShrew。\" \"Whatwouldhavehappenedifshehadbehaveddifferently,Stuart?\"I asked,afterIhadreadthepageshehadsokindlyplacedatmydisposal。 \"Oh,nothinginparticulartowhichshecouldreasonablyobject,\" returnedHarley。\"Theincidentsofatrulyrealisticnovelarerarelyobjectionable,excepttopeopleofacaptiousnature。I intendedtohaveBonettidanceattendanceuponMissAndrewsforthebalanceoftheseason,that’sall,hopingtherebytopresentagoodpictureoflifeatNewportinJulyandpartofAugust。AboutthemiddleofAugustIwasgoingtotransportthewholecasttoBarHarbor,forvariety’ssake。ThatwouldhavebeenanotheropportunitytogetagooddealoftheAmericansummeratmosphereintothebook。 IwishIcouldaffordthekindofsummerIcontemplatedgivingher。\" \"Youdidn’tintendthatsheshouldfallinlovewithBonetti?\"I asked。 \"Nottoanyseriousextent,\"saidHarley,deprecatingly。\"Evenifshehadalittle,she’dhavecomeoutofitallrightassoonastheheroturnedup,andshehadachancetoseethedifferencebetweenamanlymanofherowncountryandalittletitledfortunehunterfromthelandofmacaroni。Bonettiwasn’ttobeabadfellowatall。HewasmerelyanItalian,whichhecouldn’thelp,beingbornso,andtherefore,asshesaid,ofanacquisitivenature。Thereisnovillanyinthat,however——thatis,noreprehensiblevillany。Hewasafterarichmarriagebecausehewasfondofalifeofease。She’dhavefoundhimamusing,atanyrate。\" \"Buthewasbogus!\"Isuggested。 \"Notatall,\"saidHarley,impatiently。\"That’swhatvexesmemorethananythingelse。Shemadeaverybadmistakethere。AsaCount,Bonettiwasquiteasrealashisfinancialnecessities。\" \"Itwasabeastlyawkwardsituation,thatconservatoryscene,\"saidI。\"EspeciallyforWillard。TheCountmighthavechallengedhim。 WhatbecameoftheCountwhenitwasover?\" \"Idon’tknow,\"saidHarley。\"Ilefthimtogetoutofhispredicamentasbesthecould。PossiblyhedidchallengeWillard。I haven’ttakenthetroubletofindout。If,asIthink,however,he’salivingperson,he’llextricatehimselffromhisdifficultyallright;ifhe’snot,andIhaveunwittinglyallowedmyselftoconjurehimupinmyfancy,there’snogreatharmdone。Ifhe’snothingmorethanamarionette,lethimfallonthefloor,andstaythereuntilI findsomeimaginativewriterwhowilltakehimoffmyhands——you,forinstance。YoucanhaveBonettiforaChristmaspresent,withmycompliments。I’mthroughwithhim;butasforMissAndrews,shehasbeensoconfoundedlyelusivethatshehasarousedmydeepestinterest,andIcouldn’tgiveherupifIwantedto。Ineverencounteredaheroinelikeherinallmylifebefore,andtheoneobjectofmyfuturecareerwillbetocatchherfinallyinthemeshesofaromance。Romancewillcomeintoherlifesometime。Sheisnotatallofanunsentimentalnature——onlyfractious——new—womanish,perhaps;butnonethelesslovable,andCupidwillhaveashotatherwhensheleastexpectsit;andwhenitdoescome,I’llbeonhandtoreporttheattemptedassassinationforthedelectationoftheHerring,Beemer,&Chadwickpublic。\" \"Ishouldthinkyouwouldtryalittlepersuasion,justforlarks,\"I suggested。 \"YouforgetIamarealist,\"hereplied,ashewentout。 NowIsincerelyadmiredStuartHarley,andIwishedtothebottomofmyhearttohelphimifIcould。Itseemedtomethat,howeveradmirableMissAndrewshadshownherselftobegenerallyasawoman,shehadbeenanaltogetherunsatisfactorypersonintheroleofaheroine。Irespectedherscruplesaboutmarryingmenshedidnotcarefor,and,asIhavealreadysaid,noonecoulddenyhertherighttoherownconvictions;butitseemedtomethatintheBonettiincidentshemightandtrulyoughttohaveacteddifferentlywhenthetimecameforthepresentation。ThereisnodoubtinmymindthatherlittlespeechtoWillard,inwhichshestatedthattheCountwasafraudandmightnotbepresented,wasadeliberatelyplannedrebuff,andthereforenotinanysenseexcusable。ShecouldhaveavoideditbytellingWillardbeforeleavinghomethatshedidnotcaretomeettheCount。TomakeasceneatMrs。Howlett’swasnotathingwhichasober—minded,self—containedwomanwouldhavedone;itwasbadformtobehavesorudelytooneofMrs。Howlett’sguests,andwassoinconsiderateofWillardandunreasonableinotherwaysthatI blamedherunreservedly。 \"Shedeservestobepunished,\"Ithoughttomyself,asHarleywentdejectedlyoutoftheroom。\"Andthereisnokindofpunishmentforawomanlikethatsogallingtohersoulastofindherselfinthehandsofarelentlessdespotwhoforcesherthiswayandthat,accordingtohiswhim。I’dliketoplayPetruciotoherKatherineforfiveminutes。She’dsoonfindoutthatI’mnotarealistboundbyacreedtowhichImustadhere。WhateverIchoosetodoIcandowithoutviolatingmyconscientiousscruples,becauseIhaven’tanyconscientiousscruplesinliterature。And,byJove,I’lldoit! I’lltakeMissMargueriteAndrewsinhandmyselfthisveryafternoon,andI’llputherthroughacourseoftrainingthatwillmakeherruethedaysheevertrifledwithStuartHarley——andwhenhetakesherupagainshe’llbeasmeekasMoses。\" StronginmybeliefthatIcouldbringtheyoungwomantoterms,I wenttomydeskandtriedmyhandatastory,withMissAndrewsasitsheroine,andIwasnotparticularaboutbeingrealisticeither。 NeitherdidIgooffintoanytrancesinsearchofheroesandvillains。IdidwhatHarleycouldnotdo。IbroughttheNewYorkbacktoportthatveryday,anddespatchedRobertOsborne,thedespisedloverofthefirsttale,toNewport。 \"Sheshallhavehimwhethershelikeshimornot,\"saidI,grittingmyteethdeterminedly;\"andshewon’tknowwhethersheloveshimorCountBonettibest;andshe’llpromisetomarrybothofthem;andsheshallgotoVeniceinAugust,despiteheruncompromisingrefusaltodosoforHarley;andsheshallmeetBalderstonethere,and,nomatterwhatheropinionofhimorofhisliterarywork,sheshallbefascinatedbythestoryI’llhavehimwrite,andunderthespellofthatfascinationsheshallpromisetomarryhimalso;whereupontheWillardswillturnupandtakehertoHeidelberg,whereI’llhavehermeettheheroshecouldn’twaitforattheHowlettdance,thedespisedProfessor,andsheshallpromisetobehiswifelikewise; andfinallyI’llputheronboardasteameratSouthampton,boundforNewYork,withMrs。Corwinandthetwins;andtheseconddayout,whensheisfeelingherveryworst,allfourofherfianceswillturnupatthesametimebesideherchair。ThenIshallleavehertogetoutofhertroublethebestwayshecan。Iimagine,aftershehashadatasteofmyliteraryregimen,she’llquitefallinlovewiththeHarleymethod,andbehaveherselfasaheroineshould。\" IsatdownallaglowwiththeideaofbeingabletotameHarley’sheroineandplaceherinamoodmoresuitedforhispurposes。ThemoreIthoughtofhowhisfailureswereweighingonhismind,themoreviciouslyreadywasItoplaythetyrantwithMarguerite,and—— well,Imightaswellconfessitatonce,withallmyrighteousindignationagainsther,Icouldnotdoit。FivetimesIstarted,andasmanytimesdidIdestroywhatIwrote。OnthesixthtrialI didhaultheNewYorkrelentlesslybackintoport,neverforaninstantconsideringtheinconvenienceofthepassengers,ortheprotestsoftheofficers,crew,orpostalauthorities。Thisdone,I seizedupontheunfortunateOsborne,spiritedhisluggagethroughtheCustom—house,andsenttheshiptoseaagain。Thatpartwaseasy。I havewrittenagreatdealforthecomicpapers,andacrobaticnonsenseofthatsortcomesalmostwithoutaneffortonmypart。 WithequaleaseIgotOsbornetoNewport——how,Idonotrecollect。 ItisjustpossiblethatItookhimthroughfromNewYorkwithoutatrain,bythemeresay—soofmypen。Atanyrate,Igothimthere,andIfullyintendedtohavehimmeetMissAndrewsatadanceattheOceanHousethedayafterhisarrival。Ievenprogressedsofarastogetupthedance。Idescribedtheroom,thedecorations,andtheband。IhadOsbornedressedandwaiting,withBonettialsodressedandwaitingontheothersideoftheroom,ScyllaandCharybdisalloveragain,butbynopossibilitycouldIforceMissAndrewstoappear。Whyitwas,Idonotpretendtobeabletosay——shemayhaveknownthatBonettiwasthere,shemayhaverealizedthatIwastryingtoforceOsborneuponher;butwhateveritwasthatenabledhertodoso,sheresistedmesuccessfully——ormypendid;forthatsituationuponwhichIhadbasedtheopeningsceneofmystoryofcompulsionI foundbeyondmyabilitytodepict;andasHarleyhaddonebeforeme,sowasInowforcedtodo——tochangemyplan。 \"I’llhaveherrunawaywith!\"Icried,growingviciousinmywrath; \"andbothBonettiandOsborneshallplaceherundereternalobligationsbyrushingouttostopthehorse,onefromeithersideofthestreet。She’llhavetomeetBonettithen,\"Iadded,withachuckle。 AndItriedthatplan。Asdocileasalambsheenteredthephaeton,whichIconjuredupoutofmyink—pot,andlikeaveteranJehudidsheseizethereins。IcouldnothelpadmiringherasIwroteofit— —shewassolikeagoddess;butIdidnotrelent。Runawaywithshemustbe,andrunawaywithshewas。Butagaindidthisextraordinarywomanassertherselftomydiscomfiture;forthemomentshesawBonettirushingouttorescueherfromtheeast,shejerkedtheleftreinsoviolentlythatthehorseswervedtooneside,toppledoveronOsborne,whohadsprunggallantlytotherescuefromthewest;andBonetti,missinghisaimasthehorseturned,fellallinaheapintheroadwaytwoyardsbackofthephaeton。MissAndrewswasnothurt,butmystorywas,forshehadnotevenobservedtheunhappyOsborne;andasforBonetti,hecutsoridiculousafigurethat,Italianthoughhewas,evenheseemedawareofit,andheshrankdejectedlyoutofsight。Againhadthissupernaturallyelusiveheroineupsettheplansofonewhohadessayedtoembalmhervirtuesinaliterarymould。Icouldnotbringherintocontactwitheitherofmyheroes。 Ithrewmypendownindisgust,slammedtothecoverofmyink—well,andfortwohourspacedmadlythroughthemaze—likewalksoftheCentralPark,angryanddepressed;andfromthatmomentuntilI undertookthenarrationofthispatheticstoryIgaveHarley’sheroineupasunavailablematerialformypurposes。Shewasworse,ifanything,inimaginativeworkthaninrealism,becausesheabsolutelydefiedtheimagination,whiletherealistshewouldbegladtohelpsolongashisrealismwaskeptinstrictaccordwithherideasofwhattherealreallywas。 ItwassomedaysbeforeIsawHarleyagain,andIthoughthelookedtiredandanxious——soanxious,indeed,thatIwasafraidhemightpossiblybeinfinancialstraits,forIknewthatforthreeweekshehadnotturnedoutanyofhisusualpot—boilers,havingbeentoobusytryingtowritethestoryforMessrs。Herring,Beemer,&Chadwick。 Ithappened,oddlyenough,thatIhadtwoorthreeuncashedchecksinmypocket;so,feelinglikeamillionaire,Ibroachedthesubjecttohim。 \"What’sthematter,oldfellow?\"Isaid。\"Youseeminabluefunk。 Hasthemintstopped?Ifithas,commandme。I’moverburdenedwithchecksthisweek。\" \"Notatall;thanksjustthesame,\"hesaid,wearily。\"MyTiffinroyaltiescameinWednesday,andI’mallrightforawhile,anyhow。\" \"What’sup,then,Stuart?\"Iasked。\"Youlookworried。I’vejustofferedtosharemyprosperitywithyou,youmightshareyourgriefwithme。Lendmeapeckoftroubleovernight,willyou?\" \"Oh,it’snothingmuch,\"hesaid。\"It’sthatrebelliousheroineofmine。She’sweighingonmymind,that’sall。She’sveryrealtome,thatwoman;and,byJove!I’vebeenasjealousasaloverfortwodaysoverafancythatcameintomyhead。You’lllaughwhenItellyou,butI’vebeenhalfafraidsomebodyelsewouldtakeherupand—— well,treatherbadly。Thereissomethingthattellsmethatshehasbeenforcedintosomebrutalsituationbysomebody,somewhere,withinthepasttwoorthreedays。IbelieveI’dwanttokillamanwhodidthat。\" Ididn’tlaughathim。Iwasthemanwhowasinafairwaytogetkilledfor\"doingthat,\"andIthoughtlaughterwouldbealittlebitmisplaced;butIamnotacoward,andIdidn’tflinch。Iconfessed。 ItriedtoeasehismindbytellinghimwhatIhadattemptedtodo。 \"Itwasamistake,\"hesaid,shortly,whenIhadfinished。\"Andyoumustpromisemeonething,\"headded,veryseriously。 \"I’llpromiseanything,\"Isaid,meekly。 \"Don’tevertryanythingofthesortagain,\"hewenton,gravely。 \"Ifyouhadsucceededinwritingthatstory,andsubjectedhertoallthathorror,Ishouldneverhavespokentoyouagain。Asitis,I realizethatwhatyoudidwasoutofthekindnessofyourheart,promptedbyadesiretobeofservicetome,andI’mjustasmuchobligedasIcanbe,onlyIdon’twantanyassistance。\" \"Untilyouaskmeto,Stuart,\"Ireplied,\"I’llneverwriteanotherlineabouther;butyou’dbetterkeepverymumaboutheryourself,orgethercopyrighted。ThewaysheupsetthathorseonOsborne,completelyobliteratinghim,andatthesametimegettingoutofthewayofthatlittlesimianCount,inspiteofallIcoulddotoplaceherunderobligationstobothofthem,waswhattheancientswouldhavecalledacaution。Shehasmadeaslaveofmeforever,andI venturetopredictthatifyoudon’thurryupandgetherintoabook,somebodyelsewill;andwhoeverdoeswillmakeanameforhimselfalongsideofwhichthatofSmithwillsinkintooblivion。\" \"Countonmeforthat,\"saidhe。\"’Faintheartneverwonfairlady,’ andIdon’tintendtostopclimbingjustbecauseIfearafewmorefalls。\" CHAPTERVI:ANOTHERCHAPTERFROMHARLEY \"Waseverwomaninthishumourwoo’d? Waseverwomaninthishumourwon? I’llhaveher,——butIwillnotkeepherlong。\" —\"RichardIII。\" TherewasnodoubtaboutitthatHarley,truetohispurpose,wasmakingagoodfighttoconquerwithoutcompulsion,andappreciatedasmuchasIthenecessityofreducinghisheroinetoconcreteformasspeedilyaspossible,lestsomeothershouldprovemoresuccessful,andsodeprivehimofthelaurelsforwhichhehadworkedsohardandsufferedsomuch。Inhisfavorwashisdisposition。Hewasamanofgreatdetermination,andoncehesetaboutdoingsomethinghewasnotaneasymantoturnaside,andnowthat,forthefirsttimeinhislife,hefoundhimselfbaffledateverypoint,andbyaheroineofnoverygreatliteraryimportance,hebecamemoredeterminedthanever。 \"I’llconqueryet,\"hesaidtome,aweekorsolater;butthewearinesswithwhichhespokemademefearthatvictorywasafaroff。 \"I’venodoubtofit——ultimately,\"Ianswered,toencouragehim;\"butdon’tyouthinkyou’llstandabetterchanceifyouletherrestforawhile,andthenstealinuponherunawares,andcatchherlittleromanceasitflies?Sheisapparentlynervedupagainstyounow,andthemoreconscioussheisofyoureffortstoputheronpaper,themoreshewillrebel。Infact,herrebelliousnesswillbecomemoreandmoreamatterofwhimthanofprinciple,unlessyouletuponherforalittlewhile。Halfofheroppositionnowstrikesmeasobstinacy,andthemoreyoutrytobreakherspirit,eventhoughyoudoitgently,themorestubbornwillshebecome。Putthisbookasideforafewweeksanyhow。Whynottacklesomethingelse?You’ddobetterwork,too,afteralittlevariety。\" \"ThismustbefinishedbySeptember1st,that’swhynot,\"saidStuart。\"I’vepromisedHerring,Beemer,&Chadwicktosendthemthecompletedmanuscriptbythattime。Besides,noheroineofmineshalleversaythatsheswervedmefromdoingwhatIhavesetaboutdoing。 ItisnoworneverwithMargueriteAndrews。\" SoIlefthimathisdesk,andforaweekwasbusywithmyownaffairs。LatethefollowingFridaynightIdroppedinatHarley’sroomstoseehowmatterswereprogressing。AsIenteredIsawhimathisdesk,hisbackturnedtowardsme,silhouettedinthelamp—light,scratchingawayfuriouslywithhispen。 \"Ah!\"Ithought,asmyeyetookinthepicture,\"itgoesatlast。I guessIwon’tdisturbhistrainofthought。\" AndItriedtostealsoftlyout,forhehadnotobservedmyentrance。 Asluckwouldhaveit,IsteppeduponthesillofthedoorasI passedout,anditcreaked。 \"Hello!\"criedHarley,wheelingaboutinhischair,startledbythesound。 \"Oh!It’syou,isit?\"headded,asherecognizedme。\"Whatareyouupto?Comebackhere。Iwanttoseeyou。\" Hismannerwascheerful,butIcouldseethatthecheerfulnesswasassumed。Thecolorhadcompletelylefthischeeks,andgreatringsunderhiseyesbetokenedwearinessofspirit。 \"Ididn’twanttodisturbyou,\"saidI,returning。\"Youseemtohaveyourpenonacleartrack,withfullsteamup。\" \"Ihad,\"hesaid,quietly。\"IwasjustfinishingupthatHerring,Beemer,&Chadwickbusiness。\" \"Aha!\"Icried,graspinghishandandshakingit。\"Icongratulateyou。Successatlast,eh?\" \"Well,I’vegotsomethingdone——andthat’sit,\"hesaid,andhetossedtheletterblockuponwhichhehadbeenwritingacrossthetabletome。\"Readthat,andtellmewhatyouthinkofit。\" Ireaditovercarefully。ItwasalettertoMessrs。Herring,Beemer,&Chadwick,inwhichStuartaskedtoberelievedofthecommissionhehadundertaken: \"Ifindmyselfutterlyunabletocompletetheworkinthestipulatedtime,\"hewrote,\"forreasonsentirelybeyondmycontrol。NorcanI atthiswritingsaywithanydegreeofcertaintywhenIshallbeabletofinishthestory。Ihavemadeconstantandconscientiousefforttocarryoutmyagreementwithyou,butfruitlessly,andIbegthatyouwillrelievemeoftheobligationintowhichIenteredatthesigningofourcontract。OfcourseIcouldsendyousomethinglongenoughtocovertherequiredspace——wordscomeeasyenoughforthat—— buttheresultwouldbeunsatisfactorytoyouandinjurioustomewereItodoso。Pleaseletmehearfromyou,releasingmefromtheobligation,atyourearliestconvenience,asIamabouttoleavetownforafortnight’srest。Regrettingmyinabilitytoserveyouatthistime,andhopingsoontobeabletoavailmyselfofyourverykindoffer,Ibegtoremain,\"Yoursfaithfully,\"STUARTHARLEY。\" \"Oh!\"saidI。\"You’vefinishedit,then,by——\" \"Bygivingitup,\"saidhe,sadly。 \"It’sthestrangestthingthateverhappenedtome,butthatgirlisimpossible。Itakeupmypenintendingtosaythatshedidthis,andbeforeIknowitshedoesthat。Icannotcontrolmystoryatall,norcanIperceiveinwhatgivendirectionshewillgo。IfIcould,Icouldarrangemyscenariotosuit,butasitis,Icannotgoon。 Itmaycomelater,butitwon’tcomenow,andI’mgoingtogiveherup,andgodowntoBarnegattofishfortendays。Ihatetogivethebookup,though,\"headded,tappingthetablewithhispen—holderreflectively。\"Chadwick’sanawfullygoodfellow,andhisfirmisoneofthebestinthecountry,liberalandallthat,andhereatmyfirstopportunitytogetontheirlist,I’mcompletelyfloored。It’sbeastlyhardluck,Ithink。\" \"Don’tbefloored,\"saidI。\"Takemyadviceandtacklesomethingelse。Writesomeotherbook。\" \"That’sthedevilofit!\"hereplied,angrilypoundingthetablewithhisfist。\"Ican’t。I’vetried,andIcan’t。Mymindisfullofthatwoman。IfIdon’tgetridofherI’mruined——I’llhavetogetapositionasasalesmansomewhere,orstarve,foruntilsheiscaughtbetweengoodstiffboardcoversIcan’twriteanotherline。\" \"Oh,youtaketooseriousaviewofit,Stuart,\"Iventured。\"You’remadandtirednow。Idon’tblameyou,ofcourse,butyoumustn’tberash。Don’tsendthatletteryet。Waituntilyou’vehadtheweekatBarnegat——you’llfeelbetterthen。Youcanwritethebookintendaysafteryourreturn;orifyoustillfindyoucan’tdoit,itwillbetimeenoughtowithdrawthen。\" \"Whathopeisthereafterthat?\"hecried,tossingabundleofmanuscriptintomylap。\"Justreadthat,andtellmewhat’stheuse。 I’dmappedoutameetingbetweenMargueriteAndrewsandacertainMr。 ArthurParker,afellowwithwealth,position,brains,goodlooks——inshort,everythingagirlcouldaskfor,andthat’swhatcameofit。\" Ispreadthepagesoutuponthetablebeforemeandread: CHAPTERIV:ADECLARATION \"IhavenotseenSolikelyanambassadoroflove。\" —\"MerchantofVenice。\" Parkermountedthestepslightlyandrangthebell。Marguerite’skindnessofthenightbefore,whichwasinmarkedcontrasttohercoolnessattheMacFarlanddance,hadledhimtobelievethathewasnotwhollywithoutinteresttoher,andherinvitationthatheshouldcalluponherhadgivenhimasincerepleasure;infact,hewonderedthatheshouldbesopleasedoversotrivialacircumstance。 \"I’mafraidI’velostmyheartagain,\"hesaidtohimself。\"Thatis,againifIeverlostitbefore,\"headded。 AndhismindrevertedtoalittleepisodeatBarHarborthesummerbefore,andhewasnotsorrytofeelthatthatwoundwascured—— though,asamatteroffact,ithadneveramountedtomorethanascratch。 Amomentlaterthedooropened,andParkerentered,inquiringforMissAndrewsashedidso。 \"Idonotknow,butIwillseeifMissAndrewsisathome,\"saidthebutler,usheringhimintotheparlor。ThatimposingindividualknewquitewellthatMissAndrewswasathome,buthealsoknewthatitwasnothisplacetosaysountiltheyoungladyhadpersonallyassuredhimofthefactsinsofarastheyrelatedtothisparticularcaller。AllwentwellforParker,however。MissAndrewsconsentedtobeathometohim,andfiveminuteslatersheenteredthedrawingroomwhereParkerwasseated。 \"Howdoyoudo?\"shesaid,frigidly,ignoringhisoutstretchedhand。 (\"Thinkofthat,willyou?\"interposedHarley。\"He’dcometopropose,andwastoleaveengaged,andsheinsistsuponopeninguponhimfrigidly,ignoringhisoutstretchedhand。\" Icouldn’thelpsmiling。\"Whydidyouletherdoit?\"Iasked。 \"IcouldnomorehavechangeditthanIcouldfly,\"returnedStuart。 \"Sheoughtnevertohavebeenathomeifshewasgoingtobehavethatway。Icouldn’tforeseetheincident,andbeforeIknewitthat’sthewayithappened。ButIthoughtIcouldfixituplater,soI wenton。Readalong,andseewhatIgotletintonext。\" Iproceededtoreadasfollows:) \"Yousee,\"saidParker,withanadmiringglanceathereyes,inspiteofthefactthatthecoolnessofherreceptionratherabashedhim—— \"yousee,Ihavenotdelayedverylongincoming。\" \"SoIperceive,\"returnedMarguerite,withaboredmanner。\"That’swhatIsaidtoMrs。WillardasIcamedown。Youdon’tallowyourfriendsmuchleeway,Mr。Parker。Itdoesn’tseemmorethanfiveminutessinceweweretogetheratthecardparty。\" (\"That’scordial,eh?\"saidHarley,asIread。\"Nicesortoftalkforaheroinetoahero。Makesiteasyforme,eh?\" \"Imustsayifyoumanagetogetaproposalinnowyou’reagenius,\" saidI。 \"Oh——asforthat,IgotrecklesswhenIsawhowthingsweregoing,\" returnedHarley。\"Ilostmytemper,andtookitoutofpoorParker。 Heproposes,asyouwillseewhenyoucometoit;butitisn’trealism——it’scompulsion。Isimplyforcedhimintoit——poordevil。 Butgoonandreadforyourself。\" Ididso,asfollows:) ThiswashardlythetreatmentParkerhadexpectedatthehandsofonewhohadbeenundeniablygracioustohimatthecard—tablethenightbefore。Hehadreceivedthenoticethatshewastobehispartneratthetableswithmisgivings,onhisarrivalatMrs。Stoughton’s,becausehisrecollectionofherbehaviortowardshimattheMacFarlanddancehadledhimtobelievethathewaspersonallydistastefultoher;butastheeveningatcardsprogressedhefeltinstinctivelydrawntowardsher,andhervivacityofmanner,clevernessatrepartee,andextremeamiabilitytowardshimselfhadcompletelywonhisheart,whichvictorytheirlittletete—a—teteduringsupperhadconfirmed。Buthere,thismorning,wasreversiontoherfirstattitude。 Whatcoulditmean?Whyshouldshetreathimso? (\"Icouldn’tanswerthatquestiontosavemylife,\"saidStuart。 \"Thatis,notthen,butIfoundoutlater。Iputitin,however,andletParkerdrawhisownconclusions。I’dhavehelpedhimoutifI could,butIcouldn’t。Goonandseeforyourself。\" Iresumed。) Parkercouldnotsolvetheproblem,butitpleasedhimtobelievethatsomethingoverwhichhehadnocontrolhadgonewrongthatmorning,andthatthishaddisturbedherequanimity,andthathewasmerelythevictimofcircumstances;andsomehoworotheritpleasedhimalsotothinkthathecouldbethevictimofhercircumstances,sohestoodhisground。 \"Itisabeautifulday,\"hebegan,afterapause。 \"Isit?\"sheasked,indifferently。 (\"Frightfullysnubbish,\"saidI,appalledatthelengthstowhichMissAndrewswasgoing。 \"Dreadfully,\"sighedHarley。\"Andsounlikeher,too。\") \"Yes,\"saidParker,\"soverybeautifulthatitseemedapitythatyouandIshouldstayindoors,withplentyofwalkstobetakenand——\" Margueriteinterruptedhimwithasarcasticlaugh。 \"Withsomuchpityandsomanywalks,Mr。Parker,whydon’tyoutakeafewofthem!\"shesaid。 (\"GoodLord!\"saidI。\"Thisistheworstactofrebellionyet。Sheseemsbesideherself。\" \"Readon!\"saidHarley,insepulchraltones。) ThiswasParker’sopportunity。\"Iamnotfondofwalking,MissAndrews,\"hesaid;andthenheadded,quickly,\"thatis,alone——I don’tlikeanythingalone。Livingalone,likewalkingalone,is——\" \"Let’sgowalking,\"saidMarguerite,shortly,assheroseupfromherchair。\"I’llbedownintwominutes。Ionlyneedtoputmyhaton。\" Parkeracquiesced,andMissAndrewswalkedmajesticallyoutoftheparlorandwentup—stairs。 \"Confoundit!\"mutteredParker,asshelefthim。\"Aminutemore,andI’dhaveknownmyfate。\" (\"Yousee,\"saidHarley,\"I’dmadeupmymindthatthatproposalshouldtakeplaceinthatchapter,andIthoughtI’dworkedrightuptoit,inspiteofallMissAndrews’sdisagreeableremarkswhen,pop— —offshegoestoputonherhat。\" \"Oh——asforthat——that’sallright,\"saidI。\"Parkerhadsuggestedthewalk,andagirlreallydoesliketostaveoffaproposalaslongasshecanwhensheknowsitissuretocome。Furthermore,itgivesyouachancetodescribethehat,andsomakeupforafewofthewordsyoulostwhensherefusedtodiscussball—dresseswithMrs。 Willard。\" \"Ineverthoughtofthat;butdon’tyouthinkIworkeduptotheproposalskilfully?\"askedHarley。 \"Very,\"saidI。\"Butyou’redreadfullyhardonParker。Itwouldhavebeenbettertohavehadthebutlerfirehimout,headoverheels。Hecouldhavethrashedthebutlerfordoingthat,butwithyourheroinehishandsweretied。\" \"Goonandread,\"saidHarley。) \"ShemusthaveknownwhatIwasdrivingat,\"Parkerreflected,asheawaitedherreturn。\"Possiblyshelovesmeinspiteofthisfrigidbehavior。Thismaybehermethodofconcealingit;butifitis,I mustconfessit’sacaseof’Perhapsitwasrighttodissembleyourlove,But——whydidyoukickmedown—stairs?’ Certainly,knowing,asshenowmust,whatmyfeelingsare,herbeingwillingtogoforawalkonthecliffs,oranywhere,isafavorablesign。 (\"Parkermerelyechoedmyownhopeinthatremark,\"saidHarley。\"IfIcouldgetthemengaged,Iwassatisfiedtodoitinanywaythatmightbepleasingtoher。\") AmomentlaterMargueriteappeared,arrayedforthewalk。Parkerroseassheenteredandpickeduphisgloves。 \"Youareaperfectpicturethismorning,\"saidhe。 \"I’mready,\"shesaid,shortly,ignoringthecompliment。\"Wherearewescheduledtowalk?——orarewetohavesomethingtosayaboutitourselves?\" Parkerlookedatherwithawonderingsmile。Theaptnessoftheremarkdidnotstrikehim。However,hewasequaltotheoccasion。 \"Youdon’tbelieveinfreewill,then?\"heasked。 (\"Itwastheonlyintelligentremarkhecouldmake,underthecircumstances,yousee,\"explainedHarley。 \"Hewasacleverfellow,\"saidI,andresumedreading。) \"Ibelieveinagreatmanythingswearesupposedtodowithout,\" saidMarguerite,sharply。 Theyhadreachedthestreet,andinsilencewalkedalongBellevueAvenue。 \"Thereareagreatmanythings,\"vouchsafedParker,astheyturnedoutoftheavenuetothecliffs,\"thatmenaresupposednottodowithout——\" \"Yes,\"saidMarguerite,sharply——\"vices。\" \"Ididnotrefertothem,\"laughedParker。\"Infact,MissAndrews,theheartofmanissupposedtobeincompleteuntilhehaslostit,andhassucceededingettinganotherforhisvery——\" \"AreyouanadmirerofMaxNordau?\"interposedMarguerite,quickly。 (\"Whateverledyoutoputthatin?\"Iasked。 \"Goon,andyou’llsee,\"saidHarley。\"Ididn’tputitin。It’swhatshesaid。I’mnotresponsible。\") \"Idon’tknowanythingaboutMaxNordau,\"saidParker,somewhatsurprisedatthissuddenturnoftheconversation。 \"AreyoufamiliarwithSchopenhauer?\"sheasked。 (\"Itwasawfullyroughonthepoorfellow,\"saidHarley,\"butI couldn’thelphim。I’dforcedhiminsofarthatIcouldn’tgethimout。HisanswerflooredmeascompletelyasanythingthatMissAndrewseverdid。\") \"Schopenhauer?\"saidParker,nonplussed。\"Ohyes,\"headded,anideadawningonhismind。\"Thatistosay,moderatelyfamiliar——though,asamatteroffact,I’mnotatallmusical。\" MissAndrewslaughedimmoderately,inwhichParker,thinkingthathehadpossiblysaidsomethingwitty,althoughhedidnotknowwhatitwas,joined。Inamomentthelaughtersubsided,andforafewminutesthetwowalkedoninsilence。FinallyParkerspoke,resignedly。 \"MissAndrews,\"hesaid,\"perhapsyouhavenoticed——perhapsnot——thatyouhavestronglyinterestedme。\" \"Yes,\"shesaid,turninguponhimdesperately。\"Ihavenoticedit,andthatiswhyIhaveontwoseparateoccasionstriedtokeepyoufromsayingso。\" \"AndwhyshouldInottellyouthatIlove——\"beganParker。 \"Becauseitishopeless,\"retortedMarguerite。\"Iamperfectlywellaware,Mr。Parker,whatwearedownfor,andIsupposeIcannotblameyouforyourpersistence。Perhapsyoudon’tknowanybetter;perhapsyoudoknowbetter,butarewillingtogiveyourselfoverunreservedlyintothehandsofanother;perhapsyouarebeingforcedandcannothelpyourself。Itisjustpossiblethatyouareaprofessionalhero,andfeelunderobligationstoyouremployertofollowouthiswishestotheletter。Howeveritmaybe,youhavetwiceessayedtocometothepoint,andIhavetwicetriedtoturnyouaside。Nowitistimetospeaktruthfully。Iadmireandlikeyouverymuch,butIhaveawillofmyown,amnobody’spuppet,andifStuartHarleyneverwritesanotherbookinhislife,heshallnotmarrymetoamanIdonotlove;and,frankly,Idonotloveyou。I donotknowifyouareawareofthefact,butitistrueneverthelessthatyouarethethirdfiancehehastriedtothrustuponmesinceJuly3d。Liketheothers,ifyouinsistuponblindlyfollowinghiswill,andproposemarriagetome,youshallgobytheboard。Ihavewarnedyou,andyoucannowdoasyouplease。Youweresaying——?\" \"ThatIloveyouwithallmysoul,\"saidParker,grimly。 (\"Hedidn’treallyloveherthen,youknow,\"saidHarley。\"He’dbeencuredofthatinfiveminutes。ButIwasresolvedthatheshouldsayit,andhedid。That’showhecametosayitgrimly。Hediditjustasasoldierrushesuptothecannon’smouth。Headded,also:\") \"Willyoubemywife?\" \"Mostcertainlynot,\"saidMarguerite,turningonherheel,andleavingtheyoungmantofinishhiswalkalone。 (\"Andthen,\"saidHarley,withachuckle,\"Parker’smanhoodwouldassertitselfinspiteofallIcoulddo。Hemadeananswer,whichI wrotedown。\" \"Isee,\"saidI,\"butyou’vescratcheditout。Whatwasthatline?\" \"’\"ThanktheLord!\"saidParkertohimself,asMissAndrewsdisappearedaroundthecorner,’\"saidStuartHarley。\"That’swhatI wrote,andIflattermyselfontherealismofit,forthat’sjustwhatanyself—respectingherowouldhavesaidunderthecircumstances。\" Asilencecameoverus。 \"DoyouwonderI’vegivenitup,\"askedStuart,afterawhile。 \"Yes,\"saidI,\"Ido。Suchoppositionwouldnervemeuptoabattleroyal。Iwouldn’tgiveitupuntilI’dreturnedfromBarnegat,ifI wereyou,\"Iadded,anxioustohavehimrenewhisefforts;foranideahadjustflashedacrossmymind,which,althoughitinvolvedabreachoffaithonmypart,Ineverthelessbelievedtobegoodandjustifiable,sinceitmightrelieveStuartHarleyofhisembarrassment。 \"Verywell,\"Irejoicedtohearhimsay。\"Iwon’tgiveitupuntilthen,butIhaven’tmuchhopeafterthatlastchapter。\" SoHarleywenttoBarnegat,afterdestroyinghislettertoMessrs。 Herring,Beemer,&Chadwick,whilstIputmybreachoffaithintooperation。) CHAPTERVII:ABREACHOFFAITH \"Havingsworntoohard—a—keepingoath,Studytobreakit,andnottobreakmytroth。\" —\"Love’sLabor’sLost。\" WhenIassuredHarleythatIshouldkeepmyhandsoffhisheroineuntilherequestedmetodootherwise,aftermyfruitlessattempttodisciplineherintoalessrefractorymood,Ifullyintendedtokeepmypromise。Shewashis,asfarasshepossessedanyvalueasliterarymaterial,andhehadascleararighttoherexclusiveuseasifshehadbeencopyrightedinhisname——atleastsofarashisfriendswereconcernedhehad。Othersmightmakeuseofherforliterarypurposeswithaclearconscienceiftheychosetodoso,butthehandofafriendmustbestayed。Furthermore,myownexperiencewiththeyoungwomanhadnotbeensuccessfulenoughtoleadmetobelievethatIcouldconquerwhereHarleyhadbeenvanquished。 PhysicalforceIhadfoundtobeunavailing。ShewastoocunningtostumbleintoanyofthepitfallsthatwithallmyimaginationIcouldconjureuptoembarrassher;butsomethinghadtobedone,andInowresolveduponacourseofmoralsuasion,andwhollyforHarley’ssake。Themanwasactuallysufferingbecauseshehadsopersistentlydefiedhim,andhisdiscomfiturewasallthemoredeplorablebecauseitmeantlittleshortoftheruinofhislifeandambitions。Theproblemhadtobesolvedorhiscareerwasatanend。Harleynevercoulddotwothingsatonce。Thetaskhehadinhandalwaysabsorbedhiswholebeinguntilhewasabletowritethewordfinisonthelastpageofhismanuscript,anduntilthefinistothiselusivebookhewasnowstrugglingwithwaswritten,Iknewthathewouldwritenoother。Hispot—boilershecoulddo,ofcourse,andsoearnaliving,butpot—boilersdestroyratherthanmakereputations,andHarleywastooyoungamantorestuponpastachievements;neitherhadhedonesuchvastlysuperiorworkthathisfamecouldwithstandmuchdiminutionbythecontinuousproductionofephemera。ItwasthereforeinthehopeofsavinghimthatIbrokefaithwithhimandtemporarilystolehisheroine。Ididnotdreamofusingheratall,asyoumightthink,asaheroineofmyown,butratherasaninterestingpersonwithideasastothedutyofheroines——asortofPastGrandMistressoftheArtofHeroinism——whowasworthinterviewingforthedailypress。Iflattermyselfitwasagoodidea,worthyalmostofagenius,thoughIamperfectlywellawarethatIamnotagenius。Iammerelyamanofexceptionaltalent。I havetalentenoughforagenius,butnotastefortheunconventional,andbyjustsomuchdoIfallshortoftherealizationofthehopesofmyfriendsandfearsofmyenemies。TherearestoriesIhaveinmindthatareworthyofthemostexaltedFrenchmasters,forinstance,andwhenIhavethetimetobecareful,whichIrarelydo,IcanwritewiththepolishedgraceofaDeMaupassantoraJames,butIshallneverwritethem,becauseIvaluemysocialpositiontoohighlytoputmynametoanythingwhichitwouldneverdotopublishoutsideofParis。Idonotcaretoprovemygeniusatthecostoftherespectofmyneighbors——allofwhich,however,isforeigntomystory,andisputinheremerelybecauseIhaveobservedthatreadersareverymuchinterestedintheirfavoriteauthors,andliketoknowasmuchaboutthemastheycan。 Myplan,totakeupthethreadofmynarrativeoncemore,was,briefly,towriteaninterviewbetweenmyself,asarepresentativeofanewspapersyndicate,andMissMargueriteAndrews,the\"Well—KnownHeroine。\"Ithasbeenquitecommonoflateyearstointerviewthemodelsofwell—knownartists,sothatitdidnotrequiretoogreatastretchoftheimaginationtomakemyschemeareasonableone。Itmustberemembered,too,thatIhadnointentionofusingthisinterviewformyownaggrandizement。Iplanneditsolelyintheinterestsofmyfriend,hopingthatImightsecurefromMissAndrewssomeunguardedadmissionthatmightoperateagainstherownprinciples,asHarleyandIknewthem,andthat,thatsecured,I mightinducehertofollowmeeklyhisscheduleuntilhecouldbringhisstorytoareasonableconclusion。Failinginthis,Iwasgoingtotryanddiscoverwhatstyleofmanitwassheadmiredmost,whatmightbeherideasoftheromanceinwhichshewouldmostliketofigure,andallthat,sothatIcouldgiveHarleyafewpointswhichwouldenablehimsotoconstructhisromancethathisheroinewouldwalkthroughitaseasilyandasdocilelyasonecouldwish。 Finally,allotherthingsfailing,IwasgoingtothrowHarleyonhergenerosity,callattentiontothefactthatshewasruininghimbyherstubbornbehavior,andaskhertosubmittoalittletemporaryinconvenienceforhissake。 AsIhavealreadysaid,somustIrepeat,therewasgeniusintheidea,butIwasforcedtorelinquishcertainfeaturesofit,aswillbeseenshortly。Itookupmypen,andwiththreeboldstrokesthereoftransportedmyselftoNewport,andgoingdirectlytotheWillardCottage,Irangthebell。MissAndrewswasstillelusive。 Withalltheresourcesofimaginationathand,andwithnotanobstacleinmywaythatIcouldnotclearatabound,shestillheldmeatbay。Shewasnotathome——had,infact,departedtwodayspreviouslyfortheWhiteMountains。Fortunately,however,thebutlerknewheraddress,and,withoutbotheringabouttrains,luggage,oraughtelse,inonebriefparagraphIlandedmyselfattheProfileHouse,whereshewasspendingaweekwithMr。andMrs。RushtonofBrooklyn。Thischangeoflocationcausedmetomodifymyfirstidea,toitsadvantage。Isaw,whenIthoughtthematterover,that,onthewhole,theinterview,asaninterviewforanewspapersyndicate,waslikelytobenippedinthebud,sincethemomentIdeclaredmyselfareporterforasetofnewspapers,andstatedtheobjectofmycall,shewouldprobablydismissmewiththestatementthatshewasnotaprofessionalheroine,thatherviewswereofnointeresttothepublic,andthat,nothavingthepleasureofmyacquaintance,shemustbegtobeexcused。IwonderIdidn’tthinkofthisattheoutset。IsurelyknewHarley’sheroinewellenoughtohaveforeseenthispossibility。Irealizedit,however,themomentIdroppedmyselfintothegreathomelikeofficeoftheProfileHouse。MissAndrewswalkedthroughtheofficetothedining—roomasIregistered,andasIturnedtogazeuponherasshepassedmajesticallyon,itflashedacrossmymindthatitwouldbefarbettertoappearbeforeherasafellow—guest,andfindoutwhatIwantedandtellherwhyI hadcomeinthatguise,ratherthanintroducemyselfasoneofthoseyoungmenwhoearntheirdailybreadbypokingtheirnosesintootherpeople’sbusiness。 Hadthiscoursebeenbaseduponanythingmoresolidthanapurebitofimagination,Ishouldhavefounditdifficulttoaccommodatemyselfsoeasilytocircumstances。IfithadbeenHarleyinsteadofmyself,itwouldhavebeenimpossible,forHarleywouldneverhavestoopedtoprovidehimselfwithatrunkcontainingfreshlinenandevening—dressclothesandpatent—leatherpumpsbyastrokeofhispen。ThisIdid,however,andthatevening,havingcreatedanotherguest,whoknewmeofoldandwhoalsowasacquaintedwithMissAndrews,justasIhadcreatedmyexcellentwardrobe,Iwaspresented。 Theeveningpassedpleasantlyenough,andIfoundHarley’sheroinetobeallthathehadtoldmeandagreatdealmorebesides。Infact,sogreatlydidIenjoyhersocietythatIintentionallyprolongedtheeveningtoaboutthreetimesitsnormallength——whichwasaveryinartisticbitofexaggeration,Iadmit;butthenIdon’tpretendtobearealist,andwhenIsitdowntowriteIcanmakemyeveningsaslongorasshortasIchoose。Iwillsay,however,that,longasmyeveningwas,Imadeitgothroughitswholelengthwithouthavingrecoursetosuchcopy—makingsubterfugesasthedescriptionofdoorknobsandchairs;andexceptforitsunholylength,itwasnotatalllackinginrealism。MissAndrewsfascinatedmeandseemedtofindmerathergoodcompany,andIfoundmyselfsuggestingthatasthenextdaywasSundayshetakemeforawalk。FromwhatIknewofHarley’sexperiencewithher,Ijudgedshe’dbemorelikelytogoifIaskedhertotakemeinsteadofofferingtotakeher。Itwasasubtledistinction,butwithsomewomensubtledistinctionsarechasmswhichmenmustnottrytooverleaptoovaingloriously,lestdisasterovertakethem。Mybitofsubtletyworkedlikeacharm。 MissAndrewsgraciouslyacceptedmysuggestion,andIretiredtomycouchfeelingcertainthatduringthatwalktoBaldMountain,oraroundtheLake,ordowntotheFarm,orwhereverelseshemightchoosetotakeme,IcoulddomuchtohelppoorStuartoutofthepredicamentintowhichhislucklesschoiceofMissAndrewsashisheroinehadplungedhim。AndIwasn’tfarwrong,astheeventtranspired,althoughthemannerinwhichitworkedoutwasnotexactlyaccordingtomyschedule。 Idismissedthenightwithafewparagraphs;themorning,withitsdivineserviceintheparlor,wentquicklyandimpressively;foritISanimpressivesighttoseegatheredbeneaththosetoweringcliffsahundredormoreofpleasureandhealthseekersofdifferentcreedsworshippingheartilyandsimplytogether,asaccordantlyasthoughtheyknewnodifferencesandallmenwerepossessedofonecommonreligion——itwastooimpressive,indeed,formypen,whichhasbeenlargelygivenovertomattersoflessmoment,andIdidnotventuretotouchuponit,passinghastilyovertotheafternoon,whenMissAndrewsappeared,readyforthestroll。 Igazedatheradmiringlyforamoment,andthenIbegan: \"Isthatthecostumeyouwore\"——Iwasgoingtosay,\"whenyourejectedParker?\"butIfortunatelycaughtmyerrorintimetopassitoff——\"atNewport?\"Ifinished,withahalfgaspatthenarrownessofmyescape;for,itmustberemembered,Iwassupposedasyettoknownothingofthatepisode。 \"HowdoyouknowwhatIworeatNewport?\"sheasked,quickly——soquicklythatIalmostfearedshehadfoundmeout,afterall。 \"Why——ah——Ireadaboutyousomewhere,\"Istammered。\"Somenewspapercorrespondentdrewapictureofthesceneonthepromenadeintheafternoon,and——ah——hehadyoudown。\" \"Oh!\"shereplied,archinghereyebrows;\"thatwasit,wasit?Anddoyouwasteyourvaluabletimereadingthevulgareffusionsofthesocietyreporter?\" Wasn’tIgladthatIhadnotcomeasamanwithanosetoprojectintotheaffairsofothers——asanewspaperreporter! \"No,indeed,\"Irejoined,\"notgenerally;butIhappenedtoseethisparticularitem,andreaditandrememberedit。Afterall,\"Iadded,aswecametothesylvanpaththatleadstotheLake——\"afterall,onemightaswellreadthatsortofstuffasmostofthenovelsofthepresentday。Thevulgarreportermaybeignorantoraboor,andallthatisreprehensibleinhismethods,buthewritesaboutrealfleshandbloodpeople;and,whatisworse,hegenerallyapproximatesthetruthconcerningtheminhiswriting,whichismorethancanbesaidoftheso—calledrealisticnovelwritersoftheday。Ihaven’treadanovelinthreeyearsinwhichithasseemedtomethattheheroine,forinstance,wasanythingmorethanamarionette,withnowillofherown,andreadytodoatanytimeanyfoolishthingtheauthorwantedhertodo。\" AgainthoseeyesofMissAndrewsrestedonmeinamannerwhichgavemeconsiderableapprehension。Thenshelaughed,andIwasateaseagain。 \"Youareveryamusing,\"shesaid,quietly。\"Themostamusingofthemall。\" Theremarknettledme,andIquicklyretorted: \"ThenIhavenotlivedinvain。\" \"Youdoreallylive,then,eh?\"sheasked,halfchaffingly,gazingatmeoutofthecornersofhereyesinafashionwhichutterlydisarmedme。 \"Excuseme,MissAndrews,\"Ianswered,\"butIamafraidIdon’tunderstandyou。\" \"Iamafraidyoudon’t,\"shesaid,thesmileleavingherlips。\"Thefactthatyouarehereontheerrandyouhavechargedyourselfwithprovesthat。\" \"Iamnotaware,\"Isaid,\"thatIhavecomeonanyparticularlyridiculouserrand。MayIaskyouwhatyoumeanbytheexpression’mostamusingofthemall’?AmIoneamongmany,and,ifso,onewhatamongmanywhat?\" \"Yourerrandisagoodone,\"shesaid,gravely,\"andnotatallridiculous;letmeassureyouthatIappreciatethatfact。YourquestionIwillanswerbyaskinganother:Areyouhereofyourownvolition,orhasStuartHarleycreatedyou,ashedidMessrs。 Osborne,Parker,andtheProfessor?Areyoumynewhero,orwhat?\" Thequestionirritatedme。Thiswomanwasnotcontentwithinterferingseriouslywithmyfriend’shappiness:shewasactuallyattributingmetohim,castingdoubtsuponmyexistence,andplacingmeinthesamecategorywithherself——amerebookcreature。Toamanwhoregardshimselfasbeingtherealthing,fleshandblood,and,well,eighteen—caratfleshandbloodatthat,tobeaccusedoflivingonlyafigmentaryexistenceistoomuch。Iretortedangrily。 \"Ifyouconsidermenothingmorethananidea,youdonotmanifestyourusualastuteness,\"Isaid。 Herreplylaidmeflat。