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类别:其他 作者:Edwin Arlington Robinson字数:15833更新时间:19/01/04 13:23:19
HAMILTON Quiteso。Farewell。 JohnBrownThoughforyoursakeIwouldnothaveyounowSoneartometonightasnowyouare,GodknowshowmuchastrangertomyheartWasanycoldwordthatImayhavewritten; Andyou,poorwomanthatImademywife,Youhavehadmoreofloneliness,Ifear,ThanI——thoughIhavebeenthemostalone,Evenwhenthemostattended。SoitwasGodsetthemarkofhisinscrutableNecessityononethatwastogrope,Andserve,andsuffer,andwithalbegladForwhatwashis,andis,andistobe,Whenhisoldbones,thatareaburdennow,AresayingwhatthemanwhocarriedthemHadnotthepowertosay。Bonesinagrave,Coverthemastheywillwithchokingearth,Mayshoutthetruthtomenwhoputthemthere,Morethanallorators。Andso,mydear,SinceyouhavecheatedwisdomforthesakeOfsorrow,letyoursorrowbeforyou,Thislastofnightsbeforethelastofdays,ThelyingghostofwhatthereisofmeThatisthemostalive。ThereisnodeathFormeinwhattheydo。TheirdeathitisTheyshouldheedmostwhenthesuncomesagainTomakethemsolemn。TherearesomeIknowWhoseeyeswillhardlyseetheiroccupation,Fortearsinthem——andallforoneoldman; Forsomeofthemwillpitythisoldman,WhotookuponhimselftheworkofGodBecausehepitiedmillions。ThatwillbeForthem,Ifancy,theircompassionateBestwayofsayingwhatisbestinthemTosay;fortheycansaynomorethanthat,AndtheycandonomorethanwhatthedawnOfonemoredayshallgivethemlightenoughTodo。Buttherearemanydaystobe,Andtherearemanymentogivetheirblood,AsIgavemineforthem。Maytheycomesoon! Maytheycomesoon,Isay。Andwhentheycome,MayallthatIhavesaidunheardbeheard,Provingatlast,ormaybenot——nomatter—— WhatsortofmadnesswasthepartofmeThatmademestrike,whetherIfoundthemarkOrmissedit。Meanwhile,I’veastrangecontent,Apatience,andavastindifferenceTowhatmensayofmeandwhatmenfearTosay。Therewasaworktobebegun,AndwhentheVoice,thatIhaveheardsolong,AnnouncedasinathousandsilencesAnendofpreparation,IbeganThecomingworkofdeathwhichistobe,Thatlifemaybe。ThereisnootherwayThantheoldwayofwarforanewlandThatwillnotknowitselfandistonightAstrangertoitself,andtotheworldAmoreprodigiousupstartamongstatesThanIwasamongmen,andsoshallbeTilltheyaretoldandtold,andtoldagain; Formenarechildren,waitingtobetold,Andmostofthemarechildrenalltheirlives。 ThegoodGodinhiswisdomhadthemso,ThatnowandthenamadmanoraseerMayshakethemoutoftheircomplacencyAndshamethemintodeeds。ThemajorfileSeeonlywhattheirfathersmayhaveseen,Ormayhavesaidtheysawwhentheysawnothing。 Idonotsayitmatterswhattheysaw。 NowandagaintosomelonesoulorotherGodspeaks,andthereishangingtobedone,—— AsoncetherewasaburningofourbodiesAlive,albeitoursoulsweresorryfuel。 Butnowthefiresarefew,andwearepoisedAccordingly,forthestate’sbenefit,Afewstillminutesbetweenheavenandearth。 Thepurposeis,whentheyhaveseenenoughOfwhatitisthattheyarenottosee,Topluckmeasanunripefruitoftreason,AndthentoflingmebacktothesameearthOfwhichtheyare,asIsuppose,theflower—— NotgiventoknowtheriperfruitthatwaitsForamorecomprehensiveharvesting。 Yes,maytheycome,andsoon。AgainIsay,Maytheycomesoon!——beforetoomanyofthemShallbethebloodycostofourdefection。 Whenhellwaitsonthedawnofanewstate,Betteritwerethathellshouldnotwaitlong,—— OrsoitisIseeitwhoshouldseeAsfarorfartherintotimetonightThantheywhotalkandtrembleformenow,OrwishmetothoseeverlastingfiresThatareformenofear。ToomanyfiresHavesoughtmeoutandsearedmetothebone—— Thereby,forallIknow,totempermeForwhatwasminetodo。IfIdidillWhatIdidwell,letmensayIwasmad; OrletmynameforeverbeaquestionThatwillnotsleepinhistory。WhatmensayIwaswillcoolnocannon,dullnosword,Invalidatenotruth。Meanwhile,Iwas; Andthelongtrainislightedthatshallburn,Thoughfloodsofwrathmaydrenchit,andhotfeetMaystampitforaslighttimeintosmokeThatshallblazeupagainwithgrowingspeed,UntilatlastafierycrashwillcomeTocleanseandshakeawoundedhemisphere,AndhealitofalongmalignityThatangrytimediscreditsanddisowns。 Tonighttherearemensayingmanythings; AndsomewhoseelifeinthelastofmeWillanswerfirstthecomingcalltodeath; Fordeathiswhatiscoming,andthenlife。 IdonotsayagainforthedullsakeOfspeechwhatyouhaveheardmesaybefore,ButratherforthesakeofallIam,AndallGodmadeofme。AmantodieAsIdomusthavedonesomeotherworkThanman’salone。Iwasnotafterglory,Buttherewasglorywithme,likeafriend,Throughoutthosecripplingyearswhenfriendswerefew,AndfearfultobeknownbytheirownnamesWhenminewasvilifiedfortheirapproval。 Yetfriendstheyare,andtheydidwhatwasgivenTheirwilltodo;theycouldhavedonenomore。 Iwastheonemanmadenough,itseems,Todomywork;andnowmyworkisover。 Andyou,mydear,arenottomournforme,Orforyoursons,morethanasoulshouldmournInParadise,donewithevilandwithearth。 ThereisnotmuchofearthinwhatremainsForyou;andwhattheremaybeleftofitForyourenduranceyoushallhaveatlastInpeace,withoutthetwingeofanyfearFormycondition;forIshallbedoneWithplansandactionsthathaveheretoforeMadeyourdayslongandyournightsominousWithdarknessandthemanydistancesThatwerebetweenus。Whenthesilencecomes,IshallinfaithbenearertoyouthenThanIamnowinfact。WhatyouseenowIsonlytheoutsideofanoldman,Olderthanyearshavemadehim。Lethimdie,Andlethimbeathingforlittlegrief。 Therewasatimeforservice,andheserved; AndthereisnomoretimeforanythingButashortgratefulnesstothosewhogaveTheirscaredallegiancetoanenterpriseThathasthenameoftreason——whichwillserveAswellasanyotherforthepresent。 Therearesomedeedsofmenthathavenonames,Andminemaylikeasnotbeoneofthem。 Iamnotlookingfarfornamestonight。 TheKingofGlorywaswithoutanameUntilmengavehimone;yetthereHewas,BeforewefoundHimandaffrontedHimWithnumerousingenuitiesofevil,Ofwhichone,withHisaid,istobesweptAndwashedoutoftheworldwithfireandblood。 OnceIbelieveditmighthavecometopassWithasmallcostofblood;butIwasdreaming—— DreamingthatIbelieved。TheVoiceIheardWhenIleftyoubehindmeinthenorth,—— TowaitthereandtowonderandgrowoldOfloneliness,——toldonlywhatwasbest,Andwithasavingvagueness,IshouldknowTillIknewmore。AndhadIknowneventhen—— Aftergrimyearsofsearchandsuffering,Somanyofthemtoendastheybegan—— AftermysickeningdoubtsandestimationsOfplansabandonedandofnewplansvain—— AfterawearydelvingeverywhereFormenwitheveryvirtuebuttheVision—— CouldIhaveknown,Isay,beforeIleftyouThatsummermorning,alltherewastoknow—— EvenuntothelastconsumingwordThatwouldhaveblastedeverymortalanswerAslightningwouldannihilatealeaf,Imighthavetrembledonthatsummermorning; Imighthavewavered;andImighthavefailed。 AndtherearemanyamongmentodayTosayofmethatIhadbesthavewavered。 Sohasitbeen,soshallitalwaysbe,ForthoseofuswhogiveourselvestodieBeforewearesoparcelledandapprovedAstobeslaughteredbyauthority。 WedonotmakesomuchofwhattheysayAstheyofwhatourfollysaysofus; Theygiveushardlytimeenoughforthat,Andtherebywegainmuchbylosinglittle。 Fewarealiveto-daywithlesstoloseThanIwhotellyouthis,ormoretogain; AndwhetherIspeakasonetobedestroyedFornogoodendoutsidehisowndestruction,TimeshallhavemoretosaythanmenshallhearBetweennowandthecomingofthatharvestWhichistocome。Beforeitcomes,Igo—— BytheshortroadthatmysterymakeslongForman’senduranceofaccomplishment。 IshallhavemoretosaywhenIamdead。 TheFalseGods\"Wearefalseandevanescent,andawareofourdeceit,Fromthestrawthatisourvitalstotheclaythatisourfeet。 Youmayserveusifyoumust,andyoushallhaveyourwageofashes,—— Thougharrearsduethereaftermaybehardforyoutomeet。 \"Youmayswearthatwearesolid,youmaysaythatwearestrong,Butweknowthatweareneitherandwesaythatyouarewrong; Youmayfindaneasyworshipinacclaimingourindulgence,Butyourlargeadmirationofusnowisnotforlong。 \"Ifyourdoomistoadoreuswithadoubtthat’sneverstill,Andyoupraytoseeourfaces——prayinearnest,andyouwill。 Youmaygazeatusandlive,andliveassuredofourconfusion: FortheFalseGodsaremortal,andaremadeforyoutokill。 \"Andyoumayaswellobserve,whileapprehensivelyateaseWithanArtthat’sinorganicandisanythingyouplease,Thatanonyournewestruinmayliecrumblingunregarded,Likeanoldshrineforgotteninaforestofnewtrees。 \"Howsoeverlikenootherbethemodeyoumayemploy,There’sanorderintheagesfortheagestoenjoy; ThoughthetemplesyouareshapingandthepassionsyouaresingingArealongwayfromAthensandalongerwayfromTroy。 \"Whenwepromisemorethaneverofwhatnevershallarrive,Andyouseemalittlemorethanordinarilyalive,Makeanotethatyouaresureyouunderstandourobligations—— Forthere’sgriefalwaysauditingwheretwoandtwoarefive。 \"Therewasthisforustosayandtherewasthisforyoutoknow,Thoughithumblesandithurtsuswhenwehavetotellyouso。 Ifyoudoubttheonlytruthinallourperjuredcomposition,MaytheTrueGodsattendyouandforgetuswhenwego。\" Archibald’sExampleOldArchibald,inhiseternalchair,Wheretrespassers,whatevertheirdegree,Weresoonfrownedoutagain,waslookingoffAcrossthecloverwhenhesaidtome: \"Mygreenhillyonder,wherethesungoesdownWithoutascratch,wasonceinhabitedBytreesthatinjuredhim——aneviltrashThatmadeacage,andheldhimwhilehebled。 \"Gonefiftyyears,IseethemastheywereBeforetheyfell。TheywereacrookedlotTospoilmysunset,andIsawnotimeInfiftyyearsforcrookedthingstorot。 \"Trees,yes;butnotaserviceorajoyToGodorman,fortheywerethievesoflight。 Sodowntheycame。NatureandIlookedon,Andweweregladwhentheywereoutofsight。 \"Treesarelikemen,sometimes;andthatbeingso,Somuchforthat。\"Hetwinkledinhischair,AndlookedacrosstheclovertotheplaceThatherememberedwhenthetreeswerethere。 LondonBridge\"DoIhearthem?Yes,Ihearthechildrensinging——andwhatofit? Haveyoucomewitheyesafiretofindmenowandaskmethat? IfIwerenottheirfatherandifyouwerenottheirmother,Wemightbelievetheymadeanoise……Whatareyou——drivingat!\" \"Well,begladthatyoucanhearthem,andbegladtheyaresonearus,—— ForIhaveheardthestarsofheaven,andtheywerenearerstill。 AllwithinanhouritisthatIhaveheardthemcalling,AndthoughIprayforthemtocease,Iknowtheyneverwill; Fortheirmusiconmyheart,thoughyoumayfreezeit,willfallalways,Likesummersnowthatnevermeltsuponamountain-top。 Doyouhearthem?Doyouhearthemoverhead——thechildren——singing? Doyouhearthechildrensinging?……God,willyoumakethemstop!\" \"Andwhatnowinhisholynamehaveyoutodowithmountains? We’rebacktotownagain,mydear,andwe’veadancetonight。 Frozenheartsandfallingmusic?Snowandstars,and——whatthedevil! Sayitovertomeslowly,andbesureyouhaveitright。\" \"GodknowsifIberightorwronginsayingwhatItellyou,OrifIknowthemeaninganymoreofwhatIsay。 AllIknowis,itwillkillmeifItrytokeepithidden—— Well,Imethim……Yes,Imethim,andItalkedwithhim——today。\" \"Youmethim?Didyoumeettheghostofsomeoneyouhadpoisoned,Longago,beforeIknewyouforthewomanthatyouare? Takeachair;anddon’tbeginyourstoriesalwaysinthemiddle。 Washeman,orwashedemon?Anyhow,you’vegonetoofarTogoback,andI’myourservant。I’mthelord,butyou’rethemaster。 Nowgoonwithwhatyouknow,forI’mexcited。\" \"Doyoumean—— DoyoumeantomakemetrytothinkthatyouknowlessthanIdo?\" \"Iknowthatyouforeshadowthebeginningofascene。 Praybecareful,andasaccurateasifthedoorsofheavenWeretoswingortostayboltedfromnowonforevermore。\" \"Doyouconceive,withallyoursmoothcontemptofeveryfeeling,Ofhidingwhatyouknowandwhatyoumusthaveknownbefore? Isitworthawoman’storturetostandhereandhaveyousmiling,Withonlyyourpoorfetishofpossessiononyourside? Nothingbutoneiswhollysure,andthat’snotonetoscareme; WhenImeetitImaysaytoGodatlastthatIhavetried。 Andyet,forallIknow,orallIdarebelieve,mytrialsHenceforwardwillbemoreforyoutobearthanareyourown; AndyoumustgivemekeysofyourstoroomsIhavenotentered。 Doyouseemeonyourthresholdallmylife,andtherealone? Willyoutellmewhereyouseemeinyourfancy——whenitleadsyouFarenoughbeyondthemomentforaglanceattheabyss?\" \"WillyoutellmewhatintrinsicandamazingsortofnonsenseYouarecrowdingonthepatienceofthemanwhogivesyou——this? Lookaroundyouandbesorryyou’renotlivinginanattic,Withacivetandafish-net,andwithyoutopaytherent。 Isaywordsthatyoucanspellwithouttheuseofallyourletters; AndIgrant,ifyouinsist,thatI’veaguessatwhatyoumeant。\" \"HaveItoldyou,then,fornothing,thatImethim?AreyoutryingTobemerrywhileyoutrytomakemehateyou?\" \"Thinkagain,Mydear,beforeyoutellme,inalanguageunbecomingToalady,whatyouplantotellmenext。IfIcomplain,IfIseemanatompeevishatthepreferenceyoumention—— Orimply,tobeprecise——youmaybelieve,oryoumaynot,ThatI’matriflemoreawareofwhathewantsthanyouare。 ButIshouldn’tthrowthatatyou。MakebelievethatIforgot。 Makebelievethathe’sagenius,ifyoulike,——butinthemeantimeDon’tgobacktorocking-horses。There,there,there,now。\" \"Makebelieve! Whenyouseemestandinghelplessonaplankaboveawhirlpool,DoIdrown,ordoIhearyouwhenyousayit?Makebelieve? HowmuchmoreamItosayordoforyoubeforeItellyouThatImethim!What’stofollownowmaybeforyoutochoose。 Doyouhearme?Won’tyoulisten?It’saneasythingtolisten……\" \"Andit’seasytobecrazywhenthere’severythingtolose。\" \"IfatlastyouhaveanotionthatImeanwhatIamsaying,DoIseemtotellyounothingwhenItellyouIshalltry? Ifyousaveme,andIlosehim——Idon’tknow——itwon’tmuchmatter。 IdaresaythatI’veliedenough,butnowIdonotlie。\" \"DoyoufancymetheonemanwhohaswaitedandsaidnothingWhileawifehasdraggedanoldinfatuationfromatomb? Givethethingalittleairanditwillvanishintoashes。 Thereyouare——piff!presto!\" \"WhenIcameintothisroom,ItseemedasifIsawtheplace,andyouthereatyourtable,Asyouarenowatthismoment,forthelasttimeinmylife; AndItoldmyselfbeforeIcametofindyou,`Ishalltellhim,IfIcan,whatIhavelearnedofhimsinceIbecamehiswife。’ Andifyousay,asI’venodoubtyouwillbeforeIfinish,Thatyouhavetriedunceasingly,withallyourmightandmain,Toteachme,knowingmorethanIofwhatitwasIneeded,Don’tthink,withallyoumayhavethought,thatyouhavetriedinvain; ForyouhavetaughtmemorethanhidesinalltheshelvesofknowledgeOfhowlittleyoufoundthat’sinmeandwasinmeallalong。 Ibelieved,ifIintrudednothingonyouthatIcaredfor,I’dbehalfasmuchashorses,——anditseemsthatIwaswrong; Ibelievedtherewasenoughofearthinme,withallmynonsenseOverthingsthatmadeyousleepy,tokeepsomethingstillawake; Butyoutaughtmesoontoreadmybook,andGodknowsIhavereadit—— Ageslongerthananangelwouldhavereaditforyoursake。 IhavesaidthatyoumustopenotherdoorsthanIhaveentered,ButIwonderedwhileIsaiditifImightnotbeobscure。 IsthereanythinginallyourpedigreesandinventoriesWithavaluemoreelusivethanadollar’s?AreyousureThatifIstarveanotheryearforyouIshallbestrongerToendureanotherlikeit——andanother——tillI’mdead?\" \"Hasyourtamecatsoldapicture?——ormorelikelyhadawindfall? OrforGod’ssake,what’sbrokeloose?Haveyouabee-hiveinyourhead? Alittlemoreofthisfromyouwillnotbeeasyhearing。 Doyouknowthat?Understandit,ifyoudo;forifyouwon’t…… Whatthedevilareyousaying!Makebelieveyouneversaidit,AndI’llsayIneverheardit……Oh,you……Ifyou……\" \"IfIdon’t?\" \"Therearemenwhosaythere’sreasonhiddensomewhereinawoman,ButIdoubtifGodhimselfrememberswherethekeywashung。\" \"Hemaynot;fortheysaythatevenGodhimselfisgrowing。 Iwonderifhemakesbelievethatheisgrowingyoung; IwonderifhemakesbelievethatwomenwhoaregivingAlltheyhaveinholyloathingtoastrangeralltheirlivesArethewiseoneswhobuildhousesintheBible……\" \"Stop——youdevil!\" \"……Orthatsoulsareanywhiterwhentheirbodiesarecalledwives。 Ifadollar’sworthofgoldwillhoopthewallsofhelltogether,Whyneedheavenbesucharuinofaplacethatneverwas? AndifatlastIliedmystarvingsoulawaytonothing,Areyousureyoumightnotmissit?HaveyoucometosuchapassThatyouwouldhavemelongerinyourarmsifyoudiscoveredThatImadeyouintosomeoneelse……Oh!……Well,thereareworseways。 Butwhyaimitatmyfeet——unlessyoufearyoumaybesorry…… Therearemanydaysaheadofyou。\" \"Idonotseethosedays。\" \"Icanseethem。GrantedevenIamwrong,therearethechildren。 Andaretheytopraisetheirfatherforhisinsightifwedie? Doyouhearthem?Doyouhearthemoverhead——thechildren——singing? Doyouhearthem?Doyouhearthechildren?\" \"Damnthechildren!\" \"Why? WhathaveTHEYdone?……Well,then,——doit……Doitnow,andhaveitover。\" \"Oh,youdevil!……Oh,you……\" \"No,I’mnotadevil,I’maprophet—— OnewhoseestheendalreadyofsomuchthatoneendmoreWouldhavenowthesmallimportanceofoneothersmallillusion,Whichinturnwouldhaveawelcomewheretheresthavegonebefore。 ButifIwereyou,myfancywouldlookonalittlefartherFortheglimpseofareleasethatmaybesomewherestillinsight。 Furthermore,youmustrememberthosetwohundredinvitationsForthedancingafterdinner。Weshallhavetoshinetonight。 Weshalldance,andbeashappyasapairofmerryspectres,Onthegraveofalltheliesthatweshallneverhavetotell; Weshalldanceamongtheruinsofthetombofourendurance,AndIhavenotadoubtthatweshalldoitverywell。 There!——I’mgladyou’veputitback;forIdon’tlikeit。 Shutthedrawernow。 No——no——don’tcancelanything。I’lldanceuntilIdrop。 Ican’twalkyet,butI’mgoingto……Goawaysomewhere,andleaveme…… Oh,youchildren!Oh,youchildren!……God,willtheyneverstop!\" TaskerNorcross\"Whetheralltownsandallwholiveinthem—— SolongastheybesomewhereinthisworldThatweinourcomplacencycallours—— Aremoreorlessthesame,Ileavetoyou。 Ishouldsayless。Whetherornot,meanwhile,We’vealltwolegs——andasforthat,wehaven’t—— TherewerethreekindsofmenwhereIwasborn: Thegood,thenotsogood,andTaskerNorcross。 Nowtherearetwokinds。\" \"Meaning,asIdivine,Yourfriendisdead,\"Iventured。 Ferguson,WhotalkedhimselfatlastoutoftheworldHecensured,andisthereforesilentnow,Agreedindifferently:\"Myfriendsaredead—— Ormostofthem。\" \"Rememberonethatisn’t,\" Isaid,protesting。\"Honorhimforhisears; Treasurehimalsoforhisunderstanding。\" Fergusonsighed,andthentalkedonagain: \"YouhaveanovergrownalacrityForsayingnothingmuchandhearingless; AndI’veathanklesswonder,atthestart,HowmuchitistoyouthatIshalltellWhatIhavenowtosayofTaskerNorcross,Andhowmuchtotheairthatisaroundyou。 ButgivenapatiencethatisnotaverseTotheslowtragediesofhauntedmen—— Horrors,infact,ifyou’veaskilfuleyeToknowthemattheirfiresides,oroutwalking,——\" \"Horrors,\"Isaid,\"aremynecessity; AndIwouldhavethem,fortheirbesteffect,Alwaysoutwalking。\" Fergusonfrownedatme: \"ThewisestofusarenotthosewholaughBeforetheyknow。Mostofusneverknow—— OrthelongtoilofourmortalityWouldnotbedone。Mostofusneverknow—— AndthereyouhaveareasontobelieveInGod,ifyoumayhavenoother。Norcross,OrsoIgatherofhisinfirmity,Wasgiventoknowmorethanheshouldhaveknown,AndonlyGodknowswhy。SeeforyourselfAnoldhousefullofghostsofancestors,Whodidtheirbest,orworst,andhavingdoneit,Diedhonorably;andeachwithadistinctionThathardlywouldhavebeenforhimthathadit,Hadhonorfailedhimwhollyasafriend。 Honorthatisafriendbegetsafriend。 Whetherornotwelovehim,stillwehavehim; Andwemustlivesomehowbywhatwehave,Orthenwedie。Ifyousaychemistry,Thenyoumusthaveyourmoleculesinmotion,Andintheirrightabundance。Failingeither,Youhavenotlongtodance。Failingafriend,Agenius,oramadness,orafaithLargerthandesperation,youarehereForasmuchlongerthanyoulikeasmaybe。 Imaginingnow,bywayofanexample,Myselfamoreorlessrememberedphantom—— Again,Ishouldsayless——howmanytimesAdayshouldIcomebacktoyou?Noanswer。 ForgivemewhenIseemalittlecareless,Butwemusthaveexamples,orbelucidWithoutthem;andIquestionyouradherenceTosuchanundramaticnarrativeAsthisofmine,withoutthepersonalhook。\" \"AtimeisgiveninEcclesiastesFordiversworks,\"Itoldhim。\"IsthereoneForsayingnothinginreturnfornothing? Ifnot,thereshouldbe。\"Icouldfeelhiseyes,AndtheywereliketwocoldinquiringpointsOfasharpmetal。WhenIlookedagain,Toseethemshine,thecoldthatIhadfeltWasgonetomakewayforasmoulderingOflonelyfirethatI,asIknewthen,Couldneverquenchwithkindnessorwithlies。 IshouldhavedonewhatevertherewastodoForFerguson,yetIcouldnothavemournedInhonestyforoncearoundtheclockThelossofhim,formysakeorforhis,TryasImight;norwouldhisghostapprove,HadIthepowerandtheunthinkingwillTomakehimtreadagainwithoutanaimTheroadthatwasbehindhim——andwithoutThefaith,orfriend,orgenius,orthemadnessThathecontendedwasimperative。 Afterasilencethathadbeentoolong,\"Itmaybequiteaswellwedon’t,\"hesaid; \"Aswell,Imean,thatwedon’talwayssayit。 YouknowbestwhatImean,andIsupposeYoumighthavesaiditbetter。Whatwasthat? Incorrigible?AmIincorrigible? Well,it’saword;andawordhasitsuse,Or,likeaman,itwillsoonhaveagrave。 It’sagoodwordenough。Incorrigible,Maybe,forallIknow,thewordforNorcross。 SeeforyourselfthathouseofhisagainThathecalledhome:Anoldhouse,paintedwhite,Squareasabox,andchillierthanatombTolookatortolivein。Thereweretrees—— Toomanyofthem,ifsuchathingmaybe—— Beforeitandaroundit。DowninfrontTherewasaroad,arailroad,andariver; Thentherewerehillsbehindit,andmoretrees。 Thethingwouldfairlystareatyouthroughtrees,LikeapaleinmateoutofabarredwindowWithagreenshadehalfdown;andIdaresayPeoplewhopassedhavesaid:`There’swherehelives。 Weknowhim,butwedonotseemtoknowThatwerememberanygoodofhim,Oranyevilthatisinteresting。 Thereyouhaveallweknowandallwecare。’ Theymighthavesaiditinallsortsofways; Andthen,iftheyperceivedacat,theymightOrmightnothaverememberedwhattheysaid。 Thecatmighthaveapersonality—— AndmaybethesameonetheLordleftoutOfTaskerNorcross,who,forlackofit,Sawthesamesungodownyearafteryear; Allwhichatlastwasmydiscovery。 Andonlymine,sofarasevidenceEnlightensonemoredarkness。YouhaveknownAllroundyou,allyourdays,menwhoarenothing—— Nothing,Imean,sofarastimetellsyetOfanyotherneedithasofthemThantomakesextonshardy——butnolessAretothemselvesincalculablysomething,Andthereforetobecherished。God,yousee,Beingsorryforthemintheirfashioning,IndemnifiedthemwithaquaintesteemOfself,andwithillusionslongaslife。 Youknowthemwell,andyouhavesmiledatthem; Andthey,intheirserenity,mayhavehadTheirtimetosmileatyou。BlessedaretheyThatseethemselvesforwhattheyneverwereOrweretobe,andare,fortheirdefect,AteasewithmirrorsandthedimremarksThatpasstheirtranquilears。\" \"Come,come,\"saidI; \"TheremaybenamesinyourcompendiumThatwearenotyetallonfireforshouting。 Skinmostofusofourmediocrity,Weshouldhavenothingthenthatwecouldscratch。 Thepicturesmarts。Coverit,ifyouplease,Anddosorathergently。NowforNorcross。\" Fergusonclosedhiseyesinresignation,Whileadeadsighcameoutofhim。\"GoodGod!\" Hesaid,andsaiditonlyhalfaloud,Asifheknewnolongernow,norcared,Ifoneweretheretolisten:\"HaveIsaidnothing—— Nothingatall——ofNorcross?DoyoumeanTopatronizehimtillhisnamebecomesAtoymadeoutofletters?IfanameIsallyouneed,arrangeanhonestcolumnOfallthepeopleyouhaveeverknownThatyouhaveneverliked。You’llhaveenough; Andyou’llhavemine,moreover。No,notyet。 IfIassumetoomanyprivileges,Ipay,andIalone,fortheirassumption; Bywhich,ifIassumeadarkerknowledgeOfNorcrossthananother,lettheweightOfmyinjusticeaggravatetheloadThatisnotonyourshoulders。WhenIcameToknowthisfellowNorcrossinhishouse,IfoundhimasIfoundhiminthestreet—— Nomore,noless;indifferent,butnobetter。 `Worse’werenotquitetheword:hewasnotbad; Hewasnot……well,hewasnotanything。 HasyourinventioneverentertainedThepictureofadustywormsodryThateventheearlybirdwouldshakehisheadAndflyonfartherforanotherbreakfast?\" \"Butwhyforgetthefortuneoftheworm,\" Isaid,\"ifinthedrynessyoudeploreSalvationcentredandendured?YourNorcrossMayhavebeenoneformanytohaveenvied。\" \"Salvation?Fortune?Wouldthewormsaythat? Hemight;andthereforeIdismissthewormWithalldrythingsbutone。Figuresaway,Doyoubegintoseethismanalittle? Doyoubegintoseehimintheair,WithallthevacanthorrorsofhisoutlineForyoutofillwithmorethanitwillhold? Ifso,youneedn’tcrownyourselfatonceWithepiclaurelifyouseemtofillit。 Horrors,Isay,forinthefiresandforksOfanewhell——ifonewerenotenough—— IdoubtifanewhorrorwouldhaveheldhimWithamalignantingenuityMoretobefearedthanhisbeforehedied。 Yousmile,asifindoubt。Well,smileagain。 Nowcomeintohishouse,alongwithme: ThefoursquaresombrethingsthatyouseefirstAroundyouarefourwallsthatgoashighAstotheceiling。Norcrossknewthemwell,Andheknewotherslikethem。FastentothatWithalltheclawsofyourintelligence; AndholdthemanbeforeyouinhishouseAsifhewereawhiteratinabox,Andonethatknewhimselftobenoother。 Itellyoutwicethatheknewallaboutit,ThatyoumaynotforgettheworstofallOurtragediesbeginwithwhatweknow。 CouldNorcrossonlynothaveknown,IwonderHowmanywouldhaveblessedandenviedhim! CouldhehavehadtheusualeyeforspotsOnothers,andfornoneuponhimself,IsmiletoponderonthecarriagesThatmightaswellasnothavecloggedthetownInhonorofhisend。Fortherewasgold,Yousee,thoughallheneededwasalittle,Andwhathegavesaidnothingofwhogaveit。 HewouldhavegivenitallifinreturnTheremighthavebeenamoresufficientfaceTogreethimwhenheshaved。ThoughyouinsistItisthedower,andalways,ofourdegreeNottobecursedwithsuchinvidiousinsight,Rememberthatyoustand,youandyourfancy,Nowinhishouse;andsincewearetogether,Seeforyourselfandtellmewhatyousee。 Tellmethebestyousee。MakeaslightnoiseOfrecognitionwhenyoufindabookThatyouwouldnotasliefreadupsidedownAsotherwise,forexample。Ifthereyoufail,Observethewallsandleadmetotheplace,Whereyouareled。IfthereyoumeetapictureThatholdsyounearitforalongertimeThanyouaresorry,youmaycallityours,Andhangitinthedarkofyourremembrance,WhereNorcrossneversees。HowcanheseeThathasnoeyestosee?Andasformusic,HepaidwithemptywonderforthepangsOfhisinfrequentforcedenduranceofit; Andhavinghadnopleasure,paidnomoreForneedlessimmolation,orforthesightOfthosewhoheardwhathewasnevertohear。 ToseethemlisteningwasitselfenoughTomakehimsuffer;andtowatchworneyes,Onotherdays,ofstrangerswhoforgotTheirsorrowsandtheirfailuresandthemselvesBeforeafewmysteriousoddsandendsOfmarblecartedfromtheParthenon—— Andallforseeingwhathewasnevertosee,Becauseitwasaliveandhewasdead—— HerewasawonderthatwasmoreprofoundThananythatwasinfiddlesandbrasshorns。 \"Heknew,andinhisknowledgetherewasdeath。 HeknewtherewasaregionallaroundhimThatlayoutsideman’shavocandaffairs,Andyetwasnotallhostiletotheirtumult,Wherepoetswouldhaveservedandhonoredhim,Andsavedhim,hadtherebeenanythingtosave。 Buttherewasnothing,andhistetheredrangeWasonlyasmalldesert。KingsofsongArenotforthronesindeserts。TowersofsoundAndflowersofsensearebutawasteofheavenWherethereisnonetoknowthemfromtherocksAndsand-grassofhisownmonotonyThatmakesearthlessthanearth。Hecouldseethat,Andhecouldseenomore。ThecapturedlightThatmayhavebeenornot,forallhecared,Thesongthatisinsculpturewasnothis,Butonly,tohisGod-forgotteneyes,OnemoreimmortalnonsenseinaworldWhereallwasmortal,orhadbestbeso,Andsobedonewith。`Art,’hewouldhavesaid,`Isnotlife,andmustthereforebealie;’ AndwithafewprofunditieslikethatHewouldhavecontrovertedanddismissedThebenefitoftheGreeks。Hehadheardofthem,Ashehadheardofhisaspiringsoul—— Nevertotheperceptibleadvantage,Inhisesteem,ofeither。`Faith,’hesaid,Orwouldhavesaidifhehadthoughtofit,`LivesinthesamehousewithPhilosophy,WherethetwofeedonscrapsandareforlornAsorphansafterwar。Hecouldseestars,Onaclearnight,buthehadnotaneyeToseebeyondthem。Hecouldhearspokenwords,Buthadnoearforsilencewhenalone。 Hecouldeatfoodofwhichheknewthesavor,ButhadnopalatefortheBreadofLife,Thathumandesperation,tohisthinking,Madefamouslongago,havingnoother。 Nowdoyousee?Doyoubegintosee?\" ItoldhimthatIdidbegintosee; AndIwasnearerthanIshouldhavebeenTolaughingathismaligninclusiveness,WhenIconsideredthat,withallourspeed,Wearenotlaughingyetatfunerals。 IseehimnowasIcouldseehimthen,AndIseenowthatitwasgoodforme,Asitwasgoodforhim,thatIwasquiet; ForTime’seyewasonFerguson,andtheshaftOfitsinquiringhesitancyhadtouchedhim,OrsoIchosetofancymorethanonceBeforehetoldofNorcross。WhenthewordOfhisrelease(hewouldhavecalleditso) Madehalfaninchofnews,therewerenotearsThatarerecorded。WomentheremayhavebeenTowishhimback,thoughIshouldsay,notknowing,Thefewthereweretomournwerenotforlove,Andwerenotlovely。Nothingofthem,atleast,WasinthemeagrelegendthatIgatheredYearsafter,whenachanceoftraveltookmeSoneartheregionofhisnativityThatafewmilesofleisurebroughtmethere; ForthereIfoundafriendlycitizenWholedmetohishouseamongthetreesThatwereabovearailroadandariver。 SquareasaboxandchillierthanatombItwasindeed,tolookatortolivein—— AllwhichhadIbeentold。\"Fergusondied,\" Thestrangersaid,\"andthentherewasanauction。 Ilivehere,butI’veneveryetbeenwarm。 Rememberhim?Yes,Irememberhim。 Iknewhim——asamanmayknowatree—— Fortwentyyears。HemayhaveheldhimselfAlittlehighwhenhewashere,butnow…… Yes,IrememberFerguson。Oh,yes。\" Others,Ifound,rememberedFerguson,ButnoneofthemhadheardofTaskerNorcross。 ASongatShannon’sTwomencameoutofShannon’shavingknownThefacesofeachotherforaslongAstheyhadlistenedtheretoanoldsong,SungthinlyinawastrelmonotoneBysomeunhappynight-bird,whohadflownToomanytimesandwithawingtoostrongTosavehimself,andsodoneheavywrongTomorefrailelementsthanhisalone。 Slowlyawaytheywent,leavingbehindMorelightthanwasbeforethem。NeithermetTheother’seyesagainorsaidaword。 Eachtohislonelinessortohiskind,Wenthisownway,andwithhisownregret,Notknowingwhattheothermayhaveheard。 SouvenirAvanishedhousethatforanhourIknewBysomeforgottenchancewhenIwasyoungHadonceaglimmeringwindowoverhungWithhoneysucklewetwitheveningdew。 Alongthepathtallduskydahliasgrew,AndshadowyhydrangeasreachedandswungFerociously;andoverme,amongThemothsandmysteries,ablurredbatflew。 SomewherewithinthereweredimpresencesOfdaysthathoveredandofyearsgoneby。 Iwaited,andbetweentheirsilencesTherewasanevanescentfadednoise; Andthoughachild,IknewitwasthevoiceOfonewhoseoccupationwastodie。 DiscoveryWetoldofhimasonewhoshouldhavesoaredAndseenforusthedevastatinglightWhereofthereisnoteitherdayornight,AndsharedwithustheglamouroftheWordThatfellonceuponAmostorecordFormenateaseinZion,whenthesightOfillsobscuredaggrievedhimandthemightOfHamathwasawarningoftheLord。 Assuredsomehowthathewouldmakeuswise,Ourpleasurewastowait;andoursurpriseWashardwhenweconfessedthedryreturnOfhisregret。ForwewerestilltolearnThatearthhasnotaschoolwherewemaygoForwisdom,orformorethanwemayknow。 FirelightTenyearstogetherwithoutyetacloud,Theyseekeachother’seyesatintervalsOfgratefulnesstofirelightandfourwallsForlove’sobliterationofthecrowd。 SerenelyandperenniallyendowedAndboweredasfewmaybe,theirjoyrecallsNosnake,nosword;andoverthemtherefallsTheblessingofwhatneithersaysaloud。 Wiserforsilence,theywerenotsogladWereshetoreadthegraventaleoflinesOnthewanfaceofonesomewherealone; NorweretheymorecontentcouldhehavehadHerthoughtsamomentsinceofonewhoshinesApart,andwouldbehersifhehadknown。 TheNewTenantsThedaywasherewhenitwashistoknowHowfaredthebarriershehadbuiltbetweenHistriumphandhisenemiesunseen,Forthemtoundermineandoverthrow; AnditwashisnolongertoforegoThesightofthem,insidiousandserene,WheretheyweredelvingalwaysandhadbeenLeftalwaystobeviciousandtogrow。 Andtherewerethenewtenantswhohadcome,Bydoorsthatwereleftopenunawares,Intohishouse,andweresomuchathomeTherenowthathewouldhardlyhavetoguess,Bytheslowguileoftheirvindictiveness,Whatultimateinsolencewouldsoonbetheirs。 InferentialAlthoughIsawbeforemetherethefaceOfonewhomIhadhonoredamongmenTheleast,andonregardinghimagainWouldnothavehadhiminanotherplace,HefittedwithanunfamiliargraceThecoffinwhereIcouldnotseehimthenAsIhadseenhimandappraisedhimwhenIdeemedhimunessentialtotherace。 FortherewasmoreofhimthanwhatIsaw。 AndtherewasonmemorethantheoldaweThatisthecommongeniusofthedead。 Imightaswellhaveheardhim:\"Nevermind; Ifsomeofuswerenotsofarbehind,Therestofuswerenotsofarahead。\" TheRatAsoftenashelethimselfbeseenWepitiedhim,orscornedhim,ordeploredTheinscrutableprofusionoftheLordWhoshapedasoneofusathingsomean—— WhomadehimhumanwhenhemighthavebeenArat,andsobeenwhollyinaccordWithanyothercreatureweabhorredAsalwaysuselessandnotalwaysclean。 Nowheishidingallalonesomewhere,Andinafinalholenotreadythen; FornowheisamongthoseoverthereWhoarenotcomingbacktousagain。 AndwewhodothefictionofourshareSaylessofratsandrathermoreofmen。 RaheltoVarnhagenNote。——RahelRobertandVarnhagenvonEnseweremarried,aftermanyprotestationsonherpart,in1814。Themarriage——sofarashewasconcerned,atanyrate——appearstohavebeensatisfactory。 Nowyouhavereadthemall;orifnotall,AsmanyasinallconscienceIshouldfancyTobeenough。Therearenomoreofthem—— Ornonetoburnyoursleep,ortobringdreamsOfdevils。Ifthesearenotsufficient,surelyYouareastrangeyoungman。ImightliveonAlone,andforanotherfortyyears,Ornotquiteforty,——areyouhappiernow?—— AlwaystoaskifthereprevailedelsewhereAnotherlikeyourselfthatwouldhaveheldTheseagedhandsaslongasyouhaveheldthem,Notonceobserving,forallIcansee,Howtheyarelikeyourmother’s。Well,youhavereadHislettersnow,andyouhaveheardmesayThatinthemarethecindersofapassionThatwasmylife;andyouhavenotyetbrokenYourwayoutofmyhouse,outofmysight,—— Intothestreet。Youareastrangeyoungman。 Iknowasmuchasthatofyou,forcertain; AndI’malreadypraying,foryoursake,Thatyoubenottoostrange。ToomuchofthatMayleadyoubyeandbyethroughgloomylanesToasadwilderness,whereonemaygropeAlone,andalways,oruntilhefeelsFerociousandinvisibleanimalsThatwaitformenandeattheminthedark。